All Rants

Why do neighbors got to act like crap? I mean they started trouble with us to start with. They're upstairs meaning they're disrespectful loud af especially in early morning when nobody has to be up yet. They thump like last night the one was going back n forth TO FOUR IN THE MORNING. The other creaks the floor above me making it sound like raining steel balls. They make it sound like a creaking wooden ship on the ocean by sound effect anyway. The one is well overweight to put it nicely so everywhere they go they make it creak. They created a problem with us that could have been resolved by simply leaving a note on our door. Instead they go over our heads mass report us for an issue, blow confetti bombs on our walk , AND PUSH SNOW AGAINST OUR VEHICLE.....WHEN IVE NOT DONE A FUCKING THING TO THESE PEOPLE FFS SMH. I've never saw a more immature bunch in my life. Their dog has more maturity than they do. Yet they act so sweet and innocent on social media that's what pisses me off. Fake ass

Does anyone also feel so unloved and desperate for love you want to be groomed? Just me? Okay sorry I'll shut up now.

Why leave me if you're just gonna use me as a guinea pig. They haven't acknowledged my existence for three years, yet they talk to me all to test some stupid theory. They were my best friend, best friend in the whole wide world. We were inseparable. Until one day he just began treating me like a ghost. Now for some reason, every so often he'll call my name, "secretly" look at me. It's all just apart of him "wanting to see how I react". It's like he knows his absence hurt me and just wants to twist the knife. Maybe he still misses me and this is the only way he can express it. I'll never understand why he had to do it all on my birthday instead of communicating. We're about to go into high school. We share multiple classes. Why can't he hold the maturity to move on from it and just live our lives normally? Why does he have to continue holding a grudge that's already long gone?

it saddens me knowing how much I struggle mentally and the fact I can't ever truly tell anyone everything. Wether it's my mom yelling at me about my grades or my friends trying to ask me whats wrong, I just end up saying some lie to get them off my back. I've told my parents what's wrong with me before, multiple times, and they don't take me seriously. When I was in 6th grade, begging my mom for therapy or in 8th grade trying to figure out what's wrong, the answer will always be the same. "You don't need therapy". Now I'm stuck about to not graduate. My parents are still demanding answers for why I'm failing half my classes, yet there's no point saying since they've already decided I'm just lazy. They don't see that the messy room and lack of appetite were signs of struggle, they decided I was just lazy. I can't get the help I need because they've convinced themselves that there's nothing wrong with me. I dont want to be like this. They dont want me to be like this. Why dont they help?

i feel like death and am numb and can't talk to anyone, I have a 23 question outsiders packet due tomorrow and assigned on monday, I have to write an essay for CAASP performance task and all my teachers are piling me with homework even though we're state testing and i can't do it anymore, not after the whole year of unrelenting schoolwork and hard curriculum. oh, and i have a social studies test on monday, and a social studies 67 question packet due on monday on top of 24 question packets due every two days, but nope, i can't die yet because apparently its not good. yay 7th grade is awesome oh, and apparently 8th grade is harder yippee ADHD + anxiety + never ending piles of schoolwork

from the ashes of old ties cut by saws burnt with pure flame I sought out for a new name who i am now doesn’t matter to the people i wish cared a little more

I feel like i've just been sinking recently. I was doing okay for a while, but it's all coming down again. I've relapsed into everything that I tried so hard to get out of. I'm cutting and starving again after getting better. This pit in my stomach expands every single day. I'm so young I don't even know what to do to fix myself. I'm having to balance school and relationships on top of everything i'm feeling and the stuff I see at home. It's so exhausting. I just wish I still had the privilege of innocence.

Im 20 running away from home as a lgbt person, im terrified. My bf and his family are going to move me out when nobody is at my home, or old home ig. Im just terrified of something going wrong. Im terrified of my dad finding me afterwards. He is basically a n*z1 at this point and he terrifies me, im happy to be leaving there but not being able to see my bf for a little bit hurts so much i cant stop crying. Im meant to be packing but i cant. i cant move

AAAGHHH YOU NEED TO WORK WHY ARE YOU SO LAZY AGHHHHHHH LOCK IN LOCK IN LOCK IN LOCK IN LOCK IN LOCK IN LOCK IIIINNNNNNNN FUUUUUUUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK I hate myself bruh im so terrible and awful and terrible, everyone is so much better than me and I hate myself, I hate myself the most, Im awful man, I wish everyone would just, realize how awful I am, hit me and punish me to the point of unconciousness and I just. IDK got up wiped my clothes and just got better. I feel like I just need a punch from reality, wake up call of sorts. Dude, seriously, lock in. There's nothing but my mind stopping me my life is literally a mountain of priviliges and i'm throwing everything away. I want to switch with someone, someone who will use my life better, but I don't want to live someones life, I don't want to live at all. I don't want to exist, because I think no matter were I re-appear the problem is intrinsicallly myself, me. I'm the fucking problem. I won't kill myself, I'll make myself better. bye

I fucking hate that he doesn't want to date me after the most stupid thing possible and he is so dumb. and i feel like the more i talk to him, the further he pushes me away . worst of all, i hate that i lost my best friend.

Why do I keep denying the facts ? Anybody else been in a 15 year long cheating relationship ? Lmfao.

stop trying hurt Anne i do not deserve this i am not fraud the monsters who raped me have never been punished for what they did in far as i can tell i do not need anything happen if you leave me alone but these monsters also hurt other people im guessing

if youre thinking about it. go for it.

fuck everyone. fuck life. fuck the world. sometimes i just want to be able to fuck whoever whenever.

With my mom I don't feel seen, I don't feel heard, I just want it to end. I can't stand this pain, no one gets it, I'm so ready to end it, she doesn't care, I know she doesn't. I want to cry but that doesn't help, I want to scream but I can't, I need a rage room but that didn't help, I want the pain to go away, I want it to stop, to leave me alone, but deep down, I know it won't, It'll keep coming back, it won't stop, it keeps coming and coming and I'm so tired. Nobody is really there for me, because people have their own lives. I just want someone that I can cry into, that will hold me, and I don't have that. And that's my problem. I need that, but inside I know I won't get it. And it sucks, It sucks not feeling safe enough to show feelings without getting yelled at. I'm so tired. I just want it to end. I want it to be over. I want someone to love me. I want to be someone's first priority. not second, not third, first. And I cry myself to sleep, knowing that'll never happen. I'm empty

I think my partner wants to break up with me, we haven't really been... as close as we were before. I don't know what happened, maybe it's because of this guy friend that i have?? They've been jealous of him like so much times even though i barely even have any physical contact with this guy. I have a gut feeling they're building up resentment towards me, maybe cause I'm always expressing my exact feelings and emotions, maybe I'm too negative sometimes? Maybe it's cause of my overapologising??? But aside from that, I'm really worried for them. They're already suicidal, I'm one of the only things that's keeping them alive, they told me that directly. If something bad happens between us and we break up, there's a very, much more higher chance that they will attempt. that's all I wanted to say. And just to clarify, if you're confused on why I keep calling my partner "they" or "them", it's because they're non binary. If you're wondering what I am, I'm bigender.

I really hate feeling like I shouldn’t defend myself against a stranger being an asshole in public for fear they’ll pull a gun out and end me.

I have a sister that has been secretly seeing someone, and their relationship drains me. Covering for her is tiring. She expects our parents to not question her, when it's so obvious the way she sneaks out... The lies are killing me. Every time I hear a complaint from both her and my parents, I just wanna die... am I wrong for feeling this way?

o burned to hell mom you break my balls you're dirty lope I only have a bad average in math and you think I'm still doubling she leaves me alone yes madam it's more incothing take care of business in the French

why does everyone leave eventually