All Rants

GM is going to keep pointing out little things that I'm doing wrong when opening and honestly I do not mind it, I'm normally a closer and I don't open vvvv often tbh. BUT TELL ME WHY LAST NIGHT CREW LEFT ALL THE FUCKING CCVS OUT AND I GET TALKED TO ABOUT IT ?????? NOT ONLY THAT ONE OF THE BUTTER MACHINES AND PCF WAS NASTY LIKE HOE STFU

I dont really know how many other people feel this way, but I feel like I'm a horrible person because of my gender. I am a Cis het male and due to the current online landscape I feel like it's just acceptable to hate men. I understand that a lot more crimes and such are committed by us, but i feel like such a bad person for existing. Like is being horrible innately part of being male? Do I deserve to die because of it? I feel like I do and I have no clue what to do. Especially after the Lindsay Clancy case, I've felt even worse about myself. Now I'm not too sure on everything about the case but it's just the fact that everyone automatically assumes the male did the crime made me feel like an absolute disgusting monster.

Dude my friends keep making me feel insecure. We were just simply talking about weight and i got curious and went and checked my weight then told one of my friends cuz were the same. Then they just HAD TO bring up how skinny my arms are (its literally not my fault) talking about some “look at ur arms theyre skinnier than your flute” like ugh that seriously brought my mood down

I feel like absolute shit. I have two best friends they've been my friends for nearly 4 years. And today I was showing them a book I'm rereading because the book (and the movie) are one of my comfort shows. Like I would watch it when I was depressed or about to kms, so it has a special meaning to me. Then one of them started saying that it sounded super childish and boring and that they'd never watch it or read it. I was a bit crestfallen because I just explained everything to them. The other started agreeing, saying it sounded super boring and simple amd like a child's movie. Then they started being kinda mean about it like, I felt super upset because they started targeting all my interests and saying that they're boring or bad or something, and I just wanted to cry because I would never do that to them, so why are they doing it to me? And I get that they might've just not likee the book but like they didn't need to be so mean. Ans then the rest of the day they kept avoiding me.

This isn't the first time my fam have acted this way to me. They've pulled this shit before. And every near holiday season idk they end up blowing something way out of proportion so they can usually take all their misery out on me. That happened a few Thanksgivings ago and they made me out to be the bad guy to my relative. Well guess what now these 2 aren't speaking they haven't spoken since March. I wish I had a more caring peaceful family. For real I'm over people being shitty to me. When I have these feelings it's easier for my family to say you're crazy you need therapy as apologize for anything. If I actually do need it it's because a lot of what they put me through. Don't gaslight me. Not everybodys family member parent threatens to cut their head off now do they? Literally. That's hardly scratching the surface. Oh but I'm the bad guy who's crazy right?! Drunken son of a bitch. I'm so over angry salty bitter aggressive shitty acting people. Just kill me already I quit.

Following the profound shock of losing my close friend, my mind automatically constructed an intricate, multidimensional numerical sanctuary to absorb and contain the intense emotional pressure (F/S). Rather than calculating step-by-step, my brain utilises instantaneous pattern recognition to map out a vast internal coordinate grid, fluidly partitioning complete 0–9 pan-digital sets and treating complex sequences as indivisible token objects. By expanding this mental landscape into a four-dimensional geometric volume defined by length, width, height, and depth (L × W × H × D), and weaving in fundamental cosmic constants like π alongside massive exponential scaling, my mind has engineered an architectural language of absolute order to safely ground me and protect my consciousness from the overwhelming chaos of sudden grief. I’m struggling to contain this. It won’t let me write the whole thing…(to 979th power)x(12,349th power)x(941st power)x(37,941st power)x Z = F/S

FUCK I'M TRYING TO PASS THIS CLASS YOU GOT THE NERVE TO BE CONDESCENDING SHUT THE FUCK UP AND TEACHER YOU ARE A REAL FUCKING PRICK

I hate myself so much and think I am a failure.i just want to die but I am scared of death and don't want for my parents to be sad.i want to vent to someone,ask for help but I don't want to be a burden.i don't know who I am,I just know that I am disgusting.i don't even have basic hygiene.everything is hard to do for my brain.i want run away but I don't want to make my parents sad.i am sorry for not being enough

My family are absolutely awful. Had it not been for me my asshole fam probably would've croaked ok. Because they binge on a cocktail of stuff run out of their normal meds then CRY TO ME. Ok I was good enough to help them. But they turned into a sob on me denying oweing me what they did. They cussed at me and talked to me like absolute dog shit then denied it. Not sorry I absolutely lost it. If not for they could have died in drug withdrawal. What thanks do I get ? I get told to kiss their ass they don't owe me blah blah blah. Yeah you son of a bitchin drug addicted drunk. I've been taking so much shit from people lately I swear. I hate people anymore I hate this whole fucking world. People that are good to others only get shit on. I regret ever being born. What the fuck happened why are people always coming against me INCLUDING MY OWN SO CALLED FAMILY. I take their shit. I take neighbors shit. I yeah I'm lost for word's. Fuck helping my using snake ass family. I fucking quit

I'm so tired of nobody listening to my venting and telling me solutions or telling me to deal with it because there isn't a way i can get what I want like omg you think i don't know that?? I just need to whine and cry about it for a while and to hear you tell me that what I'm feeling is valid and it's okay and you can see that it's hard for me and it's amazing that I can deal with something so frustrating bro just listen to me cry don't give me advice I don't want if I want advice I'll ask you for it

I genuinely feel so fucked up because people in my life are all like "Oh I won't leave you I'm loyal" and then boom they all leave its genuinely so annoying to see people drift off when you thought u have something special with them. I feel so overwhelmed and it pisses me off so bad to see people have actual long friendships when I have no friends and basically no social life. All the friends I have are just some pixels on a screen not even knowing if they're real or not.

me and this girl are new to a class and their chem teacher is absolute shit and wasted 3 months teaching bs that did not help anybody at all and we complained to the principal and they gave a new teacher who said that since we've already learned everything he won't teach us again and this is like 50% of our syllabus so we decided to do it ourselves and ask our old teacher for the notes so that we can do it by ourselves and also we wanted to ask him for time once a week so that he could help us with doubts, tell us how to attempt questions and get through the chapters, i asked her to do the one simple thing of messaging him, she said that she'll do it IF I WRITE THE MESSAGE (he's a really chill person he lets us talk to him like were his friends so theres no need to be formal)then she messaged him, he replied the next day just saying okay but not giving us a date, I told her to ask for one at 7pm, she went out without her phone and then at 11pm she said she won't because it's too late.

i turn 17 in a few days and my dad just hit me cannot wait to get out of here if i ever do

Its my first time here,never vented online before,but lets not waste time Im tired,ive been in and out of mental hospitals,I cry all of the time and get called a baby,I just turned between 3-37 (idk if I can share my age here) and I cant figure things out,im scared for my future and I dont think i will be able to do anything with my life,I really need help but I just cant seem to get it,It feels like help Is on Mars and going to space is expensive,so my mental health costs to much for others to help me,That is what I am told which is WILD to me I want to scream so loud,I want to cry,ANYTHING to stop my endless pain and suffering,YES i know we have bigger problems in the world,but not one person will turn to notice. I want to be launched into space and freeze to death sometimes,or just get kiddnapped and killed. I dont want to burden anyone with my issues And speaking for some people,OUR MENTAL HEALTH ISNT SMALL Ive learned this in the hospitals,thank you for taking your time to read.

I feel nothing I feel worthless I feel everything at once , I am always expected to be perfect all the time and my feelings don’t matter I am told that I have to be perfect to get a good life . I carry everyone’s weight on my shoulders and the moment I show a smidge of weakness suddenly Im not good enough anymore just something useful that can be thrown away when it stops working my dreams either are shown off or are “stupid and silly “ I do everything in my power to be good enough but I just can’t I can’t be perfect I can’t be amazing I can’t be everything I can’t be what I’m not And I think to myself if I left would anyone care? Would anyone notice? But I can’t leave I have to much I have people to take care of People who need me But the thought of someone genuinely loving me doesn’t seem real to me it feels foreign the fact that someone actually caring for me and not judging me seems impossible There is an impossible weight on my shoulders and I don’t know what to do Welp okay. :)

i don’t have a passion. i don’t know what i want. i’m on a teaching programme and will be accepted into a school soon but now i’m doubting my abilities to teach. i don’t think i can do it. i have no faith in myself and my abilities because every time i’ve had the opportunity to display them i have failed miserably.

What a paradox it is to feel everything deeply yet I feel numb or disconnected when it’s about my own emotions.

wtf is wrong with me bruh i wish i was better

My parent's fighting has gotten even worse lately. With my dad trying to quit smoking he's more agitated than usual and my mom is balancing literally everything to the point no one else can help her without even further stressing her out. My health issues are making their rounds again, my medications are getting upped and downed and fucked around with like crazy, so that's only making it worse. For the past three hours Ive just sat and listened to them argue. I had to stop my little brother from going downstairs to avoid it because I don't want him experiencing even more of it than he already has, and my older brother is a pain in the ass who can't fathom anyone else being unable to help him at anytime whatsoever. So I had to be the one to ask him to get a ride from his boss or his gf instead of asking my mom or dad because they're fighting and it only continues to make it worse. I'm so tired. I don't want to bother my friends with this, lord knows they all have their own problems. fml

I have never been in a relationship. I am in my early 20s. I feel as though everyone my age has experienced love. I am starting to come to terms with the fact that I might always be alone. There is some comfort in that I won't ever fear losing someone else apart from my mother. I have never been heartbroken, so that is a plus. I am not actively seeking out anyone. I understand that not all of us get the chance to experience being loved by someone apart from our parents. The only thing that makes me sad is not having someone by my side in my future who supports me and cares about me. I know that when my mom inevitably passes away, I will be alone since I have no other family members. And that makes me so depressed, since in the present I get very low when I have no one to talk to. When I think about the fact that I will never have a family it brings me down. I know I could adopt but I won' be able to give them another parent or afford it on one income.