im so fucking depressed. i feel useless, i wanna have a well paying job but im so fucking dumb, even if i study hard. my family life is hell, i got an abusive mom whos bipolar and a brother who wants to hit me. i try talking to my other family members about my issues but all i get is "i went through that." im so severally tired that i dont wanna wake up, i dont shower, i dont brush my teeth, i smell and i look like a mess. i was so pretty, really really pretty but now since i broke my fucking tooth i look so ugly. im so insecure. i want someone to love me but every guy i talk to is a werido who says something racist and has a brain of a pea. im trynna study but im so dumb to not get anything and when i slip up, i get abused for being "too dumb". i wanna move out soon but im so broke and i have no money to my name. no motivation is helping me, all my friends are fake, im a loser who is severlly chronically online and i have a mentally ill sister and a fucked up family. fuck my life.