All Rants

I have always felt affected by mankind's complete disregard for the environment. It just eats me inside that we are so keen on our worship of money that we are willing to burn down the only house we can live in...and nearly all of us are guilty. But I just recalled...in my country most people are diverting to solar panels and this is not some conscious green initiative but simply because the traditional option is too inconvenient that they would rather pay for the expensive setup instead of rely on the grid. So I'm thinking...perhaps instead of directly advising people to change and convincing them of global warming, they may be coerced into it so that they act to preserve the environment even if unwillingly or unconsciously.

So, I’ve had this friend for about 5 years, we’re super close. and recently, he wanted me to tell him one of my secrets, because I mentioned it a few days ago when we were talking about something(I don’t remember what it was) point is, I told him and now things feel so awkward and strange between us. He tries to be supportive but I can tell he’s uncomfortable. And I apologize and apologize and he says it’s fine but clearly it’s not. I can feel ourselves drifting apart and I don’t want that because he’s my best friend in the entire world. I would do so much for him and losing him would actually be a nightmare

fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK!!! i'm tired i'm so tired i'm seriously so fucking tired. i'm tired of seeing characters of color suffer to suffer. i want it to have weight!!! i want to see the consequences! i want to see them live and find happiness! i want to see csa victims like me with my ethnicity i want to see people with trauma with my ethnicity i want to see people of other ethnicities and diasporas that feel like people!!! i want to see recovery i want to see poc make friends with other poc i want to see an audience love characters OF COLOR!!! why is it always white people? why do you (general) always focus on white people? why??? why??? i'm sick and FUCKING TIRED of people saying they're the 'black people of the LGBTQ community' when there are black people that are part of the LGBTQ community!!! shut up shut up shut up!!! i'm not your fetish, i'm a person!!! i am asian. i am not white lite, i am ASIAN!!! i am chinese!!! please. look at me and listen to me. love me. love poc. please

(Female) I'm gut is telling me to leave this relationship bc it's not good for me (He has threatened to end his life and he doing SH {I'm not against but sum inside me just wants to hug and love him. He's forced me into a polygamy relationship with my best friend. It's hurting me severely..Ik this might sound bad but I want to love him and be in a relationship but at the same time I want to follow my path into being a FFA leader at my school. And I want to get go grades this year but I feel like I might fall behind me in struggles with this relationship I've talk about my relationship on here and a lot of ppl have said to leave AND THANK U FOR THAT but it's been 3 years since Ive last dated sum-one, I'm a very freaky person if I'm being honest I've had a porn addiction and have got caught with that addiction and have yet to get caught masterbating.. but it's like he understands me bc of my freaky side but and the same time it's like well how can I feel loved if your shutin me out?...

I'm genuinely feeling so broken lately like I totally changed as a person and that everyone is distancing themselves from me so when I stop trying to go to them I'd just stop being something to them and I feel I'm only defined as how I present myself and how positive I can be towards other people and I feel so guilty when I try to talk about my issues because I bottle them up a lot so I end up just spitting out everything at once and I'm scared of overwhelming people and I dont have any trusted person to talk to in real life and I feel like I'm just losing my sense of self and everything that goes with it. And everytime it comes back to the same person that caused me that and that managed to make my trust issues reach a level I think is in a point of no turning back and I wish I had distanced myself from them before they managed to hurt me this bad but there i am suffering the consequences of their actions when they're probably managing to sleep well without questions about anything.

Nobody trusts me anymore and the less people trust me the more I don’t trust them and I’m losing my mind. I can’t talk to anyone about it or go to therapy I need to figure out what to do.

Never thought I would find the nerdy girl at work absolutely beautiful. But here I am thinking about her… Also never thought someone like her would snap me out of the rut of my previous relationship. But here I am. Loving someone way less beautiful physically but astromically beautiful inside.

Dream convo (how I wish!) - Hey. Sorry to bother you but I want to say thank you for the reward. - Hey. Well deserved again and I am proud of you. BTW. I like my life well enough to say that you never bother me… - lol. Will I see you Sunday? - Of course. Gotta wish you good luck on your hunt. - lol. Ok. looking forward to it - Me too

What if we went on a date (as a joke) and we went to your favorite place ( as a joke) and I got you a cute gift (as a joke) and afterwards we went to my place and watched a bunch of movies and other shows (as a joke) and we cuddled on the couch until we both fell asleep (as a joke ofc)

Anyone else just feel like they’re being pushed away but you can’t stop it and people only care when it benefits them bc I want to leave this place…

I'll always have a smile on my face, even if I'm unsticking my arm from my sleeve.

I hate yearning because I'm just sitting here waiting for something that's never gonna happen. And the worst part is, it could've happened. I feel like a dog waiting at the side of the road waiting for their owner to come back.

guys im scared shitless i have a comp at eastern gymnastics on sunday.. im so scared anyone else do gymstar in victoria?? i wanna find other ppl who do the same shit i do thx..-f.g

My loneliness is getting unbearable. I'm trying to get used to it, but I'm crying so often now about it

there's a full moon tonight i know im going to get horrible nightmares

why does nothing ever go my way everything always goes to shit

Why is it that people can fucking vape or play loud music on the bus? I don't want to hear or smell your shit. You stupid monkey

"Your so selfish" Thanks! I always put others first before myself and let people use me as a doormat as long as it means they love me!

The day I died was the day i swore to never express my real emotions or vent to anyone. I didn't want them to think they couldn't talk to me because I was going through something, or that they'd be a burden, because I'd never see them, or any of my friends as a burden. But they were suffering so much, and they thought they couldnt reach out because I was sad. Ill never talk about it again if it means that they'll be ok. I mean it. Ill never talk about my issues again.

I have an overwhelming ever-present feeling of agnosthesia. And I don't know why - r.s