I'm envious of flirting and courtship. I'm so isolated and repressed intellectually that I don't get that, just loneliness that forgets the human race. In my loneliness, in insanity, could just forget that other humans exist and hold myself as the last human on the planet. I have found people who understand these kinds of issues, though they turn their noses up at me in aristocratic disgust and I'm just expected to carry on. I don't want to share anything with anyone but to just take intimacy from them, and in this situation, I feel it would ruin us both. I can't degrade myself like a dog and get pig drunk. I'm moralistic here but I crave a whorehouse. I don't know. I don't want to be sent back to the institution again just because I have no one to talk to, no one to fuck and share pain with so I can heal. If I could suck the dicks of my therapists I'd be happier.
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i hate being queer in my conservative town in the middle of bumfuck nowhere. i hate going to school and never fitting in. i want to leave to a bigger city and actually live my life but i can’t because i’m too young to move out. i hate being too girly. i just want to leave. i just want to be normal. i hate myself.
She just hangs out with me to make her friend jelois so he invites her over and i said that it is fine she could ho to him i have a friend i can go to bc he is also outside rn but i lied i am sitting on a bench alone crying while she is probably sucking off that fkn dude
sometimes, i imagine how i die. men raping me, my body getting burned to death. getting eaten alive. maybe i even get skinned alive, feeling each tear, each burn, and eventually dying. it sounds fun.
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Just an update on rant 18489: Thanks to the person who sent me a note, ur right, my friends are really toxic and its really kinda messed up my own dad said that to me. It was really surprising that I already got a note after just a few minutes of using this platform. Its wrong to let people do this to me, I have no self confidence and just think I'm not deserving of anything. My dad just said that because we got into a small argument over a simple thing during dinner, im not sure why but I tried to apologize to him even after he said that to me, but he just said that it doesn't matter to him at the moment. This has happened before to my little brother, to the point where he said he hated our dad and wished he would die, that didn't even happen between me and my dad, but my dad still gave my brother a hug and told him that he forgave him, but still wouldn't do the same to me.
The truth in the modern era doesn't help anything. I can't be freinds with someone who is willing to say I'm insane just because they want their apparently just found out girlfreind back. I had to cut you off just like I cut Resi off in the original message I sent you. I see why abuse victims of people who have influence don't come out about their truth. I don't need someone who claims to help me but is willing to talk shit about me just so they can get back with someone.
what if I'm the basic friend thats secretly last people want to hang out with, i go to boring restaurants because i dont know anything better, and i dont have the funniest personality because honestly it's difficult to attain unless you dedicate years to refining it. the oblivion is the worst part. i dont know if im the boring friend, and it hurts knowing i'm probably nobody's first choice. i spent lots of money on nice clothes and hygiene plus i try to be overall very curious and well rounded, but no one seems to care.
this is fun. i like this site. i wish i could be more like this website. too bad im not though. i'll never be a website! waahhhhhhhh \ actuary thats it. i am a math wizard i only used my calculator 2 times on these rants.
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I just don't understand why people treat me like shit. I support others small achievements but mine don't really matter, one of my closest friends told me that the only reason I got a special award (I do dance) was out of pure luck. I work hard but now it seems the only reason people want to know me is because of what I won or just to do their homework. Why can't I get treated with respect as well? I don't understand , do I just not matter enough for people to care? Instead of cheering me one, people I'm close to look at me with hatred or even envy. My dad won't talk to me and told me that im not his child and I don't deserve to be, but completely forgives others doing way worse things. My brother pretends to do really inappropriate things to me, he doesn't do it as much anymore but now I'm worried about him. If ur reading this thank u and don't forget ily, and I'm here for u,even though I don't know u irl
fuck this shit bro 10+5 i mean what am i a fucking um whats taht math shit called idk who cares fuck u all anyways.
I feel so ashamed of my body and the way I look. I've been eating less and barely getting any sleep, I feel so ugly, I hate myself for doing this and I'm too scared to talk to anyone abt it, since im asian everyone just goes off stereotypes and wonder why I don't have an accent. Im so hairy I feel like im just disgusting. People are starting to notice but it feels wrong telling them
Going through a hard time, friend group started rumor abt me, parents lashing out for no reasons, they even said that I wasn't their child anymore just because dad got mad at me for not doing smth his way. I think im so stupid and dumb and just hate myself for making people mad
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YOU TRASH ME TO MAKE HER FEEEL GOOD. ADMIT IT, don’t you dare deny this.. KEEP POPPING HER SHIT AND IM DONE FFS
I hate my brother sometimes. He's doing almost nothing to help our family. All he does is eat, leaves his trash all over the house and sleep. He doesn't even do his own laundry nor wash his own dishes. Me and my mom have been doing all of these for him for years. He's already 22. I hope he get a grip of himself. Do I have to tell him everything? Every basic life tasks? To clean up after his own mess? He even let his girlfriend come and stay over at weekends on his own will. We already have 3 people living here with 5 pets. He's so fake, because he'd only clean up before his girlfriend shows up, he acts all kind and nice towards me and mom. When his girlfriend's not around, he's back to treating everyone else like shit. He's always complaining when mom makes a noise because she's cleaning the house, something he doesn't care to do unless his girlfriend is coming over. Him and his girlfriend fight so bad and often and she still ca me over. I also hate her. I hope they break up.
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IF EVERY DAMN THING IS DEEP, THEN WHY THE FUCK DO YOU BLAME ME HER TEARS ARE MORE IMPORTANT SHE IS MORE IMPORTANT EVERYTHING IS ABOUT HER EVERY DAMN THING
You rot on twt 24/7 for her. Why the fuck should I just endure any of it? Fuck off and go play minecraft n all stupid games with her