All Rants

Well I fucking hate opening up to people, especially my family, I assume that why we're all on here. I'm 16 and my dream job is or was to be in the army, I put in an application and was rejected for an eye problem, got the evidence it didn't effect me and appealed it. I got back my appeal three days ago it was permanently rejected for my mild asthma which I didn't imagine was a problem until this point. I was dead set on the army and now it's gone forever. I feel like a fucking idiot actually putting this out somewhere but I live close to a train track and I considered standing on the tracks till I was hit. I just had to tell someone who wasn't my dad.

I keep getting called manipulative by my mom. She hides it in laughter and jokes. But she does mean it.

Ngl i still think about those old videos with my dad and my step sisters and that feeling i had when watched them. They looked happy, maybe. I just dream that things could’ve turned out differently and maybe at least some of us would have had a real father. I wonder if he’s like this only with us or was he like this with them too. Ik it’s stupid, since i kinda know the answer, but i just can’t help it. I wanna believe they were truly happy in that brief moment… I also feel like I stole someone’s father, even though i myself “didn’t have” him. It burns me sometimes. Thinking about those what ifs…

It would be nice to fully let things go. It would also be nice to see some liars suffer the consequences of their actions. 11

Dear [Recipient Name], I am writing to you because I am currently facing an extreme financial hardship and I am in desperate need of assistance. I am a single mother who has spent years sacrificing to provide a better life for my three daughters, aged 21, 20, and 18. After working hard to move my family out of public housing and into our own home. I have reached a point where I can no longer keep up with my financial obligations. My mortgage has recently increased from $1,236 to $1,720 per month due to an escrow shortage, and my income from Wawa and Amazon Flex is no longer enough to cover the mortgage, utilities, household items, food, and gas. Despite working full-time starting at 4:30 AM every morning and taking on side work, I am falling behind on everything. I am holding on by the skin of my teeth and I am deeply concerned about losing our home. I also have two pets whose veterinary care I can no longer maintain.

TikTok is the only app that can make you lose three hours without you even realizing time existed. You open it for ONE video. One. Suddenly it’s dark outside, your phone is at 2%, and you somehow know the life story of a guy who restores carpets in another country. And the algorithm? Terrifying. You don’t search for anything. You just think about buying new shoes and TikTok’s like: “Here are 47 videos about waterproof hiking sneakers, ranked by emotional impact.” The app knows people better than their own friends do. Your best friend forgets your birthday. TikTok notices you paused half a second too long on a pasta video and goes: “You are now entering Garlic Bread Era.” And every video acts like it contains forbidden knowledge: “Here’s what schools DON’T teach you.” Bro it’s a recipe for iced coffee. Also why does everyone on TikTok talk like they’re revealing classified government secrets? “Okay so nobody’s talking about this…” YES THEY ARE. There are 12 million likes. And trend

I’ve been close to this girl for my entire life. We would hang out everyday and stay at each others houses. Something changed. I blame her for lots of bad things that have happened in the past, and I can’t get over it. There are two main things I will never get over. I went through a very bad breakup and she was a bad influence on me. She convinced me to go on dating apps and seek male validation. I felt horrible after the fact and it took me a long time to recover from it. The second instance was a month long trip we took. We stayed with her family and we ended up arguing several times. She yelled at me in front of her family and hid from me when I tried to talk things out during the first week of the trip. I have never felt more lonely before and cried by myself while she having fun with her family. She never sees a fault within herself or seems and “doesn’t like confrontation. We are no longer friends and I miss who she once was. I don’t recognize her.

hiii. so i'll get right into it. right now i'm kinda dealing with a crush. an intense one, might i add. it's lowkey messing with me but it's fine, we ball. idk why it's consuming me so much. like first of all, it's someone i'm not quite sure can love me back. ig i can call it unrequited love. but at the same time idk they're times when i get vibes from them, you know. like a little signal that they're down but then i see them with another and realize maybe im not the only one. idk but it's really confusing. actually yeah i'm just really confused and crazy in love right now. get me tf out of here.

First before anything the people in this vent are my boy best friend ( pinapple ) my bf ( mango ) my bfs friend ( pickle ) and my best friend ( apple ) . okey mb so pickle told me at a school even that mango only talks to apple because I talk to pinapple. So I guess he's just tryna make me jealous but mango knows pineapple and me and pineapple have been best friends since 3rd grade. And mango doesn't want to look,stand,sit,or talk to me and pickle asked mango if he still likes me cause I said he doesn't and pickle went to him and told him and mango said " she can say what she wants to say what if i am dating another girl".... BITCHH WHAT...

i'm a kid. i can't go to school for longer then an hour. i have no entertainment.. all i am is sexualized or just. hurt. people physically hurt me almost everywhere. nobody plays with me. nobody tries to help me.. my parents took away all my coping mechanisms. i'm so upset.. i just wanna die and be FREE. i know nobody will read this. but i feel so traumatized by everything in my life.. from being molested by a teacher all the way to today.. choking myself daily whenever i'm bored. maybe it's meant to be this way

there is this one dude that i liked after a very long time in my life, i usually dont have feelings for anyone easily because actually i dont know its just that being 21 now and having spent so much of time with myself learning and unlearning, i have come to realise I don't have a permanent interest in anything or anyone. It just stops and idek why that happens. alr alr i will go back to why i am actually pissed. its not only abt that dude, but also my stay at home now. its been exactly 9 days since i came back to my native and staying with my parents, i have been in hostels since class 6 and i recently completed my undergrads. idk why was i born into this family, there is so much happening everywhere. i dont get to breath even though i am literally alone in my room right now, heck idek if i can call this my room cuz apparently the HOUSE ( not HOME ) i have been staying in since i was born, WE DO NOT HAVE THE PROPERTY RIGHTS TO IT, AND EVEN IF WE DO MY MOM DOESNT KNOW WHO REALLY HAS IT

i feel like a total mess, i don't know anymore. i don't know what will i do......

I'm so tired. I'm tired of school. I'm tired of trying so hard and getting nothing out of it. I'm tired of being the one that everyone comes to when they need help

i can’t handle my life anymore. school is so difficult at the moment it’s like they just give you all the work at once and expects you to get it all done. i don’t know what i’m doing. six weeks ago i attempted because the pressure school put on me was genuinely unbearable. i don’t know what i’m doing and i feel miserable. i’ve collected half of what i need to try it again. at this point i don’t see the point in trying if i’m just gonna fail.

Just sad and annoyed and because of my exams there just sooo many bad things going on I can't describe it all.The stress of performing well and getting the specified number makes me just want to throw up.I am to tired for this shit.I just want a break where I don't blame my self or just drown in guilt.I am trying but why is nothing working out ?

You...actually met me halfway. I was both surprised and delighted by it. You showed me around a game you're currently obsessed with. Along with the game being fantastic all around, it was also very peaceful. When we reached the "end game" the final scene gave me such peace. It put me in such a gentle and vulnerable space, that I decided to confide how I felt about you. I was scared, but knew you well enough that if you didn't want to be friends, you would tell me so kindly. But, you said you wanted to be friends too, and I was so happy. We talked for a couple hours the next day too, and I learned more about you, but you didn't just stop there. You actually wanted to know things about me too. So I let you know my favorite games and shows, and you listened...actually listened. Gods, it felt nice to be heard, and feel seen. I know we won't be chatting for the next few days, but I'm so looking forward to when we can talk again. Thank you for providing a safe space for me to be...me

i fucking hate myself, I don’t know if anyone’s ever gonna read this so I’m just gonna write it all out, or as much as I can anyway, I’ve always hated myself, in every way shape and form, I’ve been like this since I was very little about maybe six, I’m addicted to many things, and I don’t know how I can stop it, I’m currently 15, I just tried to text lifeline, they had me waiting 45 minutes, no nothing, so I don’t know what to do should I just cut deep or should I just fucking kill myself because even lifeline doesn’t think I’m important, I don’t know what to do

Last night I dreamt that I was in a romantic date with Olivia Rodrigo. I don’t like her music and I don’t find her attractive at all. What a waste…

If Elisa lam was murdered why can't I wind up that way too? There's no way forward anymore. Expensive this got to care about that. This or that. I didn't get what was wrong that I've done but it feels like I'm supposed to be in the wrong for something clearly I'm not like the cool kids nowadays yet I'm tired of trying to please people, it's all I feel guilty for doing so much of.

I really don't care for BTS, never did why they are everywhere now seems manufactured I feel like I have to care for something like the latest hype trends so I'm not labelled as boring on top of the other labels that I've now accumulated but I'm just so over it. Time for something new and interesting to come into my life. I'd like to take a holiday at some point soon as I get out of this hellhole, problem is everything is too expensive... Kpop included. Sad sad sad times for the western hemisphere. That's what happens when countries go woke they go broke.