All Rants

Just because you are diabetic and going blind doesn’t give you an excuse to be evil, conniving and vindictive. You are probably getting what you deserve anyways you piece of shit.

My friend almost committed suicide tonight I'm telling in the morning and I'm also telling my dance teacher not my parents and if they get all butt hurt about that well then they can suck it so, yeah. It's really late and I'm tired tho so ima drag my sorry ass to bed and be done with today good night bitches (bitches I n a loving way)

im at a boarding school. this girl whos had a serious staring and touching problem with other girls is in my boarding house. Every time shes around me im so uncomfortable i want to vomit, even though shes never actually done anything to me. this girl has seriously bad allegations against her, denies being lesbian and the worst part is she's friends with all of my friends, who dont believe me when i tell them about her. I wish she was gone

Being disabled and traumatized at a young age, then growing past 18, feels like I'm stuck on New Game+. Some games have a new game+ where you can keep playing, even though you've finished the main story. There's nothing else to do. You completed everything. You can't go further. That's exactly how it fucking feels. I can't progress any further, I'm stuck doing mini-games, wandering around with no aim or purpose. My hobbies feel like the mini-games in question. I could die any time now and I'd be fine with it. I want to delete this save file. I wasn't supposed to live past 18

I'm starting to have doubts of the religion I follow. Yeah, I never prayed like I was supposed to, and I never really tried to practice, but when I did, it felt like nothing would happen anyway. I never also got how if God knows everything, and determines what the situation YOU will be in, and they know what will happen, then what would be the point of me trying to better myself. It doesn't make sense why I still try, even if fate has predetermined me to eventually have doubts. I can't change anything no matter how hard I pray and actually dedicate my time, can I? Because God already determined what would happen anyway. God already knows and set up my doubts. God put me in this situation. I feel helpless. I want to search for a reason, but I get blamed for everything that makes me doubt. While that is partially my fault, I still have some doubts. I just wanna know, why? Why am I stuck in this situation if God knows I won't change? And even if I have the chance to change, would it work?

I feel like a horrible person. Last year was possibly the worst year of my life, two court battles, lost both of my father figures, all my siblings, the works but that besides the point. The school year is what made a lot of it really difficult for me. And the teacher for my chemistry class, is someone I really look up to a lot. Im not very gifted mathematically and I failed both of the final exams for both semesters and he excused both of them, both times letting me pass the class. And I never said thank you. I was embarrassed and flustered and on such a hair trigger I thought i was going to break down in front of this man if I confronted him to say thank you. I thought an email would sound bad. So I just never said anything to him. And now whenever I see him I avoid eye contact and I feel like a horrible person that took advantage of his good deed that could've gotten him fired and then gave him the cold shoulder.

What's something about the world today that makes you feel hopeless? I don't feel accepted anywhere. Everywhere I go I get looks— if it's at home or at school, I'm never liked.

Mom I need help. Please help me, mom, I'm scared. Mom I need you, you're here but you're not helping me, and I don't know how to ask. You know me better than anyone else, you know when I'm hurt, you can hear me crying for help, please help me! I'm scared, mom...

I feel like such a fucking bum. I've been in a position where I have been forced to give promises to other people that I can be better. I don't like lying to people and being dishonest so it's been really hard for me to try and be something I feel like I can't promise myself to be. Don't get me wrong I do want to be a better person and have been trying to be better. I have put efforts to fixing my flaws but they have all been in vain. For example, let's say I have a deadline, i force myself to wake up early in the morning so i can try to get things done and have more time for myself but I cannot bring myself to get on my laptop and do the actual thing. It's really frustrating because I can't bring my body to do the things I need to get done. I don't particularly enjoy what I study but I have a passion to be decent at whatever I am doing. Things are not going well for me and to a level, I'm really lost on what I can do for things to change. I just want to be a good decent person again.

And I'm terrified of being alone, of my friends leaving me, it's making me desperate, and I don't want it to affect my social life, because it if does, my friends will leave me and also the fact that I physically cannot tell anybody what I actually feel because I can't ever remember what I'm feeling. All I can describe it as is absolute terror. I want to cry, I'm so scared, I can't get help, even if I want it, and if I ask my mom for help, she'll push me away.

Do you ever feel rejected and lost but then feel like you have no right to feel that way because to everyone else you have a loving family but to you they just don't really understand you?

Im so jealous of my friends and the people I graduated with. Ive been pregnant 3 times, lost the first one before I even knew and the other 3 happened literally a year apart from the other. I know I cant afford a baby, I know i said I never wanted them....but I do for some reason. I want it so bad but I know its not smart, at least not now, with the world the way it is and how expensive things are lately. I dont want to be jealous that my best friend just had her 4th, I dont want to feel those things.

I was talking to this guy. We live in different states but we met on a website. We talked for 2 weeks, then exchanged numbers. We talked almost every day and FaceTimed and stuff. He talked about how if I don’t wanna date yet that’s okay and he wants to talk still. He talked how he would like to get married and have kids one day. 4 days ago he asked me to be in girl friend, I said yes. Now he met his ex on the website a couple weeks before he met me, red flag I know. He said she left him and ignored him for days when she got mad at him. His other ex didnt wanna do long distance. We shared our lives, traumas, etc. I comforted him and reassured him so many times. While we were talking before dating he was sending dick picks to other girls on the website. I said it’s okay just try to stop, red flag. He didn’t. So we date for one night and I was so happy because it was my first boyfriend. Then he next day he doesn’t respond to me. Next day he doesn’t. Today he tells me I found someoneelse.

Never let a job bully or intimidate you. Or make it sound like they're the only job in existence. Don't be loyal to a company that will throw you in the dumpster tomorrow. It's all atta boy as long as you're breaking your back for them. Get hurt? They treat you inhumanely. Despite "their" unsafe working conditions. Even if you're not remembered don't be a butt kisser. I've never saw it get anyone anywhere. I regret being loyal to a shithole company who cared nothing for me, didn't care if you were being bullied and management were bullies themselves and whatever else. They spoke of multiple finger amputations in other facilities. No job is worth that. Period. Kick rocks. I hope to you go out of business. You deserve it for treating people like they're disposable. You have a home to go home to everyday. So do we. We're human too even if you fail to acknowledge it.

Every time something happens at work that my boss it’s my fault. I just want to quit tomorrow but I don’t have a back up plan. I can’t do anything right apparently there.

I cheated on my wife because she didn't want to cook me dinner after a 13 hour shift. I felt sad and lonely.

Lately my tics have been getting worse to the point it’s getting frustrating and sometimes painful, it doesn’t help there’s barely anyone in my college with tics or Tourette’s so most people sorta stare at me I mean I don’t have horrendous tics but they do still get to me, banging my head against my car seat hitting things with my hand, whistling, gasping etc. although I am thankful I don’t have any verbal tics The motor and vocal ones are still difficult to deal with especially when I’m being stared at as if I’m a freak

i'm a guy who kissed my boyfriend i regret it so much i realized i don't have a crush on him anymore and im cupioromantic and idk how to tell them

I wish my friends would protect me , Everyone says im kind and that they find me comforting and yet are okay with me being publicly humiliated. I wonder if i stay silent and disappear theyll actually start worrying about me for once. maybe its just me, im given support but i always need MORE. Whats wrong with me . i just wanted to belong and not step on my boundaries at the same tiem, but becuse my boundaries were too hostile and rigid people started hating me. im always the nutcase the villian or the wweird one . I hate all of my friends. I wish someone would come save me , my legs hurt so much. I wish self harm did something. i dont want to die ,but i wish people thought that their actions caused me to

It pisses me off that I work a job as a teacher and yet there is absolutely no support for the teacher. There is support for admin and others I work with but not for the one providing the instruction. It is like we get blamed for things out of our control. Even though it is not our fault, the ones at fault do not take the blame nor defend us. Instead, the one who supposed to support us only relay information, never to defend us. This is why so many teachers are leaving and why others there are eager to leave, me included. Unfortunately, I placed all my eggs in one basket and decided that whatever comes from this job will be decide whether I continue teaching or not. I am done! I will not ever teach again! I wish people would wake up to see how broken the system is. It should not cost us to pay for others to do our resume nor fake our experience to get noticed.