Don't block me jsut because i didn't instantly respond to your trauma dump.
oh, i'm sorry i have work and school? i should of quit just for you.
fuck you. i listened to you and i was as understanding as i could be, i even made changes to my life so i could be there for you, but i'm busy one day and you block me.
I hope you never find someone who listens or cares about you again if you're just gonna use us to dump your problems on 24/7 and then leave when we don't sacrifice everything in our lives for it.
it’s been a month and 8 days since me and my ex broke up.
yeah, it hasn’t been long but to me? it feels like centuries. i’m still stalking his playstation account since it’s the only thing i have access to (i blocked him everywhere), it doesn’t feel enough.
everything feels so unfair.
the stupid trend on tiktok made me realise that the door back to that part of my life is closed with no door handle. it’s really over. every bridge got burned when i left him and it feels surreal thinking that.. but genuinely it’s what i had to do.
was i perfect? definitely not. but the casual disrespect and genuine disregard for me toward the end was actually awful. that’s the only thing i can look back at and make me not go back on what i’ve done.
i miss everything, a piece of my heart feels like it’s missing and i feel empty more often then not.
being with someone for almost 5 years even with (small) breaks since we were well literally children (17) feels awful.
. In 2021 my brother had a life altering stroke at 13 years old, he was just a baby. I was 9 and my sister was 6. After the stroke he lost all ability to use his right side of his body, and can’t walk or talk or use his right hand and it kills me to watch him everyday. He’s 19 now, he can’t read, graduate Highschool, get a job, or be my big brother anymore. I have to babysit him and take care of his needs. The part of his brain that helps him rationalize and control his emotions was greatly affected too, he now has bpd and abuses tf out of my whole entire family. I sometimes wish he died in that bed, or in the ambulance, or the icu. At least he wouldn’t have to feel like this, at least we wouldn’t have to feel like this. I don’t want to selfish but it hurts me so much. He put his hands on me recently and it scared the shit out of me. Everything keeps me awake at night 😢 I wish that it could be normal for everyone again but it can’t. I want to kill myself
Kids, be careful who you bully in school. A boy bullied me, now I am his daughter's aunt. Turned out his brother is the opposite of him and is also very attractive.
This is going to sound harsh but if you can't bear to see skinny people, maybe stay inside.
Skinny people exist and don't deserve to be shut away. You don't know why they are the size they are. Maybe they are ill, doesn't mean they deserve nasty comments. Maybe they're not ill but have been struggling to manage a bowel condition. Maybe they can't afford to eat every day. Maybe they are struggling mentally and need support, not "ew".
And you can't expect them to cover up either. Usually skinny people cover up a lot anyway because they don't have much fat to keep them warm so are usually cold. That's probably why people find it so shocking, they just don't see what's covered up with 6 layers of clothing. But this has been a very hot summer, even most skinny people would be too hot if they covered up.
You can ban smaller models, you can censor smaller artists, but you can't force smaller people to stay home like it's 2020. A lot of them don't even have homes.
Why do I need to curl my eyelashes 2 feel pretty
Why do I need to have paler skin to be prettier
School is more abt grades then learning
Why do I feel like all my friends secretly hate me
Why do I feel like my family despises me
Why do I feel so alone around such a loving community
Why does my future seem so unknown
Why does everyone seem so confident
Why does everyone not have divorced broken parents
Why does everyone not hv a sister that hates them so much
Why does everyone not hv to bear the hidden secrets and burdens I shouldn’t hv to know until im older
Why do I feel so lost in my identity I don’t even know the true version of myself
i hate myself because genuinely wtf is wrong w me. im a horrible person. i do self harm, i lie to other people watch them believe it and just so i can get a laugh out of it, i like to pull pranks and some go too far which make my friends pissed, and i laugh at other people's pain thats so fucking messed up idk wtf is wrong w me. and i can't stop lying and laughing because its like automatic or something and i hate myself so fucking much for it. and it hurts the most because my family and friends have done nothing but love me and i still do these stupid things to them. i just wanna die
This is probably stupid asf but I need to get it off my chest so bad, I can’t stop jacking off, I hate it, every time I do it I just wanna stop, but I never do, and I always say I will but I never do, and I don’t even know if it’s like an addiction or something because I’ve never even tried, and I don’t wanna try, but I also want this to stop so badly
Man, I wish I had the nerve to kill myself. I hate waking up every morning. I hate everything in life. I hate how I'm always in pain. I hate how my mind never let's me be. I hate the stares I get, I hate eyes, I hate voices I hate faces, I hate smiles, I hate tears, I hate everyone. I make too many fucking plans. After my brother tried to kill himself I feel like my death would be the same. "He chose horrible timing" "he so stupid" "he just acts on impulse". How could someone be judged even after death? I just want to die. I hate everything and everyone hates me. I wish I could just drown and excruciating death. I wish I had 1 good thing in my life worth remembering so when I go I could have 1 thing to think about. Just 1 reason besides from the stress of others hating me more. I wish I was never born because im too pussy to kill myself. I hate that the first thought in my head EVERY DAY is that I want to die. That my eyes never opened. I hate myself and so does everyone else.
Waiting for a therapist after I was raised in an abusive life. We starved and had to go out and SCAVENGE for food, the electricity bills were unpaid, be home alone for days, maybe even weeks at a time. You could be strangled, choked on the floor, blood pouring out of your FINGERS. Then, you go to school, the only place that provides for food and yet you still get bullied, beaten. Alone, isolated from everyone. No friends, nobody to call family. You have schizophrenic and bipolar tendencies that also run very heavily in your bloodline. You hallucinate for months at a time. You lose yourself entirely, staring at mirrors for days, weeks, who knows? Everything seems fake. Everything seems gone, like you've already died. Whenever you beg others for help, from the screaming in your ears, help from the shadows watching you, they all say you're on drugs when your not? Then when cps gets involved you move houses 4 times, new families, new cities. All you want is to die. The anxiety and fear.
I'm actually going to fail school. I'm in my final year/about to graduate and my mental health is so bad I can hardly do anything and there's just so much work to do, I keep crying at school or dissociating in class I have no privacy at home to be upset or let anything out all I do is scroll or stare at the wall or cvt down to my fat because that's the only thing I have right now to make me feel even slightly ok. Everything is the same nothing changes, I can't rely on my only friend right now either because they need comfort/help but I always mess up somehow when I try to help them and then they get upset/I make EVERYTHING worse I hate being useless I'm going to be alone again and a failure I'm too stupid and autistic to do anything and my body makes me sick it's all the same every day nothing changes but the number of lines and the amount of pressure and I just can't handle it I hate everything.
If my ex overdosed and someone bombed my concert and ended the lives of innocent fans as young as 8 and on top of that I had a busy career and was in the spotlight all the time while dealing with anxiety, I wouldn't have much of an appetite either.
"What message does that send to little girls?" That people come in all shapes and sizes? That even rich and famous people go through stuff and have health issues? That celebrities are actual human beings?
I grew up in the 2000s and yes it was bad. But trust me it's not like that again now. I know because my body shape fits the 2000s standards. It doesn't fit today's and people don't hesitate to let me know.
Also shaming people for being smaller in a time where many people can't afford food every day and there are food shortages is something. I know that wouldn't affect the rich, but it will definitely affect some people who are reading the nasty comments.
I feel really sad right now (it's 3am help) but I feel like I can't tell anyone im not feeling okay. I woke up at 1am and I can't go to sleep. I just bawled my eyes out a couple minutes ago.. Idk what to do. I don't wanna cry again but I might. I just might. -LG
Why should I even live? My mother always gets mad at me and calls me blind or deaf. I really wish I was, but that would make me feel worthless. Someone got mad at the same way my mom did, it's my best friend. I wouldn't blame them, I never told them about my problems. But, I wish I did. Maybe I would have had someone to care for me. My dad doesn't even bother helping. My mother would always hit and say curse words at me. She told me I ate chicken wrong, and the conversation became to her not wanting to eat with me. She said she was embarrassed to eat with me. I hate chicken with all my heart now. I just want to die. I hate everything. I vented to my other best friend about my family problems, but they just said theirs is bad too. I'm sorry, I don't have a big ego or being arrogant. But personally I think that you shouldn't make it about you when someone rants. I'm sorry. I just want to die so badly because my family won't even care for me anyway. I'm going to km at September 10. Ykyk