All Rants

how many ppl are actually on this website... almost no one puts their initials or a nickname so like.. i only know i think 6 including me... how many??-f.g u obvi dont have to tho like its anonymous

Is it a lot to ask for quietness to sleep at night? These people thump at different times through the night so I don't even know how much I slept. Im so mad right now for real I could probably hurt somebody. This has been going on for months so you get sick of it and people I tell about it act like it's nothing. Obnoxious ass motherfuckers. I hate feeling like this because it's not who I am. Who the fuck thumps all fucking night anyway!???????!!? It's bullshit. Sigh.

hey LD, thx. also im so so sorry if this a breach of privacy like genuinely so sorry but i js wanna say, i needed that. also imma 'add u to my list of ppl' nah not literally but like ik u exist as person❤️-f.g

goodnight guys hope yall have a good day or sleep well or both idk the time for yall but be good to urselves im watching well im not but pls do luv yall and gn-f.g

I love to write and I have a poem to share or something I hope you enjoy it :) Living is truly I can lay here, in cold, and be consumed by what is below me. Or I could stand, and take in the sun that of whom towers above me. No matter, I’ll still be feeling, something I am not a stranger to. I enjoy to feel it all, even if it’s the worst I’ll feel. As long as I’m feeling, I’m alive. I’ll lay in the sunlight, and be consumed in cold. As long as the air remains, my spirit will live. I hope my corpse to feed the soil, and grass to grow over my bones.

i hate that i’m stuck with this face for the rest of my life

i feel so bad when my boyfriend uses cute petnames for me im not pretty enough to be called them it makes me feel so guilty

Idk I’m ready for school. Like deadass I’m already cooked being black, I’m also an ambivert and I got real bad anxiety it’s CRAZY. “Call your scuber”, “my friend likes you”, “We’re best friends right?” And ofc I’m just gonna be called the hard r🫩 im going into freshman year um atleast I got most classes with my friends and the same lunch period but it’s still making me wanna hang myself, considering the fact my schools mainly white and Mexican so you already know the n word gets passed around like fucking hot potato. anyway I gotta lock in for the next 4 years and then I’m moving some place far I swear

I was SO head over heels for him like deadass it’s embarrassing. My notes app has heard it all. Like hes Mexican and im black and we truly truly loved each other he literally confessed to me but he racist asf☹️☹️ my notes app is full of corny ass poems and long rants dedicated to him from 2023 and it js crazy that the color of my skin stopped a potentially life changing relationship😓😓

I want to die but I don't want to kill myself I'm always about to but I don't Because killing myself seems too cruel It seems as if I hated myself more than the world did But maybe I did Maybe all it was was my head My brain Maybe I was just fighting demons everyday But 'was' isn't the right word The right word is 'is' Or 'am' Because I would be a liar if I said I was fine If I just told you I would be fine 1 more time 1 singular time Maybe it would've been easier to keep the lie Maybe you would've never known But then I wouldn't have known about you And then I would be dead And maybe you would too Because how do I tell you that I'm alive because I feel guilty Because I told myself that you were worse And so I couldn't until you did But I know I care more about you than you do me Because you have told me you have a best friend And a girlfriend And I'm just a friend And I don't mean I want to be more than a friend I want to be a close friend... I want to be wanted... -f.g

my old fat male and female couple neighbor have been triggering me to masterbate on their command with abusive noises and I was wondering if they are recording me masterbating in my home ? its possible to record with drone or putting cabling to roof or trees or guttering etc getting kids to jump on your roof or other ways like hacking your computer, mobile phone, like one sound is clear when ever you ring lifeline it sounds like sexual wet vaginal slapping sex clicking sounds has anyone else noticed that?

I'm scared to eat but I'm scared to starve I'm scared to die but I'm scared to live I'm scared to cut but I'm scared to heal I'm scared to cry but I'm scared to be numb I'm scared to sleep but I'm scared to be tired I'm scared to speak but I'm scared to be silent I'm scared to love but I'm scared to hurt more -f.g

I want to kill myself but... I'm too scared to... I'm scared it will hurt I'm scared it won't work I'm scared people won't care I'm scared people will be hurt I'm scared to actually commit to the bit But... I want to see what happens next... Not experience... Just see... -f.g

I am a person with PCOS I have a larger body, and I dislike most things about it. I have a sibling who has a beautiful body, one that would be beyond my dreams to have, they don’t even want to be a lady, and they dislike most everything about their body, they complain that they are “fat” and then yet label themselves as “thinny skinny” and have poked constantly at my size, it makes me sad and angry. If only the social world was built for all.

Just got out of my toxic friendship I feel so free now❤️

Hi f.g. Just wanted to say I always express my boundaries. I tell him to please leave my friends to be my friends and that he needs to stop doing this and leaving me friendless all the time. He's going to a different school this year so I hope any of my new friends stay MY friends. Anyways I need to sleep its gonna be a ROUGH morning for me. Goodnight!

I just finished watching Hamilton. It was great but that's not what I'm here to talk about. My brother likes to steal my friend for some reason. He always does but I have a few friends that don't like him because I tell them about him and how two sided he is. I'm waking up at 8am to go tubing with my friend who we'll call L. L is friends with him despite my attempts to tell her how bad he is to me so whatever it's not that bad ig. Anyways, she invited him to go tubing with us and apparently we're going with me and L's friend M. I don't think she'll become friends with him because she has a dad that's really two sided and knows the feeling but I'm still scared. M tends to be nice to almost everyone to their face because she's a good person but she's the "I'll be nice to you infront of your face but I'll hint that I don't like you and then when your not around I'll talk about you but not in a bitchy way" So yeah idk... I'm just scared ig...-Astro

Thank you for the message f.g. Some people would consider it rude but honestly that snapped me into a better headspace. Thank you, -Astro

I guess a lot is happening recently. In few weeks I'll be moving out for uni. I'm excited, obviously, getting out of this fucking madhouse has been my dream for years now, but at the same time, I can't get myself to be fully happy about this. I'm scared that I won't be able to function, that I won't find a job, that I won't do well in uni, that I will struggle to make friends, that I will relapse and start starving myself again and more. idk what to do. i didn't even think I'd make it this far, I was supposed to kms when I was 12, and now im 19 and things are difficult and complicated and im scared.

happy sweet16 to me i didnt even get out kf my bed,dont even feel like my parents are real people anymore,might end up on a man in his 30s lap if i ever get to 18y,