All Rants

Promised myself that I wouldn't overdo with exercising. Today is supposed to be a rest day and it's tough

It pisses me off when people feel the need to negate reality to sound kind and wise. Um no.

how do you pretend s@icidal thoughts? i'm still young T-T

Hi, so basically i have this friend for more than 10 years already. But we're no longer friends anymore because she ignored me for fun and i did tried talking to her but she kept ignoring me. Then there were rumors in our classroom that she cheats during exam and there were proof. So I was a dissapointed abt it because she's our class and council president and she should be a good example. But instead she isnt playing fair. Also the first week when she ignored me it shattered my heart and I cried abt it for the whole week. So I was mad at her abt it, and instead of confronting her, I instead talked behind her back and gave insults, she knew abt it cause one of my trusted friend snitched. But still it was wrong for me to do that, i dont know what to do she said she'll get me expelled, im fine abt it since i know its the consequence of my actions. But im disgusted and dissapointed of myself. I cant even go out, and it feels like im trying to be the victim of my own wrong doing, i hate me

My name is amber I have 5 brothers and 1 sister I have been in foster care since I was 4 I am now 13 the siblings that came with me was called Oscar and Chloe . The first person I lived with was someone called kanta but then at 8 I moved to a new foster carer his name was Stuart he was not really nice but then at 11 me and my brother moved back to kantas but then a few months later my blood siblings moved out so now I am alone kanta makes me feel bad about my self. So now I hate my self and sick and tried of acting like I am good

she's my mother but she acts like she's someone that I need to hate.

My abusive ex friend is gonna be all over me when I go back to school, and I hate them. They don't know I don't wanna be friends with them anymore, because they're so blinded to their own abuse that they won't admit it. They have molested me, sent nudes to people, SAd me, been racist, and manipulated me, and still expect my friendship.

what the helllllllllllll dude valorant keeps kicking me out and then it bans me for leaving???? FIX YOUR GAME RIOT its actually pissing me off im banned for a week even tho the GAME KICKED ME OUT???????????????????

broke up with my toxic ex but cant seem to forget about him

This world is so ugly and I feel like I’m the root cause. Everything hurts right now. Even my heart I won’t lie. My entire life feels like it’s burning to the ground and I’m forced to be the pink loving happy friend to everyone one else. It’s like the floor is collapsing around me because of one person. Everyone says it gets better but I’ve been hearing that since I was like 7 and nothings happened yet. I’ve seriously thought of ending everything right there but I don’t want anymore pain just please STOP IF ITS BAD I DONT WANT TO HEAR ANYMORE I want everyone to go away but everything feels broken I hate myself.

i know my wife is depressed and i feel for her but things are reaching the point where i just can't cope anymore. i took a three day trip to visit family after consecutive deaths of close relatives i got home and without a single question of how i am she started breaking down telling me she wanted to kill herself. after three exhausting days of shouldering the emotional weight of a parent and aunt and sister who all cried and relied on me to be strong so i couldn't break down at all i come home and i immediately have to set my feelings aside and spend four hours talking her out of suicide. she didnt even bother checking if i got home safely. i know it's not her fault but i don't have anyone to rely on my family are in pieces i don't have any particularly close friends and i cant even tell my partner im hurting. im now managing her meals (she stopped eating when i was gone) and doing all the housework instead of the only thing i need which is rest and time to grieve. i hate this

I have no idea what’s happening I half think I hate myself half think I’m depressed and always feel lonely no matter now many people around me. I constantly can’t talk or am too drained to even think of opening the messages app. I can’t imagine myself in 10 years because it’s hard to believe by then I won’t have broken by then. I have people or friends but my family is a whole other thing because I feel like if I say something my mom is going to put it in a group chat or something. Everything is going downhill I have to move away soon and leave whatever stability I have left behind as if I wasn’t already isolated. Energy is basically gone but I’m forced to go to school looking jumpy because that’s the personality I walk into the school building with. I know the move might be what’s best but right now I don’t need to move I need someone or something to not change for once.

deadass hate being vulnerable so much that i type a paragraph on here then get so disgusted i immediately delete it

I love someone and want to be with them but at the end of the day I know we won’t workout. We are just two different people with different ways to handle things and different viewpoints.. it really fucking sucks and it’s so hard to just end things for good. We both know we have to end it but yet we both are hanging on

im so flipping pissed. why whenever i express my opinions in school grade gc or class gc, this one guy who im going to call Bird always hates on me for it. ill mention something like 'oh yeah, i was listenng to this really good miku song the other day' and Bird will be like 'bro miku is sus and gross the only people who like it are fat chud 35 year old preds who s3xualise anime girls' and then mute me bc he somehow is admin like huh? i know some fandoms and stuff i like are not for everyone and some of the people in that fandom can abuse or create harmful stereotypes about that community... but you did NOT have to attack me for such a simple, small remark on what i like. seriously, being alt/weird kid/therian/queer/merely having niche likes these days kinda sucks. -A

i’m such a loser. i’ve had depression since i was 9-10 years old i’m fucking pushing 18 now it doesn’t get better and i’m tired of the lies and me lying to myself. sure sometimes i’ll feel like everything is fine, “oh i finally beat it!” then it hits like a truck. i learned that depression is not something that leaves you, it will always stay with you like gum on your shoe, then it will hit you like a truck when you least expect it, maybe it is possible to get rid of this mental illness but not for me. i’m severely isolated aswell, i have 1 friend that i’m not even slightly close to in school. and online friends but i’m having urges to ghost them all i know they see me as annoying and weird anyway. Also because of my isolation (and prolly absent father) i catch feelings so easily like ew? what’s wrong with me i feel so disgusted with myself i’m such a fucking weirdo. i don’t wanna live anymore tbh. i see death as the ultimate peace and i want that for all etenrity

why the fuck do people not know how to walk on the sidewalk

I wanna commit. But I wonder what they would care. Will they still care about me? Why can't I chose.. I need therapy but I don't want them telling my parents

i keep crying so fucking much and my parents don’t give a fuck and when i say i need alone time, they ask me why im crying, and threaten to put me in styff that traumatized me. my eyes are red as hell and im so dehydrated and it hurts so bad i’ve been crying for likw 2 hours straight

PSLE genuinely feels like it's destroying my class's mental and physical health .Like first of all, most of my friends have been vomiting bc of PSLE stress but still come to school. INCLUDING ME BTW b4 this I had only vomited twice in my whole life and then after I got my PSLE entry proof I almost vomited for the first time bc of how stressed I was.And my sleep schedule is fucked too 💀 I used to sleep at 11pm latest but now my insomnia is acting up and I literally slept at 3:45am and woke up at 6am .And I can't even enjoy the things I usually love anymore. Like I usually see Toph and get REALLY excited but now I'm just “yay”even watching ATLA/LOK doesn't hit the same anymore. I can't even make my OCs as descriptive in my head as I used to.And it's not just me either. Most of my class isn't even putting in 100% anymore bc we're just so tired and we just want this whole thing to be OVER my class has also been getting scolded a lot bc we're “not helping tch” so yeah thats my rant ig (★)