All Rants

Nvm. His split personality hit up again 🙏🫡 Just go be with her bro.

I just want to sleep on his bare chest and cuddle him

pov: being an atheist but praying to all gods that they are real so they can fix ur problems... pov: having a gym comp but also having cuts all over ur legs and armss -f.g

Sometimes I wonder what type of person I could've been if I wasnt abused as a kid.

Hmm. I'm stressed, depressed, overwhelmed. And this is not the first time it's happening. Over and over again, nothing changes. Neither me nor what causes it. My ask is simple. Listen to me, I'm not ready and leave me alone. I'm happy, safe and sound. Don't take that away from me. I'm scared of getting married to a stranger. I'm scared of sexual abuse. I'm scared of the uncertainty it holds. I like predictable things. And yeah, you raised me. But nothing is gonna make you understand the child you birthed. Whenever you send me a profile or initiate a Convo on that, my mind goes to the worst case scenario and just want to harm myself. That harm is the only thing I know can make you listen to me and think I'm being serious. I skip food, i get sad and it is a vicious cycle. I cannot get out of it myself and I need help.

I'm so frustrated with myself. I keep feeling stupidly depressed, and losing the motivation to do anything. I have good friends, I have a home, and I have food. There's hundreds of thousands of people out there that don't have that and here I am feeling terrible about what is incomparable to those experiences. And I know I shouldn't compare experiences because it only leads to things becoming worse, but I can't help it. There's a good future I could have, and I know the steps to get there, I even know how to start. But I'm not doing anything. I'm just letting myself feel worthless. I know how to help myself, and even when I do try, whether that lasts a day or a week or month, it all eventually ends and I relapse. Letting these thoughts take over makes everything worse, but I still have them anyways. I tell myself it's part of being human, these emotions, because everyone has some semblance of them every now and then. But it's choking me and I'm allowing it and I don't know why.

Friends are like spoons, there’s spoons you love- and spoons you hate. You can continue using the good spoons and leave the ones you hate to grow dusty. But you haven’t even tried the hated spoon. How do you know it’s not good too?

My family doesn't understand. They don't think I'm depressed. They think I lied to the person who evaluated me for depression, just for attention. I also starve myself. I'm heavily underweight and can't fit into any of my clothes. I'm so skinny it's like looking at a skeleton almost. They also think this is me seeking attention and that I'm acting like a big baby and I should grow up. Why do people think like this. I'm just so tired.

Please read before getting angry…and if you have anything rude to say- please don’t. If you don’t like what I have to say- move on. It is a venting site for a reason. I don’t get LGBTQ at all. I grew up in a Christian household where there are TWO genders. Male and female. You are what you are at birth. I’m using my free time at a homeless shelter helping serve food! (It’s amazing!) but a worker- two of them- say they are biologically male- (they have tits. They are girls-) I can’t comprehend that- like…i understand it’s a mental disorder (because my mom is a nurse and told me it is.) one female- (who says she’s a male..) kept looking at my moms boobs- so when I fixed my moms apron ((bec she comes with me to volunteer to feed homeless)) the woman-man person-…walked away. Like…that’s disgusting to look.

forgot to include my signature in my post about my birthday fuck r.s

One year ago, I was full of bliss Two years ago, I felt miserable and was SH'ing a lot from being betrayed Today, I feel okay. Not exactly blissful, but okay, albeit scared. Waking up at 2AM, today is my birthday. Let's see how it goes

i keep getting banned on insta and im soo mad like ugh dude its not even for a valid reason it said i got banned for child nudity like bro ive never even seen a naked child why is this even happening and every time i make a new acc it gets banned again im so pissed

i dont know if anyone else is like this but a few times a year ill find something (usually a tv show, sometimes books/movies/etc) that interests me and for the next few months (sometimes years) its my WHOLE personality. i mean like i try not to annoy my friends w it but im always thinking about it and stuff but it gets to a point where it is LITERALLY all i can think ab and i cant bring myself to do other things like hw or cleaning etc.. like just thinking about it makes my chest hurt and my throat gets all tight bc i js love it so much it actually brings me pain and i cant move on from it like this tv show is my whole life and i kinda hate it bc i feel like im idolizing it and its terrible but i love it soso much and i js dk what to do bc no one else i know is like this i mean i was talking to my friend ab it & she was telling me how i can never js “like things normally” and im like yes omg thats so true but ughh idkidk i love it sm i want to inject this show into my viens

Kids need to stop hating on teachers. They aren’t getting paid enough. They pay for YOUR pizza party. (That’s why your pizza slice is tiny.) A teacher bought her student a seat because the school wouldn’t. Teachers aren’t the monsters, ungrateful students are.

The dog was sick today. They had phlegm issues and whatever else. Just because they're now feeling better does not give my fam the green light to start back smoking around. That really irks me. Before my other fam smoked so much theyd vomit and have phlegm issues because of the smoking. Yes my fam issues too but don't smoke around the dog. It even gags me it reeks. I love my fam and doggo but idk sometimes just feel like smacking them. That's not even counting how I feel about the neighbors that's a different thing on its own.

guys!!!! i just relapsed in the school bathrooms!!!! how fun....haha....

i keep on hearing that I need friends, but I'm tired of people. They let me down over and over again. Or maybe its my fault? Either way, I don't mesh with other people, it's causing more grief than it's worth. I got invited to a party last month; they ghosted me and didn't give me the info to come. I got invited to come to movie yesterday; they didn't show up and I had to watch the movie by myself. People ignore me when I talk to them and are just flat out rude to me. I'm just tired of it. I'd rather just deal with a little bit of loneliness rather than be deserted and disrespected over and over again.

Ye fathechod kya bakbak kar raha hai? Fictional writer ban ja

i was really happy too have my nice food and play with my friends,it was fun greifing the servers. i felt a bit bad but the reactions were jjust nonchalant so i guess they didnt reallly mind. i dint usallay write this stuff. but anyway. maroon pissed me off. like whyd you block me instead of just saying too my face dude. and whats the point of just trolling me and my friend. but my friend didnt care. he jsut kept giving him enlighten. it mad eme reaslly mad. then my moms forcing me too go outside soon to go play boerdgames? newws fucking flash i have a issue. i cant just sit doing stuff with no screen or witholut my real friends. i just wanted too be with j mainly. my friend is fun ofc. but i love j nore than anything. but then j's friend joined. i rreally sont like they were matching. it made me almost cry but i just left the game instae to type this, i wish he would leavew them for me. im sorry im so selfish. i know its just a game and evrrything and im being childish. bad spelling.

I feel so invisible and chopped, this whole summer iv been working to improve myself but that doesn't even matter atp. All my friends are in relationships or talking to someone and there all gorgeous people will walk up to our group and give my friend compliments left and right but I never get any. And everytime I think someone's into me they end up getting w someone else or going back to there ex and guys never interact with me unless they need more friends and that's so rare and I'm always so jealous and in a bad mood when I'm with them and it's not even there fault. I feel like I NEED a male connection even if it is a want ik craveing male attention so bad and ik that's terrible but it's just my feelings and I haven't been in real relationship in like 7 months and my ex asked to be friends again after months of no contact after he broke up w his ex in July but now there talking again and I got so excited that he was into me again but no he wants her he loves her why nobody want me