I just need to rest. Everything is getting too heavy. It's just like I can't control my feelings anymore, and I'm afraid of everything. I have a lot of work to do, and not enough time, nor motivation to do any of it. I just tried to bottle it all up by laughing it up, but it doesn't work anymore, and my friends are all noticing something's wrong and asking questions I don't know how to answer, because I don't understand this either. How do I explain to someone what's so satysfying about harming your self because you just can't hurt others? One friend told me something similar, so I wanted to tell her what I did and show her that I understood perfectly and she was not alone, but words didn't come out again
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