i fucking hate myself, i have school tmrw and the thought of going there is making me cry, idk if im being dramatic about it but im scared of going there

hellO? is anyone actaully here

I absolutely hate it when my husband sees my work chats. I am not doing anything wrong. But I know and hate the fact that he's seen it, and now something bad is brewing in his brain right now. I absolutely loathe that he has seen something that he can give his rotten interpretation to. I just hate to be perceived by him. Why can't he just leave me the fuck alone

It's the level of disrespect for me that the useless witches at work make me lose my senses for this one today. I literally hate my place of employment (9-5) it is completely TOXIC and I want to pursue all the other endeavors that I have been working on and paid for courses to learn and get into. I have to stop being scared to move forward.

Today I literally had a melt down at work while in a meeting. I have endured a lot over the years there and the final straw for this week was actually the fact that people think they can say what they want to say, be smart mouthed under their breath and then try to point the finger at something I then therefore supposedly didn't do or did do in reaction to their BS making me out to the a bad person. I am not the type of person that goes running to the manager for every little thing, but it is clearly looking as though that is what I need to do. Mind you I simply go ghost silent on you to avoid altercations that are twirling around in my headfirst off. But that somehow turns into they are the victim in this scenario. People are so full of shit and cannot just stop starring stuff and popping off at the mouth and being intitled because of their title or want to be in charge and tell people what to do or just plain out be racist undercover. Can we all just to they damn job at hand an MYB!

I'm super tired of the work atmosphere. Makes me depressed too...

Cant even watch cars without going to school

I passed the first semester of organic chem just by memorizing the reactions, now its the second semester and I dont know how to do the real stuff and its too late to recover. I got 25/100 on my test, I am so hopeless. I just want to pass this class and transfer already..

I feel a bit hopeless. I been college four years wasting from a pharmaceutical to a nursing. Then dropped due to not passing the clinical. I know my parents don’t blame me for the situation but my mother even though she is loving and caring even says she feels stressed for my future. I pretend to act strong in front of them. I just feel like I can’t express myself to anyone. I either act too sensitive. I just feel better when I am alone I feel like I can’t express. I feel like I can breathe when I am alone and be myself when no one’s around. I have a great family it’s just I never feel comfortable talking about my sadness or if I had negative thoughts. They would just try to say you need to think positive. That’s why I couldn’t open to my parents. Especially my mother. I feel like I make things complicated if I do and she wouldn’t understand.

I hate myself. I had a presentation today. I think I did okay, but I’m not sure. I feel like I’m lacking something. I hate that course and the professors too

I just didnt deserve what happened to me and I think that the people who wronged me get away with everything they do thats evil toward me.

please explain why i feel this way: like i feel like i just have no place on this earth bc ppl wanna fuck it up like why is it when ppl see you minding your own GODDAMN BUSINESS their tiny ass brains goes “oh look who think she is better than everyone” or “oh i wonder what is wrong with her she is too quiet” ORRRR “Hey what is your deal your being to quiet you look like someone told you off” and in my brain I'm like DID YOU EVER CONSIDER I WANNA BE LEFT THE FUCK ALONE FOR ONCE OR I JUST DON'T WANNA BE BOTHERED WITH YOU!! LIKE DAMN LEET ME FUCKINGGGG BE JUST BECAUSE I'M QUIET DOESN'T MEAN I'M PLOTTING THE DAY YOU DIE OR SUM I AM PROBABLY THINKING ABOUT KILLING MYSELF BUT NO ONE CARES RIGHT???BC I AM JUST A DUMB LOSER WHO CAN'T BE ALONE OR BOTHERED FOR NOTHING IT IS LIKE EVERYTHING I DO IS A FUCKING PROBLEM... i just wish people understood what life is like for me everyday and i just wish i could've stopped my parents that night when they went out bc i could have prevented them get killd

It hurts. I don't know how much longer I can hold on. School is slipping from my fingers, and all that's keeping me alive is band, yet my parents are trying to take it away from me. They don't know that it's my lifeline, my reason to live, the only place I feel like I belong. There's so much being built inside of me, but when I get asked what's going on with me, all I can say is "I don't know." I don't know why school is draining; I don't know why I can't be smart like you. I'm sorry I'm not doing better. I'm sorry I'm not smart enough. I just can't be like them. I'm

i got some of my papers back. so far most of the stuff was decent i got 39/40 for moral, 35/40 for sst, 71/96 for eng lang paper 2 and 46/64 for paper 1, lit i got 33/40 for paper 1 and 61/80 for paper 2, biology i got 51/60 and arabic 59.5 out of 70 but bro i got 48.5/60 for physcis which like ugh. i was expecting more bro my friends got 50 to 55 like that range so i was so disappointed in myself i wouldve been happy sith a 50 i just needed 1.5 marks more so im really sad. in terms of percent its 81% which isnt bad but bro i feel like a failure my friends were trying to convince me its good which yea but then they got 56 and stuff so like its not that good. to be fair i did better in bio and im so scared for chem now i thought physics went well and then i got my marsk and oh my god psychology i dont want that paper back ik damn well im getting bad gosh. i cried a lot in skl today i mean it helped but like i cant get that number out of my head gosh

One class in vet school is the one I have the lowest one. And the thing is that it's very stupid. I have an 89 and thats my "lowest" class. I know grades aren't everything. One of my personal goals was to have all As in one semester. Just one of the semesters in this 4 year program. But this class frustrates me because I'm always borderline to that A. So i thought to meet with the professor just to see what I missed but he doesn't respond and if he does, he never sends a link (bc he does Zoom lectures) to meet up with him.

So tired, and why cant i get some rest just one day

My manager called me with a list of supposed complaints saying I was a bad team member. 1. Claiming I was telling people I was bored when I was not. 2. Claiming a user says I wasn’t going to save money shipping when I assumed they were joking and going along with it 3. Ridiculed me for taking a mental health day 4. Saying I need to act like other team members instead of myself (me being the only woman on the team) I have never been more insulted or embarrassed.

everyone ignores me. hate the stress.

i miss my loving ex girlfriend

I am so tired of school. I study and do the best i can, and i like my grades no matter if its 'bare pass' or 'near fail' like others say. But in that one exam(geometry and trigonometry), there was someone watching over us obviously. I was solving, and i cross out alot of stuff like usual, but the one watching us came up to me, flipped my papers to look, and said 'if i was the one correcting i'd give you a zero' and looked at me disgustingly.. well, and then, i was the last one to be in the exam hall as i should be if i want since the time still wasnt ended, but the watcher kept sighing and rolling eyes and stuff, and then i asked since i kinda stress stuff out 'can i do any steps in the last question since im not so sure of them, and i cant leave it empty?', and then the one watching said 'you can leave the whole exam empty' with clear mocking intent. At that time it didnt affect me that much, but now (after 2 weeks), it hurts me so bad.. i tried my best, yet thats how i get treated...