All Rants

why did you text me a couple days ago. are you fucking stupid? you wanna text me out of no where and act like we're chill? we're not fucking chill. YOU left me when i needed you during my diagnosis. and for why? because you're a whore who can't go two minutes without having a fuck? give me a fucking break. i had to learn that i'm infertile, need a hysterectomy, and physical therapy, and all you need is a quick fuck. seriously, fuck you. so yeah, maybe i couldnt have sex with you, good thing you stuck around to find out why! fucking dickhead bitch. i hope you very much enjoy having no stress as a man. if you got this diagnosis, they wouldve found a cure PRONTO. but because i was cursed to be a woman, my problems arent as bad as needing to have sex. whatever. yeah, we're not compatible because i am physically disabled and it prevents me from having sexual intercourse. bitch you just ruined my week, FUCK YOU!!!!!!!! you should pay for my therapy im dead serious

Frustration builds when no one tries to text me or dm me. I’m constantly picked last and it’s infuriating. I try to text ppl but they either won’t respond or just respond with one word. I feel like I’m losing it. I just want to talk with someone but I don’t even get that. At school this particular person will barely talk to me and just text and watch videos on his phone all the time. I think he doesn’t want to be my friend anymore and I wish he would just tell me that instead of ignoring me or picking other people first. I don’t like feeling left out, and I know my thoughts are inherently selfish. I can’t help it as I am bipolar and take medication for it. This is why I can’t express this without coming off as inconsiderate or jealous. But make no mistake I am a quite jealous person. I just don’t want to burden people with that and force them to think they have to hang out with me all the time. I just feel like I’m being picked last at the playground.

this person ive known since i was literally 2 days old is just making some really bad choices and im so pissed off. she has turned into his boy obsessed person and she makes out with people like way older then her and wears this giant fucking pushup bra thats just makes her look unproportional and weird. and also recently shes being leaving me out so much and its so odd knowing that so many people dislike her and yet she has way more friends then me because shes “attractive” but really its just horny white guys thinking skinny, tits, and blonde = sexy. most people dont even think shes funny and just hangout with her because of her looks.

No one really worries about me when I am in distress. I can hurt myself and tell everyone how awful I feel, but, Maybe it's because I am in a friend group where almost everyone tried to kill themselves, but no one will ever truly worry about me. Because everyone knows I'm not the kind of person do to anything serious. Nothing ever happens

I want him to love me. He always treats me so nicely, so kindly. He has no idea I'd do anything for him to love me. I try to be patient and kind but all I feel is this deep aching pain in my chest every day when I think of him, because I can't stand it anymore. I've always been intense with love, I don't love small, I love with all my soul. And keeping it inside has been killing me, I just want to scream how much I love him but what if he doesn't like me back? I don't want to ruin it. I don't care if he's older, I don't care if people find it weird, I don't care if he's far away, I don't care, I don't care, I don't care, I want him to feel this too, I want him to tell me he loves me, I want him to need me, I want him in the worst ways possible and I don't care. I can't help but be greedy, he's perfect to me.

Why is it allways so easy to fall in love and then be discarded ? It's so easy they do it so flippantly.

i am so tired of trying to make friends. when i was younger, i thought this would change, and basically go away; for things like going to another city because of uni and leaving behind everyone who was from my high school. now at college it feels so tiring; everyone has their friend groups, and when simply being friendly (and trying to sense if i can make a click with them) most of the time i get DRY responses like "yeah" "sure" "oh..." or simply the person tries to end up asap the convo just because. im not saying this because its first year and i expect things to work out in one way or another, actually im on my last year lol. it doesnt help that i get weird stares by some people from my prom (mostly because of my makeup i think?) and some passive aggressive comments from now and then. i genuinely dont now what could be wrong in me, or if i have done anything that can be interpreted in a bad way. im just trying to do my best, the least thing i want is to be rude or insensitive.

She will never love me back and I know that she likes tall handsome men.. I am just a trans guy trying to act like one but how I wish one day she will look at me how I look at her. She is so beautiful and amazing my heart cannot take it I wish I could be with her but our worlds will be separated soon too soon. I have loved you since 5 grade… I love you Scarlett I always have…

I am a child… no other child I talk to act or feel this way so why do I..? I don’t feel like a child anymore they say I look older an act older then I am I miss being a little kid when my grandfather was still alive he made me so happy but now he’s gone and I don’t think he would enjoy who I am now I keep mutilating my arms and legs with blades they are like cracks that I can’t get rid of but it makes the pain go away.

I have been desperately trying to claw my way out of this pit of misery and disgust and disappointment but I keep getting dragged back in and every time it happens it gets harder to make my way out. I have thought about how I would commit more times than my wedding and I don’t think that is ok.. I would never act on those actions but man how I wish I was never born some times.. im trans and if I ever told my mother she would hate me.. I wish I could be the girl she wanted but I will never be that girl at least not anymore and it makes me feel like a burden I hate living here I know she doesn’t actually like me we do not get along very well we have very different views on things but that’s ok one day I will be free

i wish someone would just look at me, cut me open and look at the hole in my heart and love me for it. but no one will. ill die alone and theres nothing anyone can do because it is all. my. fault.

i love her and im so sorry im so disgustingly ugly. i wish i could be someone better, i wish someone could fix up the hole in my chest and make me someone worth thinking about. i feel sick whenever i look in the mirror, the only time i ever feel like anything could ever be okay is when i talk to her. every single letter of every text makes my life worth living for the next 20 minutes. im pathetic.

If there were tests for common sense, manners and respect, the same Republican party troll putting up random names, flags, 👎, abuse, racism, SHOUTING full of grammar and spelling errors, fuck other countries and people, had failed and would failed again and again (Supposed to be nice but if you pay off Quick Rant illegally you can be an racist, abuse, threats, spam etc etc over the years and continue for years) 😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠

Sometimes I really wanna kill myself in the most horrific way. I plan on trying again soon.

Life just can't give me a break. No matter how much I try it doesn't let me change. I find a new hidden path to go down, everything works out well enough that it's suddenly not impossible anymore, and then life immedieately throws in a problem. "Your Education background isn't a problem for this school? Well now money is the problem. Wait money isn't a problem anymore? Well then let's just make your age the problem. That works out too? Well fuck it man let's just throw in the most obscure random thing that disqualifies you." that's the shit life's been doing for 4 years with the one and only dream I have. I lost everything last year, I gave up fully and I fell so deep I'm probably below hell at this point. But nevertheless life can't let me catch a single fucking break.

God, I feel like I'm such a sinner in the eyes of God. I just feel like ending everything so the pain will stop but I don't want to go to hell. It's worse because I'm a queer person, it eats at the back of my brain constantly.

I was groomed online for a rlly long time and it affected me deeply. Ik if your reading this ur prolly like "just block them" it doesn't ever work like that. I was manipulated, blackmailed, and for some reason so dependant and desperate for his attention. All my friends blame the entire situation on me and tell me that I was asking for it. I've been told that I wanted it and don't have the right to be messed up because I never left. It shouldn't have happened, but it did because I was severly deprived of love and affection for so long.. and he was the only person that seemed to care. I stayed because I believed he truly wanted me around and actually loved me. Obviously I now know that it was to get me attached.. but it felt nice before it got gross. ---When you feel like you have nothing, you'll do anything to have something. ---

was in the psych ward recently and It didnt help at all, just lead to more medication. Was diagnosed with Bipolar disorder, ADHD, severe anxiety, PTSD, and insomnia. Nothing is helping and I continue to struggle horribly. I've turned to substances, and I know it's horrible but its the only way to numb it all for a bit. said to myself that I'd never turn out like my dad yet I end up high off my ass and shitfaced every weekend. Im only 14 man, It shouldn't be this hard. I don't see it ever getting better.

I fucking hate him. I mean i love him but at this point I hate that I love him. I don't want to feel like I need him anymore. He wont tell me why he's mad or say hi anymore or acknowledge my existence and he's and always on his stupid phone. I want to smash his phone into the wall. I want him to see me. I miss him. I'm tired. Im so so tired. I don't wanna guess what I did wrong. I know i'm a shitty horrible person and I want to improve. I wish he would let me. I want to ram my head into a wall or punch him. We used to talk everyday. I miss him. I wish I didn't feel like this. I feel so stupid. Maybe I should just end things with him now before any more damage is done. But i'm scared he'll try to kill himself. I guess it wouldn't be my problem then but I don't want to see him hurt. I feel so useless and trapped.

I'm so scared to go home, I hate being at school, but I'm constantly living in fear at my house. It's because of my dad, he doesn't drink or anything like that, but he touches me in places that makes me so uncomfortable. I'm not sure if he has bad intentions but he puts his hands on my chest, thighs, lower back, and places like that. I'm always scared to be alone with him even though I'm sure he probably wouldn't do anything. I might just be overreacting though. And he always comes home from work in a bad mood, so I know he'll take it out on me and my mom, he always yells at my mom mainly for stuff I do. It's always my fault they're fighting and I hate it. He even hit me one time, just one time so far, but I'll always remember him grabbing my arm and pulling me up the stairs, slapping my forearm after I had an "attitude" with him. At this point, I think it would be better if I was just gone, forever. Run away and dissapear. I get the urge a lot.