I was groomed as a child by my cousin aged 15 you are aware what you where doing i was 7 or 8 when my innocence was gone and only found out recently that my brother told my cousin that its fine for him to do them stuff to me bc i wouldnt understand that its wrong i thought it was all normal i became hypersexial i feel like my brother had did this bc he didnt want to feel terrible that he was grooming my sister recently she told me that my brother said weird things like suck it its clean and also then it was a failed attempt i felt my cousins brother doing stuff with me when i was sleeping but i acted unaware i didnt want to face the awkwardness then his sister i have remorse idk but i thought it was normal and we did weird stuff too this just made me do unusal stuff with ppl as a child recently i found out my brother was the culprit i was disgusted and found out he raped my sister he was 20 and she was 13 sleeping we was both abused and screamed at as kids btw and she had a miscaridge
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i don't know what i'm supposed to feel nothing is wrong but something is wrong my venture doesn't feel earned it feels off once again, the never-ending looming feeling of agnosthesia taints what i classify as positive or negative what am i supposed to feel how am i supposed to feel r.s
Yesterday my mother told me I was getting too fat, which I am, i admit it. Genuinely I'm already so done with being the joke, being constantly fat shamed, being told I need to lose weight, I do need to lose weight but I genuinely can't, getting out of bed is like a chore to me, everyday I wake up and think to myself "I don't even want to live anymore" how the fuck am I supposed to excercise cuz I'm genuinely just a lazy fuck , Self harm and pornographic content is like the only way for me to feel something, I relapsed again yesterday, idek bro I'm prolly attention seeking for doing SH in visible spots, I don't even want to eat anymore, I mean they want me to lose weight so I guess I'll lose weight by not eating and I don't wanna eat either, I'll try to vent to my mom and she'll say kids can't be stressed and my shit is minor like genuinely they pmo so much. life pmo so much, I didn't even fucking ask to be born.
I hate my roommate and his family. That make me feel so small and like a child. They raided and threw out so much of my stuff from the kitchen and speak to me as if I'm a lesser person. I hate this so much.
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why the actual fuck did my dad spend a whole HOUR waiting to tell me that my mom had to go to the hospital cos her shoulder literally would not move?? WHY THE FUCK DID YOU NOT TELL ME I WAS LITERALLY AWAKE IN MY BEDROOM???
Promised myself that I wouldn't overdo with exercising. Today is supposed to be a rest day and it's tough
It pisses me off when people feel the need to negate reality to sound kind and wise. Um no.
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Hi, so basically i have this friend for more than 10 years already. But we're no longer friends anymore because she ignored me for fun and i did tried talking to her but she kept ignoring me. Then there were rumors in our classroom that she cheats during exam and there were proof. So I was a dissapointed abt it because she's our class and council president and she should be a good example. But instead she isnt playing fair. Also the first week when she ignored me it shattered my heart and I cried abt it for the whole week. So I was mad at her abt it, and instead of confronting her, I instead talked behind her back and gave insults, she knew abt it cause one of my trusted friend snitched. But still it was wrong for me to do that, i dont know what to do she said she'll get me expelled, im fine abt it since i know its the consequence of my actions. But im disgusted and dissapointed of myself. I cant even go out, and it feels like im trying to be the victim of my own wrong doing, i hate me
My name is amber I have 5 brothers and 1 sister I have been in foster care since I was 4 I am now 13 the siblings that came with me was called Oscar and Chloe . The first person I lived with was someone called kanta but then at 8 I moved to a new foster carer his name was Stuart he was not really nice but then at 11 me and my brother moved back to kantas but then a few months later my blood siblings moved out so now I am alone kanta makes me feel bad about my self. So now I hate my self and sick and tried of acting like I am good
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My abusive ex friend is gonna be all over me when I go back to school, and I hate them. They don't know I don't wanna be friends with them anymore, because they're so blinded to their own abuse that they won't admit it. They have molested me, sent nudes to people, SAd me, been racist, and manipulated me, and still expect my friendship.
what the helllllllllllll dude valorant keeps kicking me out and then it bans me for leaving???? FIX YOUR GAME RIOT its actually pissing me off im banned for a week even tho the GAME KICKED ME OUT???????????????????
This world is so ugly and I feel like I’m the root cause. Everything hurts right now. Even my heart I won’t lie. My entire life feels like it’s burning to the ground and I’m forced to be the pink loving happy friend to everyone one else. It’s like the floor is collapsing around me because of one person. Everyone says it gets better but I’ve been hearing that since I was like 7 and nothings happened yet. I’ve seriously thought of ending everything right there but I don’t want anymore pain just please STOP IF ITS BAD I DONT WANT TO HEAR ANYMORE I want everyone to go away but everything feels broken I hate myself.
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i know my wife is depressed and i feel for her but things are reaching the point where i just can't cope anymore. i took a three day trip to visit family after consecutive deaths of close relatives i got home and without a single question of how i am she started breaking down telling me she wanted to kill herself. after three exhausting days of shouldering the emotional weight of a parent and aunt and sister who all cried and relied on me to be strong so i couldn't break down at all i come home and i immediately have to set my feelings aside and spend four hours talking her out of suicide. she didnt even bother checking if i got home safely. i know it's not her fault but i don't have anyone to rely on my family are in pieces i don't have any particularly close friends and i cant even tell my partner im hurting. im now managing her meals (she stopped eating when i was gone) and doing all the housework instead of the only thing i need which is rest and time to grieve. i hate this
I have no idea what’s happening I half think I hate myself half think I’m depressed and always feel lonely no matter now many people around me. I constantly can’t talk or am too drained to even think of opening the messages app. I can’t imagine myself in 10 years because it’s hard to believe by then I won’t have broken by then. I have people or friends but my family is a whole other thing because I feel like if I say something my mom is going to put it in a group chat or something. Everything is going downhill I have to move away soon and leave whatever stability I have left behind as if I wasn’t already isolated. Energy is basically gone but I’m forced to go to school looking jumpy because that’s the personality I walk into the school building with. I know the move might be what’s best but right now I don’t need to move I need someone or something to not change for once.
deadass hate being vulnerable so much that i type a paragraph on here then get so disgusted i immediately delete it
I love someone and want to be with them but at the end of the day I know we won’t workout. We are just two different people with different ways to handle things and different viewpoints.. it really fucking sucks and it’s so hard to just end things for good. We both know we have to end it but yet we both are hanging on