Should I break up with my partner? It has been 2 years already, but over the course of us being together, this person has done some things that has left me feeling not the best. We are quite young too and long distance, and it has worked great, this person has never cheated on me, although I feel they like they have emotionally cheated on me. They screenshotted three girls from their instagram post, I found the three pictures in the camera roll. I told them off, and said I needed a break to think, I was going to lead him on, since he was going to stay for a week and then break it off at the end of it, I did not though. Trust has been broken, we are both our first (initimate) bodies, he calls me his first love, but after that incident and a few other... situations, not like that one but just other things, I don´t know if I would call him mine.
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I am sick of this place, why can´t we all do something, everyone that is sick of this place and wants to genuinely crush the society that is not built by harmony and community. If a billion of us feel as though we have no power to something about this oppression of power in any kind of political category, such as environmental, justice and overall freedom & equality. No wonder I am struggling mentally, all this bullshit there is in the world and basic human rights are endangered, for fucks sake, why must we only "come together" when there is a "common enemy or threat." Do not eve get me started on how we are all devolving, honestly, has anyone seen that video on the internet, where there are children that are not able to read certain words, such as extraordinary? Mind you these are NOT small 5 year olds, they are in early high school at least. Sometimes, I also catch myself devolving and then I regret being that stupid, falling for some bullshit propaganda about something. I´m F done.
I am struggling again, it truly is horrible when you thought you were doing better, then suddenly you come all the way down to where you were before, as if none of your progress mattered. Occasionally I catch myself feeling nothing or empty, and then I think well have I hedonically adapted to life? I want to live for myself to, and I know, at least I hope that I have gotten better with my mindset. Why do parents, no matter what the age, they don´t believe a person can go through depression or mental health crises. I will never admit this aloud, but when I was in my teenager years til this day, I do not forgive m parents, for not being more supportive when I was having mental health issues. I just can´t, and sometimes I feel terrible for it, but remembering how emotionally abandoned I felt, always brings me back. Wishing that I was as tough as I am, when I get physically injured.
I hate being hypersexual. I found porn online when i was 8-9 and i got sexually harassed and abused by a classmate at 11. I want someone to touch me. I would have a panic attack being sexually vunerable around people. I love sex. I hate sex. I cant control my feelings in the hypersexual episodes which then lead to panic attacks when i remember my SAer. How do people romanticize this? I feel so disgusting all the time. I feel so dirty. None else knows what happened to me. Im just so tired. -Ollie
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I cant journal because i fear my parents will steal it and read it so im gonna vent here -Ollie
Cptsd sucks. Lashing out bc of it when you want to be kind sucks. Having people say it's bc you're weak and bad and they've suffered too and haven't lashed out sucks. Having people not understand what you've been through sucks. I wish I wasn't a person so I could match how I feel inside
A fat black fat girl in a sleeveless white shirt is being extremely rude to people in Palm Desert, CA with a white woman in a dark blue jersey with number 26. She's sent by Satan. Their car license number is 9UGA912.
idk, i dont know what im feeling everyday, i seem really happy but its just my brain trying to wipe out the noises of hatred and agony, i think everyone hates me, the only reason they are willing to talk to me is because of my smartness and all they would do is just exploit me off that, nothing else. my whole family is a mess as well, especially my dad, what a nuisance, it stresses me out to see him scold my mom for no reason, i pity her to marry that excuse of a boy, i really do. i feel like my best friend isn't my best friend anymore, i should just distance myself away from her, she deserves better friends than me, im just a pitiful excuse of a so called "bsf" and i truly wishes that she leaves me alone, not only her but my whole friend group. its painful having your only true friend leave you and your left with hypocritical homosapiens to deal with, i dont like thai at all. i dont wanna be stuck in this life, i wish i could just be free of worry and live happily ever after iykyk.
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I hate myself so much and I wanna kms.i feel like everyone hates me and wants me to dissapear . I'm scared to talk to my psychologist because she will tell everything to my dad and my life will be ruined.
I never met such an uglier bitch. Ugly on the outside and even uglier on the inside. The downside of modern medicine for letting this beasts roam around us.
I fucken hate when ppl turn over a new leaf and they think that they can go about their merry fucken lives thinking how much of a great fucken person they are. Such a crock of fucken shit. Some piece of shit can do so much harm to themselves and the ppl around them but then one day think to TURN IT ALL AROUND LIKE A FUCKEN MIRACLE. It would be a fucken miracle if I get to see u FUCKEN DIE. How much of a shit relationship we had b/c I had the unfortunate privilege to meet you when u were a raging FUCKEN ALCHOLIC HOW MUCH I FUCKEN DISPISE UR FUCKEN GUTS THEY ARE BURSTING OUT OF YOU HOW MUCH I REVEL IN THINKING UR IN FUCKEN PAIN MOTHERFUCKER...and do u even think, maybe just for a second, how much harm you have caused. No, probably not, maybe one day, I hope..
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To the post about the girl that is third wheeling w/ her shit friend... dont be friends with her! She is a jealous person that is trying to hurt u b/c u have something that SHE DOESNT. She was probably sa'd by a family member and she is looking for male validation from ALL THE GUYS. Trust me when I say this, u dont need to be jealous about her! Shes trying to get the guys that u like b/c she feels like SHIT on the inside. Bet, all the guys she gets with probably think shes a skank! U dont want to be that! If you have a crush dont tell her SHES NOT A FRIEND. Fuck the third wheel date DONT GO.
Just want to come on here to say that I hope u conquer your demons today. I come on here everyday to read every single post on here b/c I care about the ppl that do not feel like they are heard or understood. I care about the rejects and untouchables b/c even at their lowest they somehow persevere. Sometimes life is a reminder that we just have ourselves. If you have no support network around you, you are strong by urself. So many shit ppl, so many, but it doesnt mean it has any reflection on you. Be true to urself thats what matters.. If I had the money and was not concerned of having my banking info linked to this website, I would reply to everyone of these posts...but life aint cheap and fuck I aint rich..
i wish i was never in that FUCKING FANDOM. i cant enjoy anything anymore without thinking of it and im trying so fucking hard to forget but noooo i cant forget!! because not only does it JUMPSCARE ME everywhere for no reason, I HAVE A PERSECUTOR THATS AN INTROJECT FROM IT. that fandom's ruined songs. outfits. colors. my own crafts. i cant even listen to my boyfriend sing because he sounds like one of those muppet mouthed incel motherfuckers. if the colors of the rainbow are arranged in a specific way i'll spiral. i crashout if i misspell the word "neat". i wish i never got involved with that fucking hell hole. "fiction doesnt affect reality," my ass. i WISH it didnt because then i wouldnt be fucking WRITING THIS. may that show and all related media become permanently lost and everyone in the fandom get anal prolapse, especially the bls. god i just want one good thing i want one thing that i can enjoy without it reminding me of the places i was in is that too much to fucking ask
so there's the guy and like he's kind of courting me or something, i don't really plan on saying yes but i have my reason. it's like he doesn't even genuinely like me, i feel like he just want to bag me like he's just there for the romantic part and i don't like that because i want him to know me and he's not moving like that. he doesn't ask me questions like what i like or how i feel or stuff he just flirt with me and that's it but he's worst that he likes me and i don't know how to feel with that. he just constantly ask for my pictures and he's very very inconsistent like you can't be interested then inconsistent that you sounds and feels so off and actually i was kind of like thinking of giving him a chance but then again i have no you know i don't really want to and it's not good to be honest.
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ive been strugggling for about 2 years, and some days are good, or just okay, but there are others like today that just drain me. I wanna be healthy, eat better, drink and sleep more, do exercise. But I have no motivation. I should learn how to cook, should learn a new language. I should do things i love, i should be passionate about something. But how? Body dysmorphia. Social anxiety. Overthinking. Lazyness. Binge eating. No motivation. Im so tired. How do you get out of this? i cant do this anymore.
you son of a bitch. HONESTLY, WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO PATHETIC? IM NOT TALKING ABOUT YOUR MOM, YOUR SISTER, YOUR GRANDMA, IM TALKING ABOUT YOU. I HATE YOU. WHY ARE YOU EVEN HERE IF YOUR JUST GOING TO BE NOTHING BUT A DEGENERATE WHO PLAYS VIDEO GAMES AND GETS HIGH OFF OF ROBLOX AND YOUTUBE? YOU CANT EVEN DO YOUR HOMEWORK WITHOUT GETTING SIDETRACKED, AND LOOK, NOW YOUR OWN MOM WANTS TO DISOWN YOU AND SEND YOU TO YOUR DADS PLACE IN CHINA. LOOK AT YOURSELF. YOU'RE THE WORST PERSON IN THE WORLD, LYING TO EVERYONE SO YOU CAN GLORIFY YOURSELF, THEN DOING THINGS LAST MINUTE, AND THEN MAKING YOURSELF THE VICTIM? PATHETIC! WHY WERE YOU EVEN BORN. WHY COULDN'T THE CHILD MOM ABORTED TAKE PLACE INSTEAD OF YOU? MAYBE SHE WOULDN'T BE A LYING PEICE OF SHIT, MAYBE SHE WOULD'NT BE THIS PATHETIC OF A ASSHOLE, LYING, PATHETIC, LAZY, WORTHLESS, STUPID, UNTALENTED, PEICE OF SHIT LIKE YOU LYING AROUND. SERIOUSLY WHY ARE YOU EVEN HERE, JUST GO. LEAVE FOR YOUR MOMS SAKE. I HATE YOU SO MUCH I WISH YOU DIED