All Rants

was given a job opportunity working in a much more professional setting than i had been (minimum wage, barista, etc.) and i don't think this is for me. It's daunting and i feel stupid just being in this office. My heart isn't in it, but i know i can get bad anxiety and i only just started, so it may be too soon since im still in training. But i don't know what to do. i've told so many people in my life how exciting this is, and the job was kinda just handed to me which was amazing. But i'm thinking about quitting and i stress every single day at my new desk about what to do.

Honestly, i feel like my mental health is slowly getting worse. I can’t say that i’m depressed because i’m not diagnosed. I feel like everything that happens in my life just sort of goes on top of my mental health and makes me forget about it, then when i’m alone at night it all just comes back to me.

Everything in my life is just happening at the same time. First of all a girl likes me which should be good news but i’m getting freaked out since i only saw her as a friend theni was on a call with another friend and we were on insta and i told her “im gonna out this as my note on messenger” and she looks at my note and says “hey! ___ has that as her note on insta too!” And i go check insta and i don’t see it, i thiuht it was just a bug but on my friend’s screen it said “shared with close friends” which i found weird because i’ve been on her close friends for a long time so i don’t know why she would randomly remove me. I tried gaslighting myself into thinking “maybe it was just a mistake” but it’s starting to get to me. Yesterday i had a breakdown and started crying just because i saw my old classmates story about her and her new school life. And there’s so much drama happening in my class i just can’t take it anymore, i just want peace

Hi. I need to take this off my chest. My mother is diagosted with stage 4 cancer, and im only 23. Im scared of losing her so much. Also, day before 2 year anniversary my partner left me. He said i need to change etc, we stayed in touch but i was so confused cause i have a LOT on my plate rn and he knows it all, but i don’t relaly think he wants me back. Finally, today when he called me ive told him the bad results we got from the doctor, and that i think deep inside his soul he knows its not all my fault for break up, and that he still loves me, otherwise i would be blocked and he would’t call me to tell me he loves me or stayed in touch, even discussed possible reunion. Then he said he really does think it, and blocked me everywhere. I begged him not to, at least so i can have a friend in him, even tough i ger re-treumatized every single time we speak, emotions get back and i get rlly hurt, i still love him. Am i gonna die alone? Im scared of all of this….. i dont know what to do,help

I hate going to work starting this month. Every day i cried, and hate the idea going there. I have been working overtimes for 4 months including public holidays and have only 1 day to rest every week. Now, my body has reached the limit and my brains start feel sharp and hurt, dealing to sort of the problems alone with no support. I have done beyond my position level. Why they make me suffer? Why they attacking me like i need to be responsible for all shittt that happened? All bosses doesn't care they just want the result. I'm tired. I want to resign if can but I'm broke.

I love you soo much as a friend. But i want to you and only you when we are talking. I feel suffocated and less prioritized when your boyfriends name always comes in between each and every convo we have. I get that you both had a really bad past. But i only ask for you and only your time when we talk. Am i asking for too much? Why am i always the one who shows more care? I feel hurt. Hope you value me as much as i do.

My dysmorphia and mental health has been getting worse. I spent so many of my teen years in therapy, my mind was clouded by paranoia, anxiety, self posting and suicidal ideation that I didn't get to BE a teen. I'm technically not a teen anymore but I feel like I haven't grown. I should feel like it- I'm in college, I made a new friend, but for some reason the ideation has come back. I don't know how much longer I can love like this. Feeling like I don't matter. That the world is better off without me. Who would ever want me? It's exhausting. I stay up late at night crying as soon as my friends go to sleep and I can't speak with them, I'm scared of mentioning it to my parents because they'd rather never go to therapy again (they're conservative and very private). I wasn't to figure it out on my own, but I feel like I don't have the energy to take care of myself. That it would be a waste of time and money. I can't live like this..

I want to be happy but I can't. Why bad things always happen to me?Should i die?

Tell me why every fucking thing is hated on these days. I'll be scrolling through TikTok and get jumped by this ANNOYING ASS GENRE OF VIDEO. "The WORST people you could encounter" AND ITS LITERALLY JUST A STYLE LIKE SCENE?? And those videos sexualizing people who dress goth. JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE WEARS A BLACK DRESS DOESNT MEAN THEY FIT INTO YOUR GROSS "GOTH MOMMY" STEREOTYPE. Can styles just be respected and seen as STYLES, rather than something to hate on or sexualize? If you hate on something as simple as a STYLE, you're an immature shithead.

I’m sorry to all my friends who had to deal with me talk about my ex girlfriend for so long. She left in July, and I can’t seem to get her out of my head. I feel like a nuisance and cant shut up about it, I really really miss her and I feel like going no contact was a mistake, but if I reach out all my friends will hate me and itll all be for nothing.

PARENTS. TEACH! YOUR! FUCKING! CHILDREN! When I was in kindergarten, I had a mild S/A experience because parents didn't teach their fucking child that no means no. So, when I was in kindergarten, this other kid, let's call him J, always would do creepy shit to me, like pulling my shirt down and shit. Eventually, at lunch, he decides to pull my face towards him and KISS ME DIRECTLY ON THE LIPS. And guess what I didn't do? TELL THE FUCKING TEACHER! Because I thought it was "tattling". And when I told my parents later, I'm pretty sure they just brushed it off. AND I BROUGHT THE GUMMY WOR-Anyways, that experience didn't really leave lasting scars on me, I truly couldn't care less now. But what sickens me now is that J could be a perverted fuck now and be doing lots of other worse gross shit, just because his parents didn't teach him in Pre-K that no means no. I said it once, and I'll say it again. TEACH YOUR FUCKING CHILDREN. Boundaries. Are. Important.

i have an ant infestation in my room again this happens so often i'm crying im just so frustrated with everything i can't even rest in my own room they're everywhere i spent money on ant bait too and it's not even fucking working crying

Hot take. People should be allowed to joke about S/H, S/A, suicidal thoughts, and other serious topics, but only if they've been through it themselves. Because sometimes, joking is how people cope with going through that kind of stuff. Unless they're purposely trying to make someone feel uncomfortable, joking about OTHER people's experiences, or it's seriously impacting their mental health, they should have the right to joke about what happened to them. But people who haven't been through those things joking about it? Hell no. They don't know what it's like, so they don't have the right to joke about it.

I get told you get too worked up. They don't get what I go through daily.

You know what pisses me off? That S/H is treated like a game. I've just recently learned the different terms for layers skin you can hit whilst cutting. Cat scratches, Styro, baked beans, laffy taffy, and bedrock. I mean, I guess there's nothing wrong with having terms so you can talk about it online. But TELL ME WHY I see comments on TikTok like, "I've only hit cat scratches i feel like such a poser :(" LIKE NO??? S/H is a SERIOUS issue and you should NOT be treating it like a fandom/competition. There is no posing/larping S/H. It is a SERIOUS issue.

I feel so behind in life in almost every aspect I can't think of besides material things. Ive been homeschooled since 3rd grade but I'm so behind academically it's sicking and now that I'm transferring to a public school for my last year it's really been exposing that idk I can't catch up and I don't want to be shunned. I have no friends. None not online irl or any of my family. While I like be alone I hate being lonely. I hate seeing others my age talk about any type or relationship because I've never experienced anything like it I've never had a falling out because I've never had a friend.. I feel like I'm stuck like this I've done nothing anyone my age has and it sucks I've missed out on so much stuff and because of this all I just want to give up. Maybe I already have though? I'm really dont know anymore.

This whole week has sucked and I am just done trying.

When I was a baby my mom took me to church and this lady was cooing over me then put her hand under my blanket then took it out and I started crying loudly making everyone look at us and the lady accused my mom of hurting me, when the lady left a big cut on my stomach and my mom never saw the lady again. AND I BROUGHT THE BOWL + SOUR GUMMY WORMS.

i dont know what venting will do me. after thorough reflection, ive messed up with the girl i love deeply, the one closest to my soul. and even if we said wed get through everything, i broke her trust real bad (not cheating, id never do that). but you know its just this deep empty feeling cause were still calling together and all but like it feels like its all gonna go to shit and the fact that its all my fault really sits with me. i really love this girl and i understand the weight of what i did. what sucks even more is id really get it if she finally left me. anyways, living in this uncertainty of being with her really scares me and gives me this feeling i never think id feel ever.

Girls… sometimes you feel like shit not because you’re a loser but because your hormones dropped. It’s the worst and it sucks but it kinda helps knowing that’s it’s not always your fault. Sometimes you just naturally have a shitty day so be kind to yourself!