All Rants

You're nothing but good to your family and you get bad in return for it. That is me. I'm nothing but good to mh family member and theyre horrible to me. Yes it's to do with their drunken state right now. Merely tried to talk to them I got treated like garbage and threatened and insinuated I took something from them which I DID NOT. but they still act like I did and try to make shitty acting toned threats mumbling gibberish that I couldn't understand. This is why I'm numb to them. I only wish they knew how this felt to be treated and made to felt this way. A huge frustration is come sobering up time they'll think nothing happened claiming no or spotty memory. That's what pisses me off even more. On top of it mom defends him regardless and is passive unless he really really aggravates her. He called her an sob this morning and other crap. A little over 48 hrs ago he wasn't like this. IDK how to deal with this. Relatives want nothing to do with me and I have 0 friends. So. I just dunno

Guys my friends always say I’m the so called opps if I don’t help them fight these random people when they know I don’t like fighting especially Random’s and then they say that’s fake but they provoke them like when this one boy is walking away after they say stuff my “friends” call him black ass or just say something about him like they want to fight him and it goes for all of them, and all of these people are strangers to me by the way and we’re not above college that’s all I can tell you but it’s like they force me to want to fight these people when I don’t want to fight Random’s or let alone anyone like we’re growing up and we’re supposed to be mature what here doing is straight up childish behavior and no one wants to deal with some girls chasing boys just because they provoked him and then we were supposed to be a trio and we joke with eachother a lot but when one does it the other always joins in but when it’s me she doesn’t join in with me she STILL helps her like atp whatevr

im so tired of not being able to lose weight no matter what i do ik starving slows metabolism and supposedly doesnt help you lose weight but i physically cant eat 3 meals a day w snacks in between ill feel so disgusting and i binge so often and all i do is whine about not being skinny when all i fucking do is eat and im so tired of being one of the fattest people i know and no matter what anyone says to me i cant ever feel skinny unless someone asks if ive lost weight and people always say im not fat but im not skinny which is my issue and i just want to wake up one day and be the perfect weight and have the perfect body for the rest of my life because i cant stand the one im in and i hate being this fucking fat so much it sickens me to look in the mirror and i feel nauseous when i see my body in the shower and the only way ill ever feel skinny is when im close to passing out from lack of food or if i can see my hip bones

So tired of laughing when nothing is funny, so tired of smiling when nothing to smile about I am so tired of being tired. I would never understand the human race living to work working to survive. All I wanna do is be happy and live in my life but instead, I have to wake up every day and go to a 9-5 to pay my bills to eat when all this shit should be free. Life right everyone continue to pay and talk it out.

Im so tired. Physically. Mentally. Im so over all of this. My life has summed since 2013 and even before. 2013 was the worst year of my life. My sister's dad left our family. We became homeless and moved in with an old family friend. Early one morning while I was waiting to go to the doctor for surgery I was molested by the man we were staying with. Then a few weeks later we moved into a house and it burned down. Since then life has sacked. I was the oldest child so I basically sacrificed my childhood and teen years to help raise my siblings. I was diagnosed with Anxiety, depression and CPTSD. My whole childhood we lived in filth. I never learned how to take care of myself properly so in school I was bullied for smelling bad. Once I graduated I worked and paid most of the bills. I struggled. I begged God for reprieve. I begged him to hear me, to speak to me but I heard nothing. I was utterly alone. Even now. Im 26. We had another fire in December of 2025. Im living in a semi converted

i got courage this month to step out of my comfort zone by attending a course. get to learn something and get out of my house, not bad right? yeah.. except ive encountered a bully, yet again. am i just doomed to run into assholes no matter where i go? to be reminded why i exactly withdraw from people? (im a very sensitive person and the bullies can somehow sense this i swear. Haha.) how can i learn to trust people again when they prove my fear time and time again?

I've been doing 🟢 for a while to stop feeling in pain when I'm upset but now I can't stop doing it even when I'm feeling fine and I want to stop but when I do the pain gets worse until I take again. I don't know what to do, I don't wanna end up like my dad and I do wanna stop

I was best friends with a boy and a girl all throughout middle school. This girl is absolutely insane and she caused problems from the start, mainly just getting mad at our other best friend and me for the smallest things. The next school year she all of the sudden had a crush on me after we didn't talk for all of summer break because of a fight the 3 of us got into. She became really weirdly obsessed, she would be really touchy all the time, she would get mad when I mentioned my other friends who are girls. so 9 months later I ended it with her. A few weeks later I became really close friends with a girl on Discord and we started talking every day. The school then started and my this girl acted so weird at school everyday round me. After a few months I stopped being friends with the guy too. Then in February things were finally somewhat normal but the girl admitted she was the Discord friend and she had been catfishing me for 6 months. Now I have no close friends and I'm just so alone

i wish i wasnt fucking broke or better yet i wish medical care didnt cost fucking money in this country because something just isnt right but i cant say or prove that without a diagnosis or else i'll have some loon in my ear screaming at me to stop larping disability or whatever. i wish it wasnt intermittent, too. it comes and goes and that makes me feel worse because its like i'm faking because isnt something supposed to be happening 24/7....??? not just every few weeks?? even if being at my worst makes it hard to live, i'd prefer always being at my worst than more often being at my best because at least then i can say i deserve to use a cane and its not just somatic. there are times where i can stand for hours and other times where i cant even wait in line at taco bell and i wish it'd just be consistent. but to be honest i'd probably be misdiagnosed anyways. poc, afab, queer, mentally ill, trans... i'm just fucked forever, i guess.

Life has just been too much for me including my family and love life and I care so much about the people I’m around but I hate myself so deeply inside. I’m 24 I will say that and I feel ashamed to still have self hate and self harming again. Even though I didn’t cut I did use something to cause scratches that left some scaring. I haven’t self harmed myself for over like 4-6 years and I it did help me feel better during crying. Life is just hard and I fear god hates me shit I hate me.

Weponising incompetence for basic house hold chores and basic life skills. Cause " my grandparents did everytging for me till i was 20. So why should i know everything"

Honestly I just wanna kill myself and I already wrote the letters but I just can't choose a date but I think I'm gonna do it either this Sunday or next Sunday

I was talking with my mom about my mental health. I mentioned that I looked into paranoid schizophrenia or schizotypal in general and realized how many of the symptoms I connected to myself. To which she immediately shut me down by saying that wasn’t possible and I don’t. was so confused on why she would even say that. I wasn’t saying that I knew I had it but I was just suggesting it was a possibility. I do hear things, sometimes see things, and definitely overthink about every noise at night. I feel like I’m going crazy. I’m just angered a bit because I don’t understand why I was denied before I could completely get out my sentence.

idk what to do anymore. i have a long distance bf of over a year and for the past few days he’s been a bit dry, slow reps. it’s making me so frustrated. i just want to talk and at least know whether he’s busy or not. i get so annoyed and want to cry. why can’t the same effort i give in be given back? yet all the other times he has been completely loving and caring to me just remind me that sometimes i maybe overthink too much and that distant times like this are normal or maybe i’ve gotten it all wrong. i wish i knew what to do. i love him so much.

Well I fucking hate opening up to people, especially my family, I assume that why we're all on here. I'm 16 and my dream job is or was to be in the army, I put in an application and was rejected for an eye problem, got the evidence it didn't effect me and appealed it. I got back my appeal three days ago it was permanently rejected for my mild asthma which I didn't imagine was a problem until this point. I was dead set on the army and now it's gone forever. I feel like a fucking idiot actually putting this out somewhere but I live close to a train track and I considered standing on the tracks till I was hit. I just had to tell someone who wasn't my dad.

I keep getting called manipulative by my mom. She hides it in laughter and jokes. But she does mean it.

Ngl i still think about those old videos with my dad and my step sisters and that feeling i had when watched them. They looked happy, maybe. I just dream that things could’ve turned out differently and maybe at least some of us would have had a real father. I wonder if he’s like this only with us or was he like this with them too. Ik it’s stupid, since i kinda know the answer, but i just can’t help it. I wanna believe they were truly happy in that brief moment… I also feel like I stole someone’s father, even though i myself “didn’t have” him. It burns me sometimes. Thinking about those what ifs…

It would be nice to fully let things go. It would also be nice to see some liars suffer the consequences of their actions. 11

Dear [Recipient Name], I am writing to you because I am currently facing an extreme financial hardship and I am in desperate need of assistance. I am a single mother who has spent years sacrificing to provide a better life for my three daughters, aged 21, 20, and 18. After working hard to move my family out of public housing and into our own home. I have reached a point where I can no longer keep up with my financial obligations. My mortgage has recently increased from $1,236 to $1,720 per month due to an escrow shortage, and my income from Wawa and Amazon Flex is no longer enough to cover the mortgage, utilities, household items, food, and gas. Despite working full-time starting at 4:30 AM every morning and taking on side work, I am falling behind on everything. I am holding on by the skin of my teeth and I am deeply concerned about losing our home. I also have two pets whose veterinary care I can no longer maintain.

TikTok is the only app that can make you lose three hours without you even realizing time existed. You open it for ONE video. One. Suddenly it’s dark outside, your phone is at 2%, and you somehow know the life story of a guy who restores carpets in another country. And the algorithm? Terrifying. You don’t search for anything. You just think about buying new shoes and TikTok’s like: “Here are 47 videos about waterproof hiking sneakers, ranked by emotional impact.” The app knows people better than their own friends do. Your best friend forgets your birthday. TikTok notices you paused half a second too long on a pasta video and goes: “You are now entering Garlic Bread Era.” And every video acts like it contains forbidden knowledge: “Here’s what schools DON’T teach you.” Bro it’s a recipe for iced coffee. Also why does everyone on TikTok talk like they’re revealing classified government secrets? “Okay so nobody’s talking about this…” YES THEY ARE. There are 12 million likes. And trend