All Rants

My ex and I haven’t been broken up with since a month ago and she posts on social media with music that i introduced to her. This really boils my blood way more than i thought, and it’s making me LIVID, fuck you bitch!

I failed everyone... but nobody ask me why.. They say that I was lucky, but they don't know what's happening behind those closed doors, inside that house, inside the bathroom, inside my room (which supposed to be my safe space). No one ever in my family what I want, no family talk that will not end up physically hurting me just because I didn't/don't agree, just because I want to play, go out with friends.Npobody, no one. Still, I'm the one to blame.

Rock bottom, hard hit, this is fucked up life, I'm going nowhere, I'm nothing, I'm a free-loader, coudn't get a job, nobody hires me.... ... I'm a mess.

I love you co, I can't take much more of this , you be the co and I will the cob and she can be our coach. cob & co coach. there. I said it. thank you, I want you. lets screw in the carriage. walk back here now.

i hate my life. like genuinely. i cant go through a day without someone critisising me for every little thing that i do. and i do accept critics, but its just so shitty when u do it just to ragebait someone, and u both know that its not a joke, youre just doing it to fuck with their brain and make them feel like shit about their body, thoughts and every fucking thing going through their brain and its something that i think is so shitty for someone to do. plus, there is a group of girls in my school, and they make it their business to bully me about every boy i interact with, cause they know i aint lesbian, but they make it their whole fucking business to act like all i do is fawn over men when in reality, i am the most down to earth person in our whole fucking class, and the first thing they wanna do with their time is use it all to make me feel like shit, and making me so insecure and feel so fucking ugly, when i know that theyre so fuckin choppd no guy they like looks at them

what? we have no inetnet for 1 day, why? you mean your worried I am a what? Just cuz I want to kill people, so, I worked with people who did. stop bullying me for just being angry and real about it. get over it.

i am so done with life. everytime i see them, this group of girls start gossiping about how i like every boy i initiate contact with and it's so annoying because they don't know what i'm going through. my own twin has refused to even talk to me ever since our parents got divorced and no one believes me because they think that im some liar and i don't even know what i've done to them. i barely speak to them, but they make it their business to know about everything i do and i hate it so much. they're so privileged and brag about it in front of everyone and they're just spoiled brats with their stupid eyeshadow paletes and sol de janerio perfumes and they do it in front of people that they know are struggling and they rub it in. anytime someone cries, they make it their business to twist the story and make them the victim. in fact, these bitches get suspended constantly, but because of daddy's money, they don't get expelled since they're such perfect princesses who are just spoiled brats.

this motherfucker sara thinks she fucking owns me and can threaten me like she's my mother, and she calls me a pick-me, but really, she's the pick me here since all she does is fawn over chenuka, and she makes it seem like i like every boy i talk to, but in reality, i am not into any of these chopped idiots and i think that her and her friends will never fucking understand what i feel because im just some pick-me to them

I feel that all aspirations are over for me, I'm just repeating my past failures. Inspiration comes and fades to the wind, carried away by childish fancy as people stare and pass comments where I can't reach. I feel both burning and cooling in my body, spinning around and vomiting.

No one can stand my repulsive thoughts. My family would rather avoid me as I whine like a dying cat, constantly bitching and moaning at them.

Banksy and his supporters are on the same side as Bill Gates. Disney liberals are on the same side as Bansky. They're still pushing the same communist capitalist agenda that only feels like rebellion.

I'm a stupid piece of shit who gets viscerally triggered when I hear someone more socially successful than me give a degrading opinion. I think I should take the tears and blood in my mouth because I'm weak, but I've grown to hate everyone who goes to the gym. I haven't been for years since I was always made fun of by teenagers, I get made fun of by perfect people online for being so 2 dimensional and easy to ridicule. I wouldn't want to be perfect myself, all I wanted was to share my shitty poetry full of convoluted sentences and pseudo-intellectual presumptions of philosophy I'd rather posture. I think I've earned being made fun of, that it's always my fault. I don't think I'm tough enough, but I want to kill everyone who engages in anything remotely patriarchal.

why did you text me a couple days ago. are you fucking stupid? you wanna text me out of no where and act like we're chill? we're not fucking chill. YOU left me when i needed you during my diagnosis. and for why? because you're a whore who can't go two minutes without having a fuck? give me a fucking break. i had to learn that i'm infertile, need a hysterectomy, and physical therapy, and all you need is a quick fuck. seriously, fuck you. so yeah, maybe i couldnt have sex with you, good thing you stuck around to find out why! fucking dickhead bitch. i hope you very much enjoy having no stress as a man. if you got this diagnosis, they wouldve found a cure PRONTO. but because i was cursed to be a woman, my problems arent as bad as needing to have sex. whatever. yeah, we're not compatible because i am physically disabled and it prevents me from having sexual intercourse. bitch you just ruined my week, FUCK YOU!!!!!!!! you should pay for my therapy im dead serious

Frustration builds when no one tries to text me or dm me. I’m constantly picked last and it’s infuriating. I try to text ppl but they either won’t respond or just respond with one word. I feel like I’m losing it. I just want to talk with someone but I don’t even get that. At school this particular person will barely talk to me and just text and watch videos on his phone all the time. I think he doesn’t want to be my friend anymore and I wish he would just tell me that instead of ignoring me or picking other people first. I don’t like feeling left out, and I know my thoughts are inherently selfish. I can’t help it as I am bipolar and take medication for it. This is why I can’t express this without coming off as inconsiderate or jealous. But make no mistake I am a quite jealous person. I just don’t want to burden people with that and force them to think they have to hang out with me all the time. I just feel like I’m being picked last at the playground.

this person ive known since i was literally 2 days old is just making some really bad choices and im so pissed off. she has turned into his boy obsessed person and she makes out with people like way older then her and wears this giant fucking pushup bra thats just makes her look unproportional and weird. and also recently shes being leaving me out so much and its so odd knowing that so many people dislike her and yet she has way more friends then me because shes “attractive” but really its just horny white guys thinking skinny, tits, and blonde = sexy. most people dont even think shes funny and just hangout with her because of her looks.

No one really worries about me when I am in distress. I can hurt myself and tell everyone how awful I feel, but, Maybe it's because I am in a friend group where almost everyone tried to kill themselves, but no one will ever truly worry about me. Because everyone knows I'm not the kind of person do to anything serious. Nothing ever happens

I want him to love me. He always treats me so nicely, so kindly. He has no idea I'd do anything for him to love me. I try to be patient and kind but all I feel is this deep aching pain in my chest every day when I think of him, because I can't stand it anymore. I've always been intense with love, I don't love small, I love with all my soul. And keeping it inside has been killing me, I just want to scream how much I love him but what if he doesn't like me back? I don't want to ruin it. I don't care if he's older, I don't care if people find it weird, I don't care if he's far away, I don't care, I don't care, I don't care, I want him to feel this too, I want him to tell me he loves me, I want him to need me, I want him in the worst ways possible and I don't care. I can't help but be greedy, he's perfect to me.

Why is it allways so easy to fall in love and then be discarded ? It's so easy they do it so flippantly.

i am so tired of trying to make friends. when i was younger, i thought this would change, and basically go away; for things like going to another city because of uni and leaving behind everyone who was from my high school. now at college it feels so tiring; everyone has their friend groups, and when simply being friendly (and trying to sense if i can make a click with them) most of the time i get DRY responses like "yeah" "sure" "oh..." or simply the person tries to end up asap the convo just because. im not saying this because its first year and i expect things to work out in one way or another, actually im on my last year lol. it doesnt help that i get weird stares by some people from my prom (mostly because of my makeup i think?) and some passive aggressive comments from now and then. i genuinely dont now what could be wrong in me, or if i have done anything that can be interpreted in a bad way. im just trying to do my best, the least thing i want is to be rude or insensitive.

She will never love me back and I know that she likes tall handsome men.. I am just a trans guy trying to act like one but how I wish one day she will look at me how I look at her. She is so beautiful and amazing my heart cannot take it I wish I could be with her but our worlds will be separated soon too soon. I have loved you since 5 grade… I love you Scarlett I always have…