All Rants

i'm a guy who kissed my boyfriend i regret it so much i realized i don't have a crush on him anymore and im cupioromantic and idk how to tell them

I wish my friends would protect me , Everyone says im kind and that they find me comforting and yet are okay with me being publicly humiliated. I wonder if i stay silent and disappear theyll actually start worrying about me for once. maybe its just me, im given support but i always need MORE. Whats wrong with me . i just wanted to belong and not step on my boundaries at the same tiem, but becuse my boundaries were too hostile and rigid people started hating me. im always the nutcase the villian or the wweird one . I hate all of my friends. I wish someone would come save me , my legs hurt so much. I wish self harm did something. i dont want to die ,but i wish people thought that their actions caused me to

It pisses me off that I work a job as a teacher and yet there is absolutely no support for the teacher. There is support for admin and others I work with but not for the one providing the instruction. It is like we get blamed for things out of our control. Even though it is not our fault, the ones at fault do not take the blame nor defend us. Instead, the one who supposed to support us only relay information, never to defend us. This is why so many teachers are leaving and why others there are eager to leave, me included. Unfortunately, I placed all my eggs in one basket and decided that whatever comes from this job will be decide whether I continue teaching or not. I am done! I will not ever teach again! I wish people would wake up to see how broken the system is. It should not cost us to pay for others to do our resume nor fake our experience to get noticed.

I had been having interest in this one girl in my band. She seems extremely nonchalant and lately I lost a lot of my friends. More losing their touch, so I wanted to be friends with her more than ever. But it just seems so hard. My pride may have already given her a bad impression on me anyway, so I struggle. I’m probably not fit to even be her friend, she’s with the popular kids and I’m just a weirdo. Who likes things I shouldn’t like, it feels hard to fit in.

I got a new bathing suit and I want to throw up. I hate the way I look. It's absolutely disgusting the way my body looks, I hate it so much. I can't change my bone structure so I'm basically fucked forever. Unless I pay for surgery or something I'm stuck like this. Being skinnier or weighing more will do absolutely nothing for me when I'm built like a literal block of shit.

I feel like my best friend is not best friends w me. At one point, we did everything together, we knew eachother like no else did. I even ditched my old best friend for her. Which I feel horrible about because she treated me way better than this girl. But now she has so many people that she would put in front of me, has every guy to ever exist to flirt with her and want her. Whenever she’s there I’m invisible, to guys, to girls, to everyone. Does she have any idea that I ditched everyone else to be with her, and now I have no one when she decides to ignore me: I just follow her around (Which I know she hates) but I have no other choice because I have no other friends and she just makes me feel so worthless. I wanna just ditch her but I kinda can’t and I love her so much she is so funny and caring and we have so many great memories together and I don’t wanna let them go. I wish I wasn’t, but I’m jealous. Every guy I like wants her. Every guy ever wants her. I would do anything to be her

Why why do I always feel like I'm nothing like I'm never good enough like my mom doesn't care about me and that she likes my sister more I feel like I'm nothing

I just got fucking screamed at by my mom that I have to just "get over" being told I eat enough for 3 people. I had a borderline eating disorder for all 3 years of middle school, being so weak between malnutrition and open wounds that I couldn't open the school doors. Their exact comments are the reason I was underweight from ages 11-14 and only just recently beginning to gain but weight but IM somehow the one who needs to just get over it as if their comments didn't cause permanent damage to my body between the lack of nourishment during some of the most formative years and the self harm that occurred because even starving myself didn't make me feel better

I cannot believe my team is fricking ignoring me. We have a literal video to give to the professors tomorrow, I did my part days ago and they can't even read messages.

I had never dated anyone in my life because I was always shy and too academically focused , my confidence was always low, since I didn't have any experience. After getting into uni I started panicking that I had never had a personal life. Out of nowhere I met someone and unexpectedly we had an insane chemistry. At first I thought that I will just compromise and date him just for the experience, but this guy was genuinely amazing. We could talk hours about everything, from abstract themes, our deepest fears to silly things. Without realising I fell for him, his mind was brilliant and he seemed a sweet, sensitive person, but I never actually was expressive or trusted him.We dated for a while but after some time he distanced himself and we stopped talking. I was devastated. After thinking I had healed I started dating another guy but it isn't the same. I can't live a life knowing I lost this kind of connection. I respect his decision, I just want him to be happy, whatever that means.

My friend just came out saying that a while ago, she used to do sh.(TGIS was over smth MAJOR in our friend group but I won’t say what.) It was just me and our other friend there, she kinda just carried the conversation, and I felt SO BAD. When people say things like this to me I don’t know how to react.I want them to be open to me and I want us to be comfortable w eachother, but I just..don’t seem to get it? Im not complaining at all since I love being a listener, but is there all there is to me? I don’t how to talk all I do is nod my head show some expression, but I don’t know what to verbally say. It’s like at the same time I’m bursting with Im sorry im sorry I’m sorry But If I say that I would just be makingat about myself right? I just feel like there isn’t really any use of me being here if I don’t even contribute anything into their life. Uknow, just like what’s the point of my existence:(

all my talents mean nothing and i am useless i suck at everything i love and theres nothing for me in life i want to end it already

i wish i could have friends at school, but it feels like i dont belong anywhere at all. i feel like that one person noone invited, and at the start of the year i wanted to talk to sm ppl but then i started giving up because it felt so onesided and i feel so lonely. I feel like the people i tried talking to never even liked me at all, it was just me talking to them not the other way around idk maybe im just annoying but i rlly want to talk to someone

i wish i was white i dont wanna be asian at all , especially if youre an immigrant. and its even worse when you go back to ur country, i dont feel vietnamese at all, i feel like just another immigrant and i wish id go back to canada rn bc atleast im aware im an immigrant there. And my vietnamese is kinda bad, i want to learn but it just makes me feel like im larping being vietnamese. i genuinely dont feel like i belong anywhere at all

Secondly. They're plain bitches. The one practically overweight drags all the boards of the floor when they walk with their feet. At 5 am they don't give af how loud they are and it's enough to jump someone like me out of bed n I don't have to be up yet. I simply can't stand these neighbors they're 2 face cut throat back biting hypocrites on top of being a karen. I'd prefer to get along with people but they started the shit and you can't talk to them. Or refuse to. Is it that hard to be a decent human being? Shitty fuckin bunch. Their dog has more maturity than they do. Don't be surprised when it starts raining nothing but crap on your lives. My fam just want be like eh whatever don't engage. It's bad enough the stuff they dif already, confetti bombs, pushing snow against our car. Mass reporting of us WHEN THEY ARE THE PROBLEM. NOT US. I hate crappy people. They're like "I don't want to be a Karen, but..." The but says yes you definitely do fake ass bitch. You'd be mad if we kept u up!

It's never pleasant having a bunch of childish karen's as neighbors. Because of the disrespectful ass bunch I hardly got any sleep. I was really pissed this morning. They know better they just don't care making noise walking the floor all fucking night and they think they can sleep all day. I have encountered similarly childish people like this before at another place. They're childish because of a number of things. Extremely disrespectful. Tried to get us evicted without consulting us about the problem they had with us. They vape my other fam smokes yet they complained about my fams smoking. And they're not the only ones in the building who smoke but my fam got the blame for it all thanks to this hypocritical two face karen. Is that right ? No it isn't. When we moved in we were first blamed by them for stealing their door dash delivery. We truly didn't. With shades down we didn't know it was there and they're like we got pictures of it. Um.NEVER HEARD OF DRIVER THEFT DROP N RUN? geez

I don't know what course to choose or job to work in. They keep telling me to just follow my passion, and I know that statement has some truth in it, but I don't know. I genuinely don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm finding it difficult just to get out of bed, and they're expecting me to be successful, "make it big" or something. I didn't excell in academics because i saw a bright future ahead of me. I wanted to feel special. Seen. Recognized. ANYTHING just for people to notice me. Telling them, "Hey, I'm here. I'm struggling too." I wanted to be understood, because I've kept this pain, along with these self-loathing thoughts, all to myself. I wanted to be something to someone, but It just proved that I couldn't be everything all at the same time. I'm burned out. I wanted to be thr best, but now I just want to live a happy and honest life without being judged for it. Is that too much to ask? Is that too selfish of me?

I can't stand to fully look at myself in the mirror. Like, I can stare for a few minutes either to brush my hair, teeth or get something done, but I feel repulsed by my own reflection. Sometimes I imagine scenarios where I kill myself again and again. I always aim for my head, I don't know why. I know that these are just intrusive thoughts, but I've been thinking about it more frequently, and I just had no one to tell this to without them worrying about me, or worse, misunderstand.

Should I break up with my partner? It has been 2 years already, but over the course of us being together, this person has done some things that has left me feeling not the best. We are quite young too and long distance, and it has worked great, this person has never cheated on me, although I feel they like they have emotionally cheated on me. They screenshotted three girls from their instagram post, I found the three pictures in the camera roll. I told them off, and said I needed a break to think, I was going to lead him on, since he was going to stay for a week and then break it off at the end of it, I did not though. Trust has been broken, we are both our first (initimate) bodies, he calls me his first love, but after that incident and a few other... situations, not like that one but just other things, I don´t know if I would call him mine.

I am sick of this place, why can´t we all do something, everyone that is sick of this place and wants to genuinely crush the society that is not built by harmony and community. If a billion of us feel as though we have no power to something about this oppression of power in any kind of political category, such as environmental, justice and overall freedom & equality. No wonder I am struggling mentally, all this bullshit there is in the world and basic human rights are endangered, for fucks sake, why must we only "come together" when there is a "common enemy or threat." Do not eve get me started on how we are all devolving, honestly, has anyone seen that video on the internet, where there are children that are not able to read certain words, such as extraordinary? Mind you these are NOT small 5 year olds, they are in early high school at least. Sometimes, I also catch myself devolving and then I regret being that stupid, falling for some bullshit propaganda about something. I´m F done.