Health & Stress

I was raped when I was 7, every-time I went over to my cousins house he would trick me into thinking it was a game. And make me do disgusting things.. this went on for almost a whole year until he finally tried to stick it in me and I screamed from the pain of it, ran upstairs with my pants down in front of my whole family crying. It was all blurry but I remember my mom taking me home and crying while giving me a bubble bath. My cousin got in big trouble. And I was bleeding in the tub a bit. My parents were asking me what he did and I told them. But what makes me frustrated is how I’d get taken back to the house. And I’d have to see him and act like nothing happened. when I got old enough to know what he did and how it was wrong. I asked my dad why he was so fine with my cousin and my dad got pissed with me, told me I tempted my cousin, embarrassed my dad, and that it was my fault that I got raped and that I need to just forgive and forget. My dad broke my damn heart when he said that.

Genuinely i’m an attention seeker, cuz what do you mean that i’m willing to hurt myself just so people can pay attention at me and make sure that i feel okay and loved??? i’m willing to twist my ankle, create bruises on my skin, falling on concrete on purpose just for what??? for them to say “i’ll be here for you” i’m genuinely going insane and i feel so pathetic that i keep doing this just so people look at me and do special treatments

I actually have no clue how to reach out. I've been struggling mentally since 5th grade (I am a freshman now) and I've never truly vented to anyone. I've vauguely described some things that have been bothering me to my mom, but never to the extent that I should be. I've recently noticed that my state is getting worse. I think I've developed an ED. I eat at most twice a day and I am on three sports teams. My parents have commented on how much I've been eating, but haven't asked noticed its an ED. I have no clue how to ask for help. I thought about writing a note describing my mental state and asking for a therapist. I'm also pretty suicidal and I've collected pills in case I ever get to the point where I want to end it. I also don't know if I have the time since I spread myself thin with activities which I use to distract myself from things I struggle with. I also don't know if my parents have the money since they spend a lot on my and my brother's activities. I just want to be happy.

I'm holding in so much pent up resentment. I feel like it's eating me alive and it's only a matter of time before I go insane. It isn't directed at any one person, just most people in my life.

ive been taking meds for ocd and anxiety n i have got better recently but just had intrusive thoughts ytd n i still cant get out of that even tho i already took xanax n i dun reli have friends to vent to regarding this issue right now im just keep telling myself that its ok it will pass while focusing on writing my essay homework but i just feel a bit stuck n i hate it

I hate being fat after having a baby. I’m 84kg and I hate myself so much. I see others my size and think they look stunning, why can’t I see myself this way?😩

Since 2026 I have caught something nasty or maybe I caught a couple different things back to back. I'm not sure if something is wrong with me or are other people experiencing this too? I haven't had fever, chills, or muscle aches. If anything I've had minor fatigue, bad sinus pressure, running nose, sneezing, but clear mucous and a cough that won't go away. Am I the only one?

i never felt so lonely, it’s eating me alive. up until my birthday i guess ive expected a little bit more support on this day, but it feels even more lonely. no one was here to celebrate, up until the morning i was crying and even start relapsing again. it’s terrible, i just wish some people would at least give up the amount i would for them and it’s just..it made me realized how much i shouldn’t belong here i don’t feel supported i don’t feel appreciated. Im so tired of this and im so tired of being tired. It’s a never ending cycle and i feel like it wont stop until i put an end to it. i feel like throwing up. i wish i could get better

it’s my birthday and honestly i’ve never felt even more alone than i should have. no one was really here to celebrate my birthday with me and ive been crying all day. I just feel so lonely and i guess i never realized it more than until today

The guilt and fear I feel is eating me alive. I'm so angry at myself for not having self-control or discipline. I shouldn't have eaten dinner. Yes I'm angry at myself, but I'm also angry at my mom -- despite telling her that I did not want to eat dinner, she prepared it for me still. I'm so fucking angry because in a way she enabled me to eat: seeing leftovers on the table waiting for me makes me feel bad about wasting food, so in a way I felt like I was also tricked into it. I'm genuinely so frustrated at myself for binging on a bunch of high-calorie shit for a month straight. I'm so angry and upset, that all I can think about is to hurt myself as self-punishment. It is currently 1:30 AM on my end as I'm typing this out. I can't fall asleep with all this pent up emotions in me, and even the multiple attempts to soothe myself through self-harm did not work. I need to punish myself more. I don't know what to do with myself. My own actions drive me to have dangerous thoughts.

I genuinely think I am going to die soon. I'm so exhausted. I would never kill myself, but I'm just expecting myself to go from just... mental exhaustion. I'm using the last of my strength to make others happy, since I feel like nobody can help me at this point.

how do i convince my mother that my suicidal thoughts aren't from my medication. that ive had them since i was 13. i started meds when i was 17. im 22 now.

Currently have a cold, feeling pretty useless. Still in school so it makes me feel even worse when I have to skip days and ask my friends for what we did. Obviously, I am not getting sick on purpose and I do try to work hard at school work, but missing one day makes me want to miss more, but I also don't want to bother my friends every time. Also took on an internship so I feel the need to be there every week. Just imagining the workload I missed makes me nauseous. I don't mean to be emotional but I can't help but cry, even when I'm mad and not necessarily sad. I can't help but think about how my teachers will react when I do go back to school. this rant is all over the place, www. Sometimes I just wish someone would ask me if I'm doing well on a random, normal Monday.

Im so fucking fat I'm 13 5'4" and I'm a whopping 111 lbs I've gained like 8 lbs in the past two moths and I'm struggling so much with binging rn I hate my body so much :(

I feel so lost right now. I'm 16 and I'm halfway through grade 10. but I don't know what I to do, to be, what to study for college. Whenever I told anyone my worries, they kept telling me I'm young, I'll figure it out soon. NO, I WON'T. I know I'm young but hear me out. I'm doing so bad in school like literally I don't even know basic knowledge. I felt so dumb, so fucking ugly and so bad. I tried to improve myself but I just can't. I've noticed that I'm struggling mentally since I was 14. I feel like mental health is gonna be the cause of my death. Sooner or later. I want to do it but I want to look pretty first, that way my funeral's picture won't be bad. I have very low self-esteem. I've been wearing mask my whole life since covid-19 and it's killing me. I want to take it off so bad but my insecurities got in the way. I feel so dramatic and pathetic writing this right now. I'm probably going to feel embarrassed and regret it later for writing this. Thank you if you've made it.

sometimes i wish i could k!ll people and get away with it. i dont know why i always think of these things i have never done it and i know i will never because i dont want to hurt anyone and go to jail but idk why i keep having these thoughts can someone help? am i crazy

I am a failure. I havent done any of my school work and I have a lot of overdue work. I am probably the disappointment of the family. I have ADHD so that makes everything worse. One of my friends joke about autism. They call random people autistic as if that is a bad thing, and they also do the same with people being ADHD, and that makes me think that I am different because it takes me so much energy just to start on a project but for others it takes them 2 seconds and they have a whole idea of what to do and what to make. I also have misophonia which means I have emotional responses to trigger sounds such as: sniffling, talking, eating, and other noises. My grandparents have been staying with us for a couple of months and the way they eat and talk triggers me so I can barely be in the same room as them without wanting to cry. The stages of my misophonia starts at a mild annoyance, then it moves up to anger, then I want to cry so I try not to, but trying not to cry results in self harm

For nearly 5 years of my early childhood about 6-11 me, my mom, and my sister were stuck in a house with my abusive ex-stepdad. I never actually called him my dad though since my bio dad still saw me every now and then. He started relatively calm, but as the hears went on, he started yelling and getting really angry over smaller things. My mom couldn’t leave because she had no job. However, she would leave for multiple days on end leaving us with him. I stayed in my room. When they were together, they would argue about things i cant even remember. Often times they would ask my opinion so i avoided them altogether. It got worse and worse. Single arguments would last over months and extend deep into the night. I remember that my mom would say not to get out of bed as to not wake my sister. Im realizing that he would actually rape my mom and then try to hide it. My mom eventually saved enough and got us out of there after a risky escape. After that i never spoke the same.

I have Anorexia Nervosa and I think its a disorder thats eating me. I think every time that I skip a meal, when I don't even take a bite my body starts to eat itself, and starts to rot inside. Its horrible. But the thing is that if I eat I start to violently throw up. It seems like there's no point of eating since I'm just getting waste it by vomiting. I don't understand, it all started in 4th grade when I decided to skip lunch at the cafeteria because my school didn't have any common sense and a teacher tried to send me to fat camp. My mom told me that I'm not even overweight, and I'm average. I was 4,10ft and weighed 81 pounds. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY DID THE PEOPLE THAT I THOUGHT WAS SMART THINK SO DUMB OF ME. I was scared to eat in front of my teachers and students so I just stopped, saying that I'm not hungry. What happened now? I'm 16 years old 5,6ft, and weigh the same amount of pounds, 81 pounds. I think I really am dying, I don't know, I don't know, I DON'T KNOW, I DON'T KNOW.

My health is getting worse I feel like day by day. I think I'm rotting inside and slowly outside, as I've been ghosting all my friends, slipping grades and eating less. Gosh eating makes me feel guilty. I did get diagnosed with depression months ago and I'm not sure if its coming back. I want my medicine back. I'm scared to lose people but its just me, losing them. Its my fault for not speaking anymore to then. Its painful to grab my phone. I don't even get anymore messages, I've been stuck at 8 notifications for at least 4 months, and they are just my mom or scam callers. I had A+ or A's every grade, but now, in 9th grade, I'm dying, its hell, I'm a failure. Teachers probably look down at me as a dumb stupid idiotic child, which I probably am. I also am dealing with an abusive partner that I left, don't worry but its scary. Why are they threatening me when I was just defending myself, that I didn't want to send photos. I'm not important, people just use me, I'm a last place medal kid.