Lately, I feel like I've been giving too much yet too little. I've done enough for my friends, paying food, sharing stuff, buying them gifts, writing them letters, and comforting them, yet, they never do the same thing to me. They're always focusing on other people or their love-life, despite the fact that I've been there since their vulnerable times. I've written 34 letters, to someone who prefers to spend time with other friends and "crushes." Most of them had awful relationships, and I was there. I promised myself that I wouldnt return to my old habits, aka. Ghosting or cutting off someone, but it's getting hard to resist, especially since I'm sensitive, and help them most of the time. And only till now, I realized, none of them, even my favorite, would do the same for me. Should I even cut them off? They seem like good people, but they don't give me enough attention or treat me the way I treat them all the time. I'm starting to doubt them and my friendships.