Everyday Life

i like attention and i need them as a reminder that i exist. i hate it but it’s really hard to change it. however when people do give attention, i will think that they’re faking it and i’m exhausted with this loop. how do i end this?

Maybe if that kind woman didn't save me from getting hit by s Jeepney back then I wouldn't have to suffer so much right now. Kinda thankful and hate her

And I don't enjoy being woke up by CREAK CREAK CREAK CREAK CREAK thump stomp thump after 5 every morning. I had all of 3 hrs of sleep last night and their kid thumped the hell out of my ceiling this morning on purpose (you could tell). BECAUSE THEY'RE QUIET AS A MOUSE WHEN THEY'RE BABYSITTING A BABY. I'm sure anybody would feel like I do if it were them. We need to get out of here so bad people are horrible in this complex.

I still don't like how my fam can just look the other way knowing what I go through and how I feel. I don't like what the Karen blurted out to me yesterday. I wasn't right. That's not how you talk to people or go about solving a problem. They don't know how to act. They put on an angelic act on social media and say stuff oh so sorry I'll pray for you and yesterday turns around speaking at me with the worst tone of voice. They're so childish. Immature. And seemingly jealous of us. I think you need to reevaluate your faith lady if you claim religion. I'm not your judge but your actions are speaking for you. You don't mistreat and talk people like crap and claim religion. They seem to act like do unto others means cut their throat snitch and not care if they freeze to death in the winter because they toss out cats at various times. My feelings are valid I don't enjoy being talked at like shit over something I HAVEN'T EVEN DONE sour ass miserable swamp thing.

Acting heartbroken while whoring around is funny. Why relate with heartbroken characters when they’ve been loyal to one person , while you whore around with multiple women and you want to relate yourself with such characters? Yikes!

It’s not that serious go to school try get good grade. If you fail you fail it ain’t the end of the world. School is for learning you learn something new, you learn from your mistakes, you learn how to communicate and grow as a human being. Who cares if you’re not the coolest guy or hottest gal. No one cares about you their too busy caring about themselves and if someone does point out your flaws they’re just trying to bring themselves up because you have something they don’t or you’ve don’t better than them at something they can’t. Go to school get good grades, move to an higher education and find a good job. No one’s gonna be like” I can’t believe you didn’t get that job.” Unless you really work hard for it. Nothing falls into your lap for free you want something you have to make money to buy it, you want good relationships you're gonna have to put effort into it, you want a good health you’re gonna need discipline, you want a good life your gonna have to decide. Make it Work or not.

Idk about yall but cutting seems kinda edgy. I mean, who’d like to ruin their pretty arms over something stupid?? Makes no sense. There’s not a single scar on my hand due to s/h so .. yeah

I don't understand why this keeps happening to me. It's like I'm happy right now, but after a while, I get hit by this wave of sadness. But, sometimes, it's my mom. She's super biased towards my brother ever since I was 8, it's been years, but this keeps happening. I don't understand why my opinion or voice doesn't even matter to her when my brother's in the frame. She constantly points out my insecurities in front of my brother. It's like I'm invisible to her. I feel super guilty because I think it's my fault for not being good enough for what she wants. It keeps eating me up. Whenever, I'm sad, I just isolate myself instead of speaking it out, so when my mom sees it, instead of comforting me, she just tells other people that I'm a depressed teen and its all because of my phone. I don't know how much longer she's going to keep doing this, but I'm tired. Thankyou for anyone who read this all the way, I was bored so I decided to dump it all here. I'm grateful, thankyou.

I swore I wasn’t into older men because I thought it was a cliche. But I got myself blushing at a male teacher and now I am questioning my relationship with my dad. Damm you Sigmund Freud

I've never felt prettier before and I really felt the most beautiful today. I rlly hope this continues and I can carry on the same confidence I had for today to all the preceding days. I'm starting to love myself and.. I can finally see improvement in the way I view myself;⁠-⁠)

I really wish people would make kindness the norm. Because they sure aren't in my life I know that. I'm so over how people near me act anymore. The whole situation is bull. I shouldn't have to be going through what I am. Other's crap is being projected on me. I want to leave so bad.

what is so wrong with me? i had nightmares consistently in 2025. some genuinely spooking me out, being stalked, watched, references to my sh, horrible things happening to me. i recovered a while but in all honesty, i find myself slipping back again and again. 2025 and 2026 have been really tricky years, ive hurt myself alot physically, emotionally and mentally. my parent had apparently noticed it, and only brought it up a few months ago during an argument. I feel restricted constraint, unable to move or create change. its always one step away, a better day, a better life..but i feel tired. i dont want to move. i dont want to lean on anyone. i dont know how to move. i dont know what to do with my ambitions. i feel miserable, i used to feel amazingly consistent. now i feel like a falling failing pebble that just gets kicked down a spiral stairway. idk...? what is wrong with me

I hate to be this way but these people seemingly hate us. I hate having to live under people that have no respect and wake me up out of pettiness and spite against my other family because I HAVEN'T DONE THEM ANY WRONG BUT I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO TAKE THEIR SHIT EITHER. I hate the fact some people in this world you just can't live in peace with. They want to try and make your life a living hell. Why is this so hard to understand? My family can't seem to. They act like it's nothing about stuff that turned them against us but actually they started it all and are continuing to stir the pot and verbally come against me. I don't have to put up with people's bullshit. IDGAF how miserable they are. DONT. FUCK. WITH. ME.

i feel so incredibly lonely i just want friends or a partner both would be cool i feel so desperate texting the few people i have in my life two to be exact but they only respond every few days or sometimes takes weeks it just makes me feel pretty useless and just not good enough i tried to download an app to make friends but my phone doesnt have the update to be able to download it and my phone cannot update bc it’s too old without enough storage. that make me absolutely ball my eyes out it felt embarrassing yet i am alone idk man just overall annoying i could shut my phone off for the whole week and all i’d really be missing is maybe some work texts or a text from my parents i wish i was exaggerating

I can’t seem to get myself together. I can feel my depression and anxiety getting worse. I don’t feel successful at work. Even though I have people I can rely on for support, I can’t bring myself to reach out to them because I feel like I’m just a burden to them. I’ve been having flashbacks to when I was groomed and assaulted when I was a minor. I feel weak and worthless. I’ve been trying to find a reason to keep going because I want to keep going, not because someone relies on me or they want me to keep going. I’ve been snapping a hair tie against my arm to feel something and to keep myself from harming myself. I’m just so tired.

All my fam know how to do is gaslight everything I say and put me down and deny everything. They can't handle the fucking truth about anything. Oh you worry too much about karens. Yeah says the person that stays inside almost 24/7 without the possibility of encountering them. They're all cowards if you ask me. I'm getting so much shit thrown at me right now by everything seemingly that's why I self harmed when I got up. I mean nobody else gives AF so so why not right? My fam sure as hell don't all they do is stay glued to phone or YouTube and good luck getting a word in for the effing screens. I hadn't actually self harmed in a long time life's just got to be too much right now. They won't acknowledge anything about our current situation until it all blows up like a nuke and affects them. I hate it passionately how they act. Around the holidays they also get mentally moody unstable. People have no idea how hard it is being in the same household. ItLike getting along with crocodiles.

Sh'd today. Went to bed broken hearted last night. There's really no reason for me to be here anymore after everything I've been through and keep going through. What's the use. Just looking for the best way and time to commit.

Trans ppl pmo so much, not bcuz they're trans, but bcuz A, they force their opinions about gender/sex onto everyone around them and B if you don't agree with their views, now you're transphobic. You know what other group of poeple does this that also pmo? Christians. You don't like when Christians tell you to believe in God or else you go to hell. You don't like it when Christians say hey no abortions or try to force Bibles in schools. News flash! No one has to call you by what you think your gender/sex is. The government or general public doesn't have to recognize you as anything, except what you ARE. Grow tf up. If you're "not passing" and get upset when people misgender you, you need to go to fucking therapy and work on yourself. IDGAF if you get surgery/hormone therapy, want to wear dresses/grow a mustache. No one fucking cares! Do what makes you happy! People are not innately wrong/hateful/transphobic because they do not agree with there being more than 2 sexes/genders whatever!

im so so closed out and open out, there isnt really somebody that i cant just yap to about this, everything just ends wrong for some reason when I do... sometimes i find myself doing the things that arent in even in my to do list.. Im so tired but I cant, theres others worse than me out there... is there a way to have energy for all this, no actually i have so much energy for worrying, how do you just stop that when the events just keep going and going, how do you just trip and the round earth just keeps rolling and rolling. Im really done, l dont feel sad, happy, mad, just literal pure fear of what everyday. Im not scared of dying sometimes but living in the wrong way is worse.

My manager threatened to fire me due my declining performance since the past few months. How do i explain I have a serious gambling addiction and my mind is preoccupied with hentai and e-kittens