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I'm in 8th grade this year and everything just feels like too much. I was homeschooled for the past two years and my parents recently decided to put my back into the school i was going to before (it's a small k-12 school). All the same classmates i had before will be there though so that is kinda comforting, i guess. Despite being familiar with this school, i still know that is will be super overwhelmed and when i'm overwhelmed i shut down and that's embarrassing. I also only have one friend at that school and i love them, but they just cause me so much stress sometimes. Ik that this probably didn't really make sense, sorry.

Fuck you Long Duc Bui 🖕🖕🖕🖕 You stupid idiot

I don't think I have a future. I'm not physically ill enough to get accommodations but i'm too physically ill to do much. Just a few hours at the mall is enough to wipe me out for days. I'm mentally ill but not mentally ill enough for... I don't even know. I don't know what I want. To be mentally ill enough that they put me in a hospital and help me? To be mentally ill enough I'm willing to take my entire pill bottle? I don't really know. I've failed the past 2 years of HS and have only continued progressing for god-knows-what-reason. I'm not well enough to go to college. i have no motivation to even try for a job. the only way ill ever be able to leave my parents house is if i have someone my age or older who im close to who can support me financially and take care of me, but i dont have anyone. i may as well just die. theres no point in trying. but im scared of how bad itll hurt. im really scared.

24 years old, and i feel like i have no friends. my gf broke up with me on the 1st of the month, 7 days ago and i feel like i haven't done anything with anyone for the last 7 days. i have just gone to work came home eat sleep repeat. on my days off ive just been watching youtube and scrolling not really much else, in the last 7 days i have had 2 people message me and that was just about my breakup and how im doing, just acouple check ups because in about 2 months time i was gonna move in with her and now i cant and i feel like i have hit rock bottom. nobody wants anything to do with me nobody asked me to do anything with them, i made plans to watch a movie with a friend for yesterday and just got ghosted, i dont know if i wanna carry on because i feel like this isnt gonna get any better, my life acouple months ago was great and now i feel like i have nothing at all

my mom recently approached me and said that if i was ever going through anything i could talk to her about it. she asked me if i had ever had suicidal thoughts or anything like and i said no. this was a lie and now im just mad at myself. i was given the chance to seek help from somebody and i didnt take it. i dont really have thoughts like that anymore fortunately but i just feel so shitty about that and needed to get it off my chest. Thank you for listening

hey im so sorry this isnt a rant but each time i open a new tab after having my computer shut down, this app has no clue who i am/ my previous posts. again really sorry, but the internet has been so unhelpful i thought i might as well ask on here. i'll keep my laptop open on this page lol so it doesnt disappear and erase all my history. please let me know if you know what im doing wrong! thanks so much, have a really good day <3

Fuck AI and RAM companies for driving up prices everywhere. Fuck corporations in general. Everything is getting enshittified and I'm sick of everything getting more expensive. We need to abolish the entire fucking economy. Burn all of the money in the world to ashes and go full fucking anarcho-communism. No more corpos, no more politicians, no more rich people, period.

There are some days were i just feel like i can't eat meals. I'll eat little things here and there but never full meals and defiantly never enough to be considered to be enough food for someone my age. Idk if it would be considered an eating disorder and i don't want to assume anything.

He was my best friend for over half a year and I had a crush on him until I realised that he was just a douchebag who saw me as the last side chick he'd ever pick. Like the second he got a girlfriend, he didn't hangout as much anymore, at some point even no more anymore. But everytime he would fuck up in yet another one of his relationships, he came whining to me and I just tried to help him like the bitch I was. Months later and realisation got me to meet my current boyfriend and I'm just SO happy to have met him. We've been together for almost 6 months now and he's just perfect for me. He was even the once to help me with listening to my venting about my ex best friend and with helping me block him. It helped me but I'm still getting reminded by him. Not as bad as before but I'm still thinking about him. Definitely not having a crush on him anymore but I just want him to feel as much pain as I did. Actually even more, or at least an apology. But I guess I just should forget about him

i hate myself so much for relapsing.

i can't do school any longer, i'm convinced im an actual failure just because i can't schedule myself properly

I hate myself. Im suffering from ed for 6 yesrs now. I hate every little thing about me and i have no one to talk to about it. My partner says that when im trying to talk about it eith them it makes them relaps and they feel bad. And im just piling it in myself, everytime i feel bad about me or anything really im just putting on a smile and acting as everyting is okay. We are supposed to go on holidays in few days, but i dont wang to go anymore. I hate thr idea of photos, of people seeing me, of puttinv on a swim suit. I hate it all. I cant even not go, I already paid for it. And worst part is that mg partner is already thinking where ti go next. Im so tired of everything. I dont reallh have anyone to talk to about it. I bearly have any friends bearly talk to people and im self concious all the time. I wish i could be rich and have money to geg doctors to fix me up

I’m so disgustingly sensitive. Wanting to relapse over the smallest things.

Huh so maybe bullies do break down with regret eventually. I hope that happens to the people who bullied me at school. I look forward to watching their livestreams. I'd save them somehow and watch them over and over, every day, with a huge smile on my face that they finally felt a fraction of what they've made me feel.

Im having feelings for my boss but I dont know if this is real or if its because im so unhappy in my current situation. My current relationship has been rocky and my partner has not been attracted to me in years. There is no touching or kissing and I have over sacrificed myself for them. I dont know if these feelings for my boss are because I think they might be attracted to me and the idea that anyone is attracted to me makes me feel amazing.

what is wrong with you are you unable to type is it a vision issue if so just say that or at least correct what you are sending before sending it what is the constant attitude why won't you be healthy and stop the activities that have now cause you a chronic illness stop canceling your appointments i dont know what you're talking about i dont know hat you did to the roast but now that is your activity not mine i had a plan idk what you did but i can't even ask becuse you refuse to look at your phone you refuse to take off your headphones nad if you do it's with huffing and puffing and eye rolling wtf

was given a job opportunity working in a much more professional setting than i had been (minimum wage, barista, etc.) and i don't think this is for me. It's daunting and i feel stupid just being in this office. My heart isn't in it, but i know i can get bad anxiety and i only just started, so it may be too soon since im still in training. But i don't know what to do. i've told so many people in my life how exciting this is, and the job was kinda just handed to me which was amazing. But i'm thinking about quitting and i stress every single day at my new desk about what to do.

Honestly, i feel like my mental health is slowly getting worse. I can’t say that i’m depressed because i’m not diagnosed. I feel like everything that happens in my life just sort of goes on top of my mental health and makes me forget about it, then when i’m alone at night it all just comes back to me.

Everything in my life is just happening at the same time. First of all a girl likes me which should be good news but i’m getting freaked out since i only saw her as a friend theni was on a call with another friend and we were on insta and i told her “im gonna out this as my note on messenger” and she looks at my note and says “hey! ___ has that as her note on insta too!” And i go check insta and i don’t see it, i thiuht it was just a bug but on my friend’s screen it said “shared with close friends” which i found weird because i’ve been on her close friends for a long time so i don’t know why she would randomly remove me. I tried gaslighting myself into thinking “maybe it was just a mistake” but it’s starting to get to me. Yesterday i had a breakdown and started crying just because i saw my old classmates story about her and her new school life. And there’s so much drama happening in my class i just can’t take it anymore, i just want peace

Hi. I need to take this off my chest. My mother is diagosted with stage 4 cancer, and im only 23. Im scared of losing her so much. Also, day before 2 year anniversary my partner left me. He said i need to change etc, we stayed in touch but i was so confused cause i have a LOT on my plate rn and he knows it all, but i don’t relaly think he wants me back. Finally, today when he called me ive told him the bad results we got from the doctor, and that i think deep inside his soul he knows its not all my fault for break up, and that he still loves me, otherwise i would be blocked and he would’t call me to tell me he loves me or stayed in touch, even discussed possible reunion. Then he said he really does think it, and blocked me everywhere. I begged him not to, at least so i can have a friend in him, even tough i ger re-treumatized every single time we speak, emotions get back and i get rlly hurt, i still love him. Am i gonna die alone? Im scared of all of this….. i dont know what to do,help