RantRam: anonymous venting

My best friend/girlfriend I ghosted years ago because of hard times with my abusive mother, hs come back into my life. I found her tt acc I can't stop crying, I stalked her reposts and she's so similar and different. I don't know how to talk to her, she feels so unreal and I feel so horrible. I want to kms and never see her again, but I also want to reunite. She has a boyfriend and I want to die. We were meant for each other, I care so much for her after years. I can't help but think if she did too. Thinking about ending it now or taking to her and just doing it later.

thank u evb wjo included 67 in their rants in honor of f.g youre fucking hilarious i fucking love u

the people who lied to me when I have trust issues and suspect everything they do and say: 🤯

i hope the orange man dies soon

my entire family are christians. not even heavily religious or strict about it but lowkey whenever i see them they are always like we should be so grateful for gods whatever and that god has a plan and stuff. but i never believe in god and i don’t think i ever will. no hate to the ppl who are religious but i honestly think that god is a joke. like the more i think about the more i think that god is just some made up dude that ppl just like to believe is real. i’ll never tell my parents that tho bc they’ll probably just bring me to church more and make me pray during dinner and id rather focus on my food than some dude.

can i be honest? i'm really lonely. im tired of pretending that my family is enough. im tired of pretending my friends are enough. because they're not. i'm no one's special person. i just wish i was someone's favourite notification.