All Rants

why does it feel like everyone secretly hates me?? i didn’t ask for any of this. i’m just trying to start my life over and i can’t catch a break. i seem to just irritate everyone no matter what i do. i try to be so kind and understanding and not show how i’m feeling. i try to just fake smile and keep it pushing. i can’t keep living like this. i just wanted a fresh start. it’s always going back to feeling alone. i have nowhere to go, nobody to cry to.

Uhm. I won't say my age but im in middle school. I still..play with my poop. I have no diagnoses at this time. I am disgusted by myself btw. Is this like signs of any mental issues in me??? This is hard to admit. I've been like this for a while now.

OK, so this might not be a lot, but it’s been bugging me. So I was in line at Dairy Queen and it’s like this mob of people and there’s just one guy in the middle of the counter on a kiosk taking orders. And I don’t know what side the line starts from and there’s two doors so I start from one of the doors and just kind of like find a line and then I get up to the counter and I start ordering and the guy behind me goes. “ it’s OK. She just cut in front of the whole line. It starts over there.” And I go.”oh, I’m sorry. I thought it started from over there.” And I walked to the end of the other line even though I was there before the stupid guy and I end up just waiting double the time because this guy is an asshole and could’ve just told me I was in the wrong spot. Like OK boomer you’re a dick. Thanks for ruining my day. Like he could’ve just told me it started at the other end of the room instead of just yelling at a fucking teenager when he looks 50 and looks like he’s a child beater

If I tell people about my problems I constantly think that they will use it against me, like in school what if they use it as a rumour and it spreads across the whole school?these are friends I’ve known for 7-9 years yet I still have a thought in the back of mind saying what if they betray you? It’s why I don’t really tell anyone about my health and stuff and the times I did I instantly regretted what I said and would keep on repeating that day in my head and get in a panicked frenzy. I don’t think I even fully trust my friends at all. Yet they’ve been the best and kindest people I’ve known. I really think it wouldve been best if they hadn’t met me.

i'm so done, im about to go back to high school in a week. i have zero friends (but i dont think i need them because people are stupid and a waste of time), closed comodones everywhere and i hate my parents and my little sister sooooo much and im thinking of ending it all but thats pretty pointless bc idk what happens after life anymore

It frustrates me because my neighbors are 1 sided and hypocritical. Like again someone brought a baby to visit. Ok there's still some thumping just not as much. But it pisses me off they'll be quiet for the effing baby BUT NOT THE PEOPLE WHO LIVE BELOW THEM MAKE THAT MAKE SENSE. No I don't freak out too easy, FAM. You don't get jumped out the effin bed at 3 4 5 plus in the morning from people who don't gaf how they are or act when it comes to being mindful of their neighbors. Nobody wants thumpety ass stomping in the middle of the night up to daylight and a little past that sometimes. Why do I have to go through this stuff? They started the whole mess to begin all I want is to live in peace with people but people like them make it impossible. Their isn't like people more like jungle monkeys from tree to tree. Zoo animals have more maturity than them though. Hell even jungle animals probably do too. I get fed up of the bull they put me through. Fuckin infantile karen's.

I feel bad 90% of the day. I'm depressed, anxious or sick. I think it's because I've finally realised that I actually don't belong anywhere. I'm an outsider to my family and friends, just a simple background character. I'm the overbearing, woke, talkative, happy one who always has something to say and will talk to anyone who I pass. My mum thinks I'm a fantastic extrovert and that I spend all my time in my room because I'm lazy. But that's not really true. It's like my brain turns on a switch, happy and chatty with others but inside I hate myself. Everyday I find myself thinking, nobody's listening to me. I can distract myself with doom scrolling but that only lasts a little while before I remember how alone I am. I talk to myself more than any one else. Theres always someone more important than me. I keep waiting for something to happen or something to finally fix itself but I'm not sure this feeling will ever end. But thanks to the one person who comments on my posts a lot

I can't do this anymore. It's so hard to explain it even in this way it's so hard. Plus I know no advice will help me. I'm so sick of this. I had it wrong for years! I was wrong. And they were right and I am so naive! Why am I so naive! What's wrong with me? It was her fault all along. All those arguments between the two of them. All those time I thought I would die of anger and hurt! It was all her fault. I can't stand this. I've been protecting her but she's hurting everyone! I'm done! She needs to go! Maybe I'll regret it, since I'm a very... Not confrontational person but what the hell!? How long will I let this last. No. Now I find out she's done something I can't forgive! Never! This ends here! I have to do something!I have to fix this. Some say it's not my place to fix everything but what the hell am I supposed to do. It affects me and them. Let this happen? No. Maybe I'm too naive ,too stupid.

Something first. Fam stop being a joy killer. They're so high strung today you can't go around then without being stressed out like theyve had ten cups of coffee. Geez. Also I can't go out the door without people coming or going by to take the dog to do their business. I can't help that there aggressive to people they don't know. My fam don't get what I go through it's fairly frustrating. There's so many of one neighbor because like 7 different people live there it's like people coming and going quite a lot. I mean I'm grateful I get to do the stuff it just can be frustrating especially when doggo won't behave. Fam is a trip today like they've had too many red bulls or something idk sigh

Hello, I'm a hopeless romantic. Last August, I started talking to a guy, and we dated for about two months. Due to life circumstances, the distance, and limited time, he started to get worried, and we agreed to stop seeing each other. I thought it was just a casual fling, but I realized that I had fallen for him and I still love him. He’s the first man I’ve ever had feelings for. I’d say he’s my first love. I still miss him and think about him all the time, even though we’ll never see each other again. Sometimes, I wonder if he’s doing okay, what his life is like, and if he misses me even a little… or if he’s probably forgotten me… Love still hurts, but that pain is the only thing that reminds me of that little story between us: Has anyone else had a similar experience? Would you like to share it with me? For me, I need to just let out everything that’s been weighing on my heart for so long.

If I'm so unhealthy, why do I never get sick? I haven't had most of the illnesses that most people have had despite being exposed to them because my immune system is just that powerful. I haven't had a cold in nearly 2 years and even then it was very mild. But if I'm so healthy, why won't my skin heal? I'm not even picking it anymore since I've been on medication (which ironically is a similar compound to a substance that causes people to skin pick. Iykyk). I'm putting ointment on it several times a day and strong moisturiser at least every morning. It's this one patch of acne on my face that's been there for months and it just won't clear up. By the time it's scabbed over, it's gone green again. Human bodies are weird and random and we don't even know much about our own, and we especially don't know much about a celebrity's body.

My freshmen year of HS - about a month after the first week, we had a school tragedy happen. i would get into how its affected me but honestly it can be summarized as the worst thing ive ever went through. but the thing is, sometimes on my social media ill repost videos about my friends that i lost and then ill get TCC people replying to it "-2" or that they love who killed my friends, and then they even will DM me, and i dont want to give in and be weak and private my account but its really disturbing and brings up a lot for me. its totally fine if you cannot relate but if you have any advice it would be helpful !

okay last night i went to a friends house n i drank alc that morning n that night i was high as hell i think i greened out bc i felt so warm n dizzy n sick asf n when we got up to leave we were in her hallway n i threw up EVERYWHERE lmfao n i feel bad bc it wasn’t even my apartment now my friends ignoring me😭😭😭

3 am thoughts On one hand, it would be nice to know when you are being stalked but on the other hand it would freak me out. I already have a problem with having these feelings of being watched so knowing somone would be stalking me is definitely not good. But on the other hand you just know. If it stays at that fucked yeah but I could live with that. Not like my feeling of being watched leaves anyways at least now there would be a legit reason

I heard something I thought was really helpful so I thought I’d share it. Judgment and blame are relationship killers, including your relationship to yourself. So don’t judge and don’t blame. Think of the positives. Write them down. Repeat them. The more you think positive of yourself the better you will feel and will believe it.

I'm tired again for no reason.I mean, not exactly. Everything that used to cause me terrible pain isn't so bad anymore, even though it's still there, but I feel incredibly calm about it all. My mom is still the absolute worst, but I don't react to what she does anymore. I just feel empty and disgusted, and then I tell myself WHATEVER. My whole family makes me sick, but I don't think I hate or love them either. I don't know, it's all so strange. I laugh all the time, even though I know there's only a month left until school starts, and this is the most important year of my life. Either I get accepted to a university abroad (because I live in a horrible place) and escape this house, or I'll die of heartbreak. I have a headache all the time, EVERY SINGLE DAY, but that doesn't bother me much anymore either. I don't know what's wrong. I'm so confused and feel an emptiness I've never felt before, but I'm not even hopeless or sad. Thanks to anyone who read this NONSENSE

When someone ask you “where is zzz” and you say “there”, it is pretty obvious they should look at you to see where you’re pointing instead of keep looking where they’ve been looking and keep saying “where? Where?” Like hello?!

Why does he ask questions then don’t listen to answers and then ask again? Like why bother. That’s why hate talking to him or answering any questions

I feel like such a AWFUL person. I actually fucking deserve to suffer. I have nothing to blame but myself.

my older brother is a immature fucking INCEL who no one respects or talks to all his life and during my childhood he acted like my father and taught me incel stuff as if it was how the world worked and this caused me to get ostracized because of my beliefs. He also always claimed to be attractive to women and getting with them while these are obvious lies and to this days doesn't want to admit them. And still acts like he knows better than me. Like to this day you haven't grown out of your inceldom? Till this day he claims women will only go to a expensive/chic restaurant on a date, to this day he thinks women rule the relationship. To this day he thinks women of around the age of 20 don't engage in vaginal sex. To this day he thinks if you're in a exclusive relationship with a girl you gotta shop with her every weekend and pay for it. To this day he thinks women will never tell you/admit they think you're attractive. Mind you this fucker is 31 fucking years old Fuck my life dude omg