All Rants

My bf's grandma hates me for absolutely no reason, like I have done absolutely nothing to this women. She likes to start fights between my bf and his family over me, she starts the dumbest fights with me, and she likes to talk shit about me/and or my bf to his child. I had to move out once because of a fight and how much stress she was causing me while pregnant but now with my bf changing jobs I need to move back in and I'm already high risk in my pregnancy. I'd be dealing with the pregnancy on top of my bf's son, my son, helping my bf juggle his new schedule, and then dealing with her bs... I feel extremely lost on how to feel or what I can do.

I don’t understand when someone else does xyz it’s okay. But when I do it oh shit it’s a problem. I’m not forgiving you for what you said. You have no idea what he did to me. It was a long time ago sure, that doesn’t matter. I don’t understand why your best friend who talks actual crap about everyone is okay but when I try to share something shitty that happened to me it’s an issue? Nah he really did that. Nah he really said all that but evidently you care more about someone like that. That’s really all I need to know. You’re a shitty person for that. I would never silence another woman and her experience

I really wish I could just move somewhere I’d never have to see another person ever again. I wanna live in the middle of nowhere. Just me myself and I. No one could ever hurt me again.

I really don’t think people see me as a person. I don’t think anyone ever has. I’m just whatever you need whenever you need it. I’m just the girl you wanna get to make yourself feel less alone for a while. I’m the girl you talk to when you’re alone. I’m the girl who shows up when needed. People only want me for what I can do for them I think. No one’s there for me though. Any time I open up it’s like a deer in headlights. So I’ll just keep writing here because no one else cares enough to listen in my life

I can’t stand hypocrites. I can’t stand a kettle calling the pot black. The only reason you feel like you can talk to me the way you do is because you’re older and a man. And a big ass man. Must make you feel real good to put your little sister in her “place.” It’s not the trauma Olympics. You just can’t handle that my trauma involves mom dad AND you. Shit happens, but don’t act like you’re innocent. Or above it. You understanding and then continuing to treat me like this is worse than if you were ignorant. I used to dream of getting your respect, and it’s so funny how now I don’t respect you at all.

im tired of all the drama, palagi nalang ako problema, I loved you more than anything, I always prioritize you and put you above everything, even when im shattering inside because of my own personal problems, i still showed up for you. even when Im being disrespected by you I let it all slide because im trying to understand you. i didnt question you for being avoidant cuz i believe that you will fix it over time but yahh it did not happen, you are not even trying to fix it, one problem no matter how small it was, it will always be a big deal for you (and you yourself aware of how unreasonably pathetic your behavior sometimes) but i always the wrong one in your eyes, you push me into my breaking point and when i reacted it was now my fault. but i endured it all because i love you instead of reproach, i chose to learn and understand you...but now you want to leave because of what? u dont feel anything anymore? so is my worth that small that it was so easy for you to leave me like that?

Feeling anxious because of my exams

Recently got in a relationship with the guy ive known since 7th grade, constant mixed signals since weve gotten together, a huge distance over text , telling me we will call n then saying “hes to tired” as weve sleep on the phone before. He uses any excuse to ignore me, n as he says js him n his alone time n when hes busy. (Alot more info to story) main problem is the missing effort, do i need to get out asap?

I feel so unwanted. I feel like someone that’s just there to help temporarily and throw away when you get sick of me. Does anyone truly love me? And if they do why? I see no reason to I want to leave I can’t cause there’s 2 people that need me But why am I here I’m just a doormat Stop needing me and let me leave No one else cares why do you

ive been so lonely for so long and isolated i have no friends and at this stage in my life it seems impossible to try and make any and my bf is getting fed up with my bpd everyday bc its getting worse rn life just feels like im existing bc i have like 1% of hope that it might turn around but wow everyday is genuinely so isolating i have this thing that happened to me about 10 months ago now and i feel so pathetic for not being over it yet bc its taken over my whole life for the past months and the reason why ive been rotting away this whole time and it just feels so isolating and pathetic bc they r all probably over it and living their best lives bc it happened months ago but i literally like died after for months and im barely even getting out of my house again, but everything feels so uncertain now and im even more sad than before, idek anymore but yeah if u read this thank u sm for ur time <3

I'm BEGGING for help and he's just telling me I'm a dramatic bitch . When I say it out loud it makes me seem like the dumb bitch even more ... Life is crazy. Lmfao. I. Am. Fucking. Losing. It.

I feel so stupid. I was just trying to be a girls girl, and be a friend and hype my siblings gf up. Now they just make jokes that I’m interested in her because I’m bisexual. And I really don’t think it would even be a thing if I wasn’t. I’m not the only person this has been said about. I think my sibling has some weird jealousy issues that they need to work through. But at the same time they each rant about each other to me? I know people are complex, but it’s like one second you’re complaining and the next it’s that I must be attracted to her? All over me giving a compliment? Apparently I was drunk and called and said some shit like “you better never cheat on her she’s a goddess” which maybe it’s just me and my friends, but that’s pretty standard girl talk to hype your friends up. Is it dramatic yeah, but that’s like half the point. Now they wont let it go, and I’m uncomfortable. No offense either but she would never be my type so it’s even weirder. SOS like fr!! UGH

I'm about to turn 20 and it feels like my life isn't together. I'm here struggling through undergrad, barely working an on campus job that pays ok, no love life, and I'm not going out with friends as much

Dog people are stupid. If you are not using your dog for hunting, protection or to give your kids some responsibilities, then you are an asshole who just needs something that adores you. Enjoy that wagging tail because the moment you stop feeding it, it will turn on you.

Accidentally discovered that Elle Fanning has a great ass…

The Fascist in Charge for sure suffers from a led deficiency in the brain.

Starting to look hot after losing all the pregnancy weight… too bad your vag is probably a post partum mess.

I hate works rats. Snitching on people is worst than being slacker and it shows you are a pot stirring coward.

Lol what's mental health anymore? I lost that years ago when I was 8 and I got introduced to helluva boss! than i went down a rabbit hole of insanity and things a child should never EVER see! I'm now called a furry, a freak, and "big dog" just because of my looks! its not my fault that my body made me like this! I stopped eating for weeks just to hear "oh I bet she eats well"!!! I LOVE HUMANS AND ANTHROPOLOGY!!! everybody is so KIND and LOVING !!!!

I'm so frustrated my family member won't do nothing about their drug addiction. Plus get drunk on them mix them put us thru hell refuse to apologize....then have the effing audacity to ask me to give them my own meds when there's no reason they should be out themselves because unlike them I legitimately NEED my own to even function on a daily basis. AND my other family member simply "defends them" rather than validate me and try to get through to them and takes the rage from them what they to do them drunk OUT ON ME . Yet I get told " you stress out about everything". Yeah?! IS IT ANY FUCKING WONDER!!!??? I simply have a low tolerance for bullshit. AND the ironic thing? The drunk is too cowardly to go around someone who gets drunk and acts exactly like their own self died to us. Make it make sense *facepalm* smh. I don't need this crap so sick of going through hell from an abusive drunk. And my other family member just ignores tries to block out everything including their behavior sigh