Pet Peeves & Funny Rants

You make me so kinky I’m embarrassed to say that ( I came)

i dont get i dont get it i dont get it

that was so wrong. augh i hate myself

So it's been about 3 months since we vbropke up, but I dont rlly think I have moved on where i accep that we are mot together anymore, but insrtead I feel like i just moved on where i just learned how to live without her. it sucks. i keep seeing hert everyday too. damn.

I went outside yesterday with a girl and 2 boy college friends. all night, I had to witness their little hints they're into her, subtle compliments and not so hidden remarks and I felt out of place. after the terrible night out I feel hideous and gigantic and I never wish to set foot outside. it doesn't help I drank while on antidepressants, I made a fool of myself and probably right now, this depressing feeling might just be a chemical effect. I started spiralling and overthinking my appearance, my weight and the reason no one has ever pursued me. the lessons I learned: I'm not drinking ever again and I'm won't be hanging out with dudes. I despise this feeling of being unwanted. I hate battling body dysmorphia and getting back to the old beliefs I tried so hard to leave behind. I'll keep trying to accommodate to the thought I'll die alone, maybe have just a few friends. Anyone up there that hears me, if I'm meant to be alone, please take away my desire to be loved.

I'm always too sensitive. Wanna man up gng

ENJOY YOUR DAYS OF RELIEF! I HOPE ONE DAY YOU SUFFER AND DROWN IN GUILT, SHAME, AND REGRET! GOOD LUCK FINDING YOUR NEXT EX-PARTNER TO BE!

I wish I could kill the people who made fun of me.

the never-ending urge to make something (in my case, a really long animation) but you have adhd so you can't really focus on it and you get sidetracked easily BUT you still work on it, albeit extremely slowly -r.s (both as in real shit and as in reso)

does anyone know how upsetting it is to be so out of love with yourself that you don’t even want to do it with your man or significant other. Like I want too but I physically can’t and it’s not that I’m not attracted to them cause I AM but I’m not attracted to myself, I’ll just constantly be in my head about what he’s seeing

is it normal to feel so fucking sad and pathetic when sober? I feel so stupid for saying this but genuinely anything to not be sober and feel my emotions is all I want to do. I know everyone is going say that’s bad or whatever but if I’m not ready to face my own emotions why THE FUCK would I put myself in that position? I’m not ready to handle all the bullshit that goes on in my life, my head, my body but then when I say all this I feel so idiotic. I just want to feel at peace.

I miss my ex girlfriend so much I don't even want to call her that I just want her to be with me again an d be happy. I made a mistake and I probbably ended up chasing her out because I have bpd and I suck. I Just want her to realize it''s not me I promise I just made a mistake I should have never said anything about how I felt I'd do anything in this world to have you back even if it required making a deal with saatn himself. I'm sorry, All I can say is I'm sorry and I love you if you're reading this somehow. I miss youso much

why does nothing ever go my way everything always goes to shit

It’s terrible to say it but as a trans woman I have such a deep jealousy for trans men. They get it so easy on hormones. I know that pre-T it’s harder to pass but do you think isn’t harder to pass on E? Estrogen doesn’t fix my voice, my dick, my ugly fucking face, testosterone gives them a voice a beard, easy to develop muscle mass. I know it’s because of misogyny and beauty standards. But god don’t pretend that if you’re on hormones you don’t get the easier fucking transition.

Im so upset today, my boyfriend open up my ig account and see conversation of me and my friend. its just some random conversation and we used to send reels to each other about some motivational quotes and love quotes of being a special friend cause we know each others secret and we care for each other (my friend is gay and im a female). So now my boyfriend is mad because he thinks i made someone special and not him. Mind you i used to send him reels but he wouldn't respond to any of it so i stop and now seeing me sending reels to a friend make him mad. He said a lot of words and not very appropriate. Im tired, he thinks that doing all the things for us to work and so did i.

I vented about my SA on here and how I still talk to the guy who did it to me. He was my friend of several years, and everyday it got worse. First just touches of my waist, then my thighs then more. I couldn’t understand it or why he would do that - he’s my friend. A good person. That’s what I told myself. When I vented on here about my confusion, people blamed me? They said it’s my fault for still being near him, that I’m just encouraging him now. I dislike being touched, I told him. I keep trying to distance myself but he apologizes then I feel bad. We’ve known each other for so long and it’s hard for me to let go of such a close friend. Why am I being told I’m the bad person when I’m crying about a person I trust always grabbing my ass, trying to do more when I keep repeating no - how am I bad?!?

I fucking hate how I cant find any sharp knifes. Why can't I fucking stab myself fuckfuckfucfkucfkfucfkucfkcfu I hate myself nobody really cares on this website nobody cared when the ten year old said they was gonna kill themself. one person even fucking mocked them noticed how after that they NEVER said anything? (before you say anything I like to learn how ppl type) now I may be wrong but everyone on here is rude af there's only a few kind ppl I even vent bout how some1 fucking said to just ao3 for stories (its the reason I stuck using nsfw even tho I don't want to) I like stories from real people from real moments. but ppl don't give a flying fuck yet they prolly on here venting bout something and getting lots of love from the ppl they fucking builled. the website is for FUCKING VENTING if you use it to builled or hook up with ppl, think HARD about the ppl on this website. fuck all the dumbasses and goodnight.

narcissistic mothers should be euthanized. I don't care what they did for their kids, they are the worst people in society. I would pour arsenic in my narc mom's water if I had any.

I’m so fucking numb and I want it to stop….

I’m living with my aunt right now and I don’t like it i mean it’s good in some aspects but I’m just not happy I wanna go home it wasn’t really the best but I was free I just wanna graduate already