All Rants

Wake up, they are gone. You need to wake up. WAKE UP. THEY LEFT YOU, BECAUSE YOU DIDNT FIT THEIR STANDARDS ANYMORE. YOU ROSE SO FUCKING HIGH, THEY COULDN'T STAY. YOU ARE A BETTER PERSON, THEY GOT JEALOUS AND LEFT YOU BECAUSE YOU LOVED THEM BUT YOU WERE NOT HURTING LIKE THEM. OPEN YOUR EYES, I DONT CARE IF YOU TREATED THEM WITH KINDNESS. You will always, always.. be the villain in their story, in yours? They are a victim. Open your fucking eyes. Stop crying over them. They can’t see what an amazing person they lost. So shut your crying eyes, get the fuck up. And achieve your dreams.

I wanna die but I don't wanna kill myself. Please tell me im not the only one. Because I'm not fucking brave enough to actually do it. Nor do I have tools too. I feel trapped in a cage and the key is far from my reach.

Life seems to be kicking me in the ass, cant get a job even tho I’ve applied everywhere, no friends I can actually trust, parents seem to have given up on me, siblings both have better lives than me. Rumors fucked up my reputation to the point people around town get scared around me even tho I’ve never harmed anyone other myself. Why does life have to be so goddamn unfair towards some people. Like what did I do wrong to deserve this?

If I knew our last text would’ve been October, i would’ve never met him. I still miss you. And it hurts that you chose a racial person who talks about 🍇- and tells people to “X-X”. I wish I never got online that day. If that’s what you are into- why did you smile at kindness?

I constantly feel unmotivated and tired and disgusting every day. I never want to get out of bed and trying to make breakfast for myself and take care of my hygiene is so exhausting and I’m so insecure about it. My dad called me disgusting for the state of my bathroom, and I know he’s right, and I hate the state of it and I always want to clean but the action of cleaning drains my body physically. I constantly think I’m a failure at everything I do and I’m such a perfectionist even if most of the time I don’t care. I feel untalented. I feel average. I’m socially awkward and my friends probably find me annoying. I like cringy things and sometimes I wonder if I really embrace those parts of myself or if I really just hate myself. I’m going to get therapy soon because my mom is trying to help me, but I’ve never shared the deepest parts of my mental health like I am now. Nobody knows all this but me and I feel like I’m disappointing others by hating myself this much.

6 months ago, I got in a car accident that changed my entire life. I have been unable to sleep, it ruined my self esteem and drove me to addiction. I want to change things, but its so much to handle...

Why am I so fat Why am I so stupid Why am I forgotten Why does nobody pick me Why am I so ugly Why can't I be pretty Why can't I be loved Why can't I be seen Why can't I love myself Why am I not fucking enough Why do my parents stare at my scars Why do kids in my class look at the scars on my arm instead of me Why shouldn't I just end it?

I always feel so alone. I'm 18 and have never had a close friend; it sucks, kindly. ive been alone my whole life; I don't know what's wrong with me.

Everyone frustrates me at some point, its normal to feel that way but if the people in your life keep disappointing you so badly and so much and you feel like an asshole to them, there is a certain point where you feel as though you might punch someone across the face or shove someone down the stairs.

School has recently started again and I'm now remembering why I'm always at my lowest during the school year. I'm 2 weeks clean and I can already feel the urge coming back. I can already tell 7th grade is gonna be just as bad as 6th, 5th, and 4th grade. I feel like I can't just pick a struggle im too fat, too ugly, and even if I'm sorta smart there's always my friend who is smarter than me. Of course I like my friend and I don't have anything against her I just wish I could be her instead of me. I'm so antisocial and nobody likes me. I'm always the other one. The stress for grades is high too because I'm a 'gifted kid' since I was like in kindergarten. I'm expected to get 100's on all my tests and sometimes lie to others on what I got on my tests/quizzes. Its also hard to get out of my eating disorder from last year and even though I "recovered" I still only eat like 1000 calories a day. I feel like no one is gonna read this nor care but if you do thanks a lot.

I’m so fucking tired. I want to cut so fucking badly to release all this fucking sadness its unreal. I cant seem to do anything right. Be a friend, a mother, a wife, my fucking self. I am so overwhelmed, overstimulated, over every damn thing. Im tired. Just fucking tired.

bruh my life lowkey shit because why is my dad arrested, mom is severely depressed or some shit and is toxic as hell and my brother js attempted od bc of his stalker ex girlfriend like damn am I the problem?? anyway I’m the only not ever taken seriously too

I honestly want to kill myself

rant pt 3 I escaped through the internet, that was the worse case ever, now I hated my body, hated my skin color, how I look in the mirror, was addicted to porn at a young age screwed me over in the process, now I am jealous of the people who looked buffer than me.

rant pt 2 My mom never talks to me, she only talks to my dad so much so that it feels more like a date rather than a meal with a family. When we both interject me and my sibling its usually ignores, then talks. Its to the fucking point where my sibling has to raise his hand just to speak. Its a quirk but I could see how hard both of us try to get out parents attention. I hardly get my parents attention anymore. It feels like a burden, then I get lectured at by my parents, then yelled at, then complained about. that's why I wanted to leave, not the world but my life behind, I hated my parents, and it will be forever in my bones the people that emotionally wounded me. Made me so fucking scared to the point where I had panic attacks at home and at school, made me so fucking angry that its just me getting screwed over while if my younger sibling makes a mistake they brush it over, and yet they both said "we love you two equally." It made me stressed, everything, growing white hairs.

I’m clearly frustrated because I always try to help ppl and it back fires on me. Especially with the person I’m dating I just want out of the relationship

I'm so frustrated at everyone. In a shit discord server with teenagers, I got bitched at for having a different/offensive opinion towards a (shit)show that someone liked, and I was telling them about it and they got mad at me for trashtalking it infront of them, a fan. I did apologise, but they did infact talk to me like I was a child. Why are some people so sensitive? The show, for reference, is BPFOR, a YouTube show. It's terrible, honestly, and several times I did say that it's their opinion, their show, not mine, don't let my opinion change yours! And they still got upset at it. Why is it so hard for people to listen to other opinions without feeling indifferent? Does me calling it childish make your opinion change? Does it alter your viewpoint on something you like? You like that show because it's gay inanimate objects talking! "Let everyone have their opinions, but please don't make others uncomfy!" I apologised quickly after and you treat me like didn't understand shit!

This might sound weird but I have a high school alter ego of myself with a totally different name, different personality, different talents, even different place growing up, etc. I even started writing a story on wattpad about it for a little while, to make it feel more real. I think about it (not obsessively) to the point where I've started feeling light nostalgia for things I've never done, or even feeling a little sad her friends and family aren't real on my timeline. Sometimes when I feel bad or need motivation, I pretend to be her... relatable or not, idk, but it makes me feel nice

I hated my family especially my mom and dad, they are religiously strict. My dad was never in my life emotionally, sure it was child-parent work day but it feels like my dad was always busy. Now he is busy downstairs working on his projects, it feels lonely. your father hardly knows you anymore and its depressing knowing that he could have been a good father if he had done something more. But no, never went to my 8th grade promotion. The only moments was him drunk always yapping to my mom and him blowing up on everyone. My mom would never talk to me, its usual dry and its just usual conversations like "how's your day?" mom - "good." And she would send me reels its just two reels of memes saying your mom said "how's your day" and the son saying "good." I don't say good. I say whatever happened in school. I feel like isn't proud of me, anymore just useless garbage in the trash floating away in a sea of despair. She hardly talks to me anymore after everything, and this is my mom.

i hate people who just dont have the sense of urgency, responsibility, dont act their age, dont act mature. how are they able to live up to where they are now while acting like baby adults? it's frustrating, i wouldnt care if it wont affect me, but it does. how are they so inconsiderate?