I genuinely don't want to continue living anymore. Everything that used to make me happy feels like nothing and I barely feel happy anymore. Every single time any of my family pets die my parents just spring it on us randomly and expect us to go to school like everything's normal and barely give me time to grieve. Our dog that's only like 8 months old just died and I can hear my mother laughing downstairs like nothing has happened. I hate school because the teachers don't give a shit about anyone's mental health and keep putting pressure on everything to do loads of things for homework in like a day. I genuinely don't want to stay alive anymore and don't think I can continue mentally. Best case I'll just rot in bed for a day or two and then get forced to go to school.