I'm going to kill my self today I know it's not ideal. But i got raped two weeks ago and i Haven't Showered in five weeks in General haven't even gotten out of bed i just fucking hate myself (just a lil info any me) i am 13 i and a male and yes males can get raped
I can’t stop loving someone who breaks my heart. I see her all the time and every time I see her smile it melts my heart for a second. Then I remember she’s not mine to love and I’m just a way to make her life seem rational. Idk how to move on when every time I see her it feels like I’m seeing her for the first time. Every word, every laugh, even just her eyes reminds me of what I could’ve had if I wasn’t scared to open up with my feelings
I genuinely have no irl friends and it’s completely my fault. I really hate myself for that and i cant even blame anyone but myself because no one is responsible for it other than me. I wish i could just be normal like everyone else. It sometimes feels like everyone was born with the ability to connect to other human beings and for some reason i was born without that ability.
I really hate myself sometimes
Well... hi. This is kind of awkward.
Today I'm going to talk about my life—the parts that nobody really knows about. You might say, "But I know you. I know your life." Maybe that's what you think, but the truth is, you don't really know me. Sometimes I don't even think I know who I am.
I keep everything to myself because I don't know how to explain what's going on in my head. I don't want people to think I'm weak or selfish. I just want someone to understand that there's a reason I feel this way, even if I can't put it into words.
So, I'm going to tell you why I feel like this.
I'm not smart.
I'm not good at sports.
I'm not mentally stable.
I'm a slow learner.
I don't think I'm pretty.
I hate my body.
People.
Not feeling normal.
I don't have a hobby.
Me.
The first one is the most important. If you're not smart, it feels like you can't make it in life. I try my best, but it never feels like enough. It's like watching your favorite movie over and over, hoping the ending will change,
If I had a choice, I wouldn't really want to be alive. I stick around because an Irish Goodbye into the Afterlife would be disruptive to people in my life.
But I have no attachment to being alive. Not even in a dramatic sad way. Just in a "WTF is the purpose of this? Human life makes no sense " kinda way.
It's a pity humans can't donate their life force to others who would like to stick around longer. "Hey Johnny, I'm retiring from the game. Of the 50 years worth of life force I have left, here's 45 for you, you have kids and cancer runs in your family. Stay safe, stay alive "
lack of friends
today I discovered my friends only feel sorry for me. they don't actually know how it feels they say they understand but see them beneath the masks they wear. its cruel of them to pretend, it will get better they lie it never does the pain will never go away no matter how hard I try it never will. I'll always be a worthless coward.
- the lonely ghost
i ranted way too much today but i can't help it i feel so sad but i don't know if i actually feel this way or i am just pretending no matter what i do it feels so fake on top of all my problems i also have to question and doubt them as if i wasn't already dealing with enough anxiety and distrust, i feel so unimportant and i don't know i feel a bunch of feelings right now it's like everything i've bottled up so far is slowly spilling out i either be like this or feel nothing and numb
It's so sad how I keep refreshing the page just to see if I got any new "felt this", "hang in there". I care more about random people's opinions than my own family's (人*´∀`)。*゚+
Haha I'm so fucking neglected. It's never gotten better ever since I was little. 😛
Just give me a tablet mom and dad. I'll be fine. I don't know how cook, clean, wash myself properly, know how to set boundaries, speak properly because of your lack of care. Thanks ! ( ◜‿◝ )♡
I have to resort to venting online just to make myself feel better because I can't comfort myself eitherrrrr. 😍
At least I got the Internet to help me know basic stuff like how to wash the back of my neck properly.
Thank you internet for being my parent.
Really. Thanks for teaching me basic hygiene, cooking, and giving a reason to keep going.
I'm such a miserable person but I'll never express it publicly. That's just not who I am. I don't see myself as a real person, I see myself as how others see me. If you see me as your bubbly friend, I'll always be your upbeat happy friend because that's who I am to you. That's who I am.
I was raped 3 times and I don't know what to do about it. all different people, all people I knew and trusted. I was 8, 11 and 12. their names are bailey, Tyson and star. I don't know what to do. I'm growing up and I'm so very afraid. I'm not entirely sure I want to live anymore. I'm 16 now, but it feels so fresh.
Fuck Donald Trump and anyone who supports this bullshit. This is the golden age for fucking greedy capitalists and corporations. Fuck all of you, you worthless pieces of shit. Remember there's way more to life than extreme excess.
I'm tired of life. I don't know how people have the will to wake up every morning and keep going. Nothing in my life is meaningful, and I don't have the energy to go and try new things. I wish I had never existed in the first place.
I'm killing myself in a week or 2. Not like anybody will care. Bye mom, bye dad, bye everyone. These are my final weeks... I will probably rethink it. Do you know how hard it is for me to do that? I have constant haters in my life, especially my 14-year-old brother...
I hate being human, I hate my human body. I hate how my body is perceived and how people have opinions about what it should or shouldn't look like. It doesn't represent me. I never asked to have a body.
does anyone want to be my bestfriend? I have no father, a busy mother who i never see, no friends since preschool (im in highschool now). I have no one here, i rot away everyday because im driven by nothing, i bash my head into the wall, i attempt overdose, i try to drown myself. nothing works. i talk to my'friends' no one answers. i ask them how theyre doing, no one answers. i jst think im meant to be like this. I'm trying to end it, why is it still continuing? why is my life still a thing? can someone just talk to me? It's been months since i got to see or talk to someone. Please. If I dont talk to a person, i'm going to jump. im going to end it for real, no more games. i will take the risk because i know tomorrow is going to be sad again like everyday. Please someone, just TALK TO ME
im genuinely so sick and tired of everything
i don't have the energy or motivation to do anything i have finals but i can't bring myself to open the book for a minute and study without getting easily distracted, i always get called lazy or stupid and people tell me that im not doing enough. i really try to do my best but i can't it's so unimaginably hard for me to focus on a specific thing and put effort into it, at least how am i supposed to do that when i don't see any point in living anymore? when i have never had a dream or something to look up for in the future?
i can't even talk about this to my family or anyone because they will only see as a teenager who's going through puberty, and not someone who's actually struggling
I worry am a bad person I’ve done something disgusting and unforgivable and if anyone knew people would hate me I told two people one was understanding and we’re still friends the other didn’t really care and said it’s not that serious but it is.
When I was in kindergarten I was SA by another classmate of the same age it wasn’t traumatic but I still remember it and when I was 13 I was a horny little shit I would deep fake nudes of people I know and trade nudes with people 98 percent time they where older when I was 17 I kept doing this but I worry about the other 2 percent I once traded nudes with someone way younger than me and it’s disgusting.
Yeah I’m drunk and I’m 13. Idk man I can’t focus so this is kind of a shit post. I’m just saying it sucks being 13 with an alcohol addiction and severe mental health disorders. Aw shit I might pass out I can’t focus and I think I’m hallucinating byee
I hate my father, I hate my mother. I wonder what it feels like to have a loving family where no one yells and thinks I'm the reason everything is bad. I wish I had a normal family that told me they're proud of me and that what I'm doing is enough. I'm an adult but living here makes me feel like a child again, I pray every night that I fall asleep and never wake up because at least in my dreams I'm loved unconditionally.
im just so tired of it all. i cry every day despite being a full grown teen, even going through the trouble of forcibly making myself sad with music, TikTok’s, etc. I feel like such an attention seeker sometimes, and I just hate the whole situation. I lie to almost everyone in my life about the simplest things, and I just beat myself up about it at night. I feel like I have no one to talk to. My relationship with my mom is horrible, we get into fights over nothing. My dad obviously prefers my brother, and I’m just a stupid floater friend that people have to hang out with if their main friends aren’t available, like a god damn charity case. I don’t know what to fucking do, this might be my last message. I won’t even bother with letters anymore.
There is a guy in my university I really liked, he's also a business student and we attend the same classes. I tried to befriend him only to get ghosted, I even dropped a confession anonymously about him but he didn't even react to it so I'm sure he doesn't care. Its not even about him at this point, its the fact that I'm 23 and just want someone to like me. Never had anybody approach me. Sometimes I think I'm better off alone- but I swear I can be a good partner too. Just never got the chance to experience teen love or that stuff.
I’m tired of pretending everything’s okay at home. I’m about to finish my online course of school to go back into full time student. Then juggling that as a full-time veterinary assistant at a shelter. All my dad ever does is yell violently, threat to hurt me or my dogs, and then said I’m contributing enough at home
My mom was homophobic again today and freaked out after I've shown her a few tats and piercings I think are cool. I thought she'd be chill about it. She was absolutely furious and said it was disgusting. She even said that tats and piercings are worse than being gay. Weird.
She said that gay people just disgust her and that tats and piercings make you look like a criminal. Also, for some reason she keeps saying how my middle school groomed me into questioning my sexuality like it wasn't a completely normal thing to question at that age either way?? The only difference for me is that I knew the labels and that I didn't have any internalized homophobia at the time.
Sometimes I'm still questioning my sexuality a bit but I obviously don't share it with my mother since each day I just trust her less and less. Also, she's convinced that sexual orientation (bc of the name I guess) is purely a sexual thing. But in my opinion, for most people its more romantic than it is sexual.
I feel like if I talk, Im annoying everyone, but if I stay quiet, people think Im being rude. I keep trying to meet everyones expectations because even the smallest mistake makes me feel like Im not enough. Whenever I try to open up, people tell me that others have it worse. Maybe they are right, but that does not stop it from hurting. It just makes me feel guilty for saying anything at all.
But pain isnt a competition, right?? Just because someone else is struggling doesn't mean your feelings suddenly stop mattering, right?? You are allowed to acknowledge that other people have it hard and still admit that you are hurting too... but everyone else makes me think thats not true.
im so fucking insecure uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....................... im such a fat and ugly ass chud. all i've got are my friends and im ruining that for myself too just because i cant stand to NOT overthink every 3hrs :,)
My mother asked me that whether i have depression and/or anxiety. But how do i explain to her that SHE is the reason for ever negative emotions i ever felt.
To the person who told me, "K!ll yourself!" on my YouTube video, I hope you know that hurts, ppl have actually killed themselves because of b!tches like you! I deleted my channel, I'm doing a duo channel with my best friend. She already has the channel made and has posted. I have not posted yet. Why shouldn't I kill myself? I have 3 friends. nobody would care. Also, the person told me to kill myself cuz I'm pansexual-_-. Check out my duo channel! @Madoka_Kagime
I'm so sick of living in this house, I cant take the screaming and fights anymore, I'm not allowed to go outside or talk to anyone that isnt my family. I cant even go in the garage without being yelled at. I feel like killing myself is my only way out of this, but I know I wont do that.
This administration makes me want to explode with anger!! It's disgusting and total bullshit. This IS NOT NORMAL and I REFUSE accept or adjust to this type of behavior. Why do people accept this behavior??? And by the President of the US. I hate the lying, the chaos, the stealing, the polarization, the murder of people by ICE, the gaudy gold crap, the being talked to like I'm an asshole because I see people as humans not numbers. I can't afford to go to my local grocery store anymore, but this asshole gets a fucking plane, fake awards, ballroom, etc.??? Why do people support this? This guy will always be a sad, insecure parasite and will never have the respect of regular people. Fuck off you piece of shit
I genuinely wish I were born in a different country, where the government actually cares for their citizens and don't just pocket money meant to go towards the safety of their people.
Starting to think I might be the victim of emotional or actual incest and I hate myself so much
I would take naps in ones bed naked ages 4-10
One tongue kissed me twice
They would playfully pinch or slap my butt
One would slap my bra strap
One told me the things they were doing with me weren't appropriate, but only after I got my period (makes me fear I am missing memories of being raped)
They would tickle me even when I begged to stop and cried
One would hide in the dark to scare me constantly so hard that I would collapse and wet myself
I had bed wetting problems and constant UTIs
Idfk what to do because one of them takes me to therapy and my doctors like them so much and tell me how supportive and kind they are
I hate being a fucking fvg I wish I could just be a normal child
I am trans man who is closeted and i cant tell my mom or she might send me to a mental hospital or something and i cant tell anyone at school not even the staff. the guidence counsler would not call my mom but they would tell the rest of the school staff and one of them might tell the principle and im just really nervous.
Hello, I dont know even how to start this message, but long story short I lost my entire family, parents and siblings in a car accident in 2023 July 30, I wasnt with them I was abroad in the country we all lived in together because I was preparing for my SAT and I didnt want to travel with them although my mom begged me multiple times to go but I didnt want to because of my education, and i come back to our home country with my uncle to find out they have all died after falling from a mountain cliff, I dont know what to say else, I pushed through shit and fought for my inheretance because my shit ass paternal side was trying to take all my money since I was still a minor then, I am almost 21 now, and I remember the last thing I asked from my parents to gift me for my birthday were earrings, but they didnt manage to get me them, and now im sitting here with my aunt, mom's sister, and her husband surprising me with earrings as a gift, no one knows that was the last thing I asked them.
I fucking hate myself. Even my brother calls me a disappointment. I have burnout and I don't have rlly any energy to anything. Everyone in my family calls me lazy and if I dont get active I'm not a good person, I can't open up to anyone real bc "I'm too young to understand" they would probably dismiss it and call me dramatic and sensitive. The reason my I'm always on a little rectangle screen is bc it's the only way I can express myself, I also have a secret yt channel that stress me out a little as well.
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