Work & School

To all the men in the United States, I want to rip your balls off and bite off your nose because of the way you are. You're disgusting vermin. I want to torture all men because the flirt with me, act like pigs, and are ugly, and stupid. You don't deserve your balls for acting entitled towards women. I am sick of men because they act like they rule the world. I am so sick of them demanding that I smile and dress for them. I don't need their fucking approval. I am sick of you morons thinking a woman is transgender because of how we dress. I know someone of you do that because you make assumptions and jump to conclusions. That's how stupid you are. It's not my fault it doesn't make you happy or please you. I am sick of your fucking dirty looks in public and I want to kill you for it. Fuck you and your jealousy, judgment and overall looks of disapproval. it's my life and I don't want you men in it. You ruin everything. Get over yourself. Your not the kings you think you are

I want to kill everyone in the United States who treated me poorly. If they treated me badly my entire life, I want to murder them because of how they are. I can't fucking stand people and how they think. I want to murder all the people that gave me dirty looks. Thanks a lot for ruining my life and making me think about it. Thanks a lot for thinking the way you do. Now I want to kill you for the way you think. You deserve to die and your not allowed to think the way you want to. I want to chop off your heads, arms and legs and I want to rip you apart bit by bit because you deserve to get the death penalty for being mean and for thinking ill of me. I feel better about myself because I am not those people. I am better than everyone because I don't think badly about anyone until they are mean to me and think ill of me. I don't judge them either. The dirty looks are looks of disapproval and judgment. You deserve to be punished for it because I am perfect the way I am.

I miss you Vivian…………………………………….

Since 2021, I struggled with my schooling. My high school exams were cancelled, and we were given predicted grades and these said grades were not the grades that reflected a career in Dentistry. I cried during the release of predicted grades. I cried so much. I struggled to find a qualification that would let me into university for the past 4 years, from 2022 to 2026. I was thrown around with different qualifications that wouldn't let me study it because 'we can't fund you because of your age.' I essentially felt hopeless, I managed to do a qualification but it was for adults way in their careers and life I'd say around 30+ whilst I was a 19 year old feeling left behind my own peers, I finish the qualification this year and I'm heading to university, despite the amount of embarassment and guilt I feel for myself my parents are not making me feel any better about the situation and the longer I stay in this household the worse my feelings get, I want to leave I want uni to start already.

Jenny is such a bitch - she always thinks shes better than everyone just because she's ----. I literally tried defending someone against hwr wrath and she lit into me. C--t

everytime my friend vents and everytime I notice her scars, her injuries, the blood shes handling from SH. I give her comfort and advices to stop commiting SH because I want to keep her safe. but everytime she said "TY for the advice! ill try using it!" I keep noticing her dealing with her addictions and so then, I gave her a different advice, different way of comfort, and I have tried everything I can, repeatedly. but she never healed. I am starting to wonder that my way of giving advice or comfort isnt enough. Whats even enough? I couldnt ake her happy, Seeing her done the same situation is slowly making me feel guilty because if she K-ll herself, I know it's going to be my fault, I don't want her to suffer like this. I'm not enouhg to heal her. I just want her to stop from SH, I want her to live her life happily, I don't want anything to happen to her, It's all my fault. I'm sorry, just please don't die..

What's a worry or fear that keeps you up at night but feels too heavy to say out loud? dying alone. dying not by haru's side. (my gf) i hope haru does not fine this shit. i love her so much its keeping me from killing my self. i love her so much.

i want to kill my self SO FUCKING BAD. i cut my skin till i bleed. i hope someone runs me over with a CAR OR SOMEONE KILLS ME..! before i do it my self. i should cut my neck open, i should. im going to. i hope pest ,andrew ,len ,haru i hope they never find this out. i hope i die soon. KILL ME PLEASE,, PLEASE GOD FUCK.

Oh just the sheer fact that every single person I've ever experienced in my life, especially, the ones that get closer than the general acquaintance, has done nothing but use, abuse, bully and torture me. I'm unsure why I'm even here. What I'm supposed to be doing. Let alone why I deserved such a fate. Told by everyone I'm the light, warmth and the sun, yet I'm succumbed to nothing but heinous acts, darkness, and complete and utter despair.

K1⏸️P0+US It hasn’t happened soon enough

Saw this woman at the grocery store. She should be tried for crimes against yoga pants…🤢

Part 2: I meant the other person didn't have to do the hard type of brute labor that I did, yet still they went to management to cut my throat to hinder me from advancing to doing something easier (part like what they themselves were doing at the time smh). I suppose they did that because they saw me as a threat and were somewhat jealous of me. Idk. Of course I know I can't change it. I was thinking about them today because they were mean to me in the way they spoke to me to try to get to know the area. They passed a few years back. But still their awful treatment of me still haunts me somewhat at times like today. Sigh idk. Maybe I was too trusting. Ive had so many effed up experiences since I've been here. Still not going to change who I am though for anybody though. Not letting bas experiences make me a bad person.

Yeah I have a lot of regrets. One being listening to those around me. Thinking they had my back when really they didn't and made me look bad and laughed about me behind my back and trashed me. Like one of my jobs they "supposedly" helped me get. They go "you could retire right here. Uh huh. Sure. Said the person that brute force labor, forged documents every certain day of the week and didn't actually have to work hard at that point in time anyway. They even went so far as to go to h.r. on me and say if you allow them to do this this n this I'll quit. HA. don't worry though I got them back for that though and they didn't let them come back after an issue. Still ,why tf would you act so caring to me to get me a job only to cut my throat to management? What I did I worked my ass off physically there. It has NOTHING to do with them. Whatsoever. As one person said you'd need a magnifying glass to see them move. Their job was minimal labor. So. Never did I ever think they'd do me that way

Everyone who knows me, Tony? They want me to get my PhD. I hope you lose your job in the next year without my help.

job searching has been the bane of my existence for the past year. i quit my previous job because it was causing me health issues since i was working a 24/7 roster, AND handling patients going through severe mental health crises. back to job searching, i had to do FOUR interviews for this customer service call centre job for a start-up company providing expensive ADHD support to people. they then ghosted me for a few weeks then when i asked for an update said someone else had better experience. THEN 2 months later the same role opened up again as they expanded and they asked me to do interviews again. I said - why? then they ghosted me. haha… i then had a friend who said she’d get me a job at her clinic. they called me and said they’d set up an interview. WEEKS pass, i hit her up again. the person who called said i made up the fact that an interview would be set up and the role wasn’t available. hope they all have unbearably shitty days moving forward.

that moment when you do all the assignments yourself in a group project but that one bitch claims that “we” did it and ends up getting a better grade than you bcs the prof thinks she did it all by herself bcs she was the one presenting it and making it seem like she was the one doing all the hard work when shes actually the slowest bitch in this planet because she doesnt even know what the hell this project is about

do you need me anymore, do you still like having me around

I hate it that my pet is getting old and won’t be around for all my life. People say it’s only a parrot and pull myself together. Really depressed thinking about it as she loves me unconditionally and never judges. Don’t want her to get old and leave me

I got into a horrible accident a week ago. My two friends were in the car and one of them didn't make it. If I'm being realistic.. there should've been no survivors based how freakish that crash was. We were going 120mph maybe , stupid . My friend Got to the turn and I realized wow this is it... I braced for impact and passed out. According to the report we hit a guardrail, went airborne over train tracks, and overturned in a ditch a very deep one with mud, thorns, all I saw was a light and just followed it idk how I got out , I managed to help my girl friend out of the car but I couldn't help my guy friend I was just screaming his name hoping he'd get up, in the hospital I was praying he'd be okay. He was goofy, soft , energetic, hardworking, compassionate, determined, welcoming, literally super funny, caring and sweet. Idk what even happened that night I wish this on nobody and all i can do is blame myself because if I went home like I should've maybe he would still be here. imy </3

i’m gay and i can’t come out or do anything about it bc of my religion my family and my society. i ended things with a guy last month and ive been in love with the same girl for three years. she has a boyfriend around a year ago and i cant stop crying every single night to how pathetic i am and how sorry my life is. all i want is to accept myself. i have internalized homophobia and i’ve been praying for it to leave so i can just be normal. i’ve tried to be normal but it’s so hard when my heart physically hurts when i see her with him. i can feel my chest tightening and my throat closing up. it took me so long to realize that i am what i am and i still hate myself for it. i know my mom will hate me too. everyone will hate me and i just want to move away and be on my own. i don’t want to talk to any of my friends or my family. but i can’t do any of this and it js physically pains me that i feel so trapped and alone and it got so bad to the point where im telling whoever’s reading this.