I feel like my intelligence and identity is constantly belittled by my family who treat me like a pet and just use me for their own suffocating affection needs, I've been stuck in uni for 2 years and can't find a job. I have no friends, I am surrounded by lots of people, yet still feel alone. I pass one exam on the 13th try and they say "there's our good boy, our little genius, we knew you'd do it", I would have graduated next week if it wasn't for them. I get constantly judged, scrutinized, all my relationships get stalked on by them, they are gossip seekers to the brim, I feel like living in Big Brother with no escape, no skill to face life alone, they need me dependent on them. I learnt to tie my shoelaces alone only at the age of 19 because they never taught me, they never taught me anything, I feel like a child and that my life will only start when I'll finally escape from this house. Yet, I can't find a job either...
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It happened again 😡 Ofc my parents are talking inappropriately so I put in my earbuds- but since I’m halfway deaf..I can’t hear when my ear buds are in. So why TF ARE YOU MAD AT ME? HOW ABOUT YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP BITCH 😡 I DONT WANNA HEAR YOU, BUT WHN I PUT MY EARBUDS IN YOU GET PISSED? VHAIIVHAVHAVJHAIHAVKHAVIHAVJHAVHAJVJGAHVJAVJHAVHJVAHJVHKAVHKAKBAKHBABHKAVKHVHKAHVAHJAVHJAVKHAVHJAVJHVHIAVJHAJHAHHVJAVGJACHGYTKAKTYDAKDTYAKDYTATYKFAKHGFKAHGFAKTUFKYTAFTYAFYTKFAFTKYAJFAFJGCAGFCAFCAGF.UTFARTULWLUTWFFYLWC,YTA,FHCAC,GHAC,GH,GHCA,GHCAC,TH,AFTUACTY,YTFFYLTA,TFUAT,UFATF,UTC,UA,YFTAFT,YACKTH,FTHAFT,AUFKTUALUFTALUFTALFUTALUFTAFLUTALFUTULFTALUFTALUTFALYFUALUYFAFYULFYULAFLUYAFLUYALFU SO ARE YOU., ARE YOU REALLYYYYYYYYYY GOING TO BED? BITCH
Everything is going wrong I thought it would get better but my hopes js go down the drain dying js feels sm more easier
i get so disgusted with myself and i think now its my fault but in the past i could blame it on someone else but i kind of feel reliant on it and it's gross. i think itll mess me up too and that scares me i hate my body and i used to wonder if everyone in my environment does and i think we all secretly to some level hate ourselves and im starting to think everyone here is miserable ive tried a few times to hurt myself because i feel ashamed or angry the first times i tried i couldnt draw blood but i have a few times since then and its kind of like this sense of pride or accomplishment idk there's alos this girl and its my fault too but i think shes starting to make me uncomfortable and i dont know how to say no she's also going through things and i think saying no would just make thinsg worse for her i miss my real best friend i have other friends now i guess but i miss her soso much she just loves her stupid boyfriend
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I was groomed as a child by my cousin aged 15 you are aware what you where doing i was 7 or 8 when my innocence was gone and only found out recently that my brother told my cousin that its fine for him to do them stuff to me bc i wouldnt understand that its wrong i thought it was all normal i became hypersexial i feel like my brother had did this bc he didnt want to feel terrible that he was grooming my sister recently she told me that my brother said weird things like suck it its clean and also then it was a failed attempt i felt my cousins brother doing stuff with me when i was sleeping but i acted unaware i didnt want to face the awkwardness then his sister i have remorse idk but i thought it was normal and we did weird stuff too this just made me do unusal stuff with ppl as a child recently i found out my brother was the culprit i was disgusted and found out he raped my sister he was 20 and she was 13 sleeping we was both abused and screamed at as kids btw and she had a miscaridge
i don't know what i'm supposed to feel nothing is wrong but something is wrong my venture doesn't feel earned it feels off once again, the never-ending looming feeling of agnosthesia taints what i classify as positive or negative what am i supposed to feel how am i supposed to feel r.s
Yesterday my mother told me I was getting too fat, which I am, i admit it. Genuinely I'm already so done with being the joke, being constantly fat shamed, being told I need to lose weight, I do need to lose weight but I genuinely can't, getting out of bed is like a chore to me, everyday I wake up and think to myself "I don't even want to live anymore" how the fuck am I supposed to excercise cuz I'm genuinely just a lazy fuck , Self harm and pornographic content is like the only way for me to feel something, I relapsed again yesterday, idek bro I'm prolly attention seeking for doing SH in visible spots, I don't even want to eat anymore, I mean they want me to lose weight so I guess I'll lose weight by not eating and I don't wanna eat either, I'll try to vent to my mom and she'll say kids can't be stressed and my shit is minor like genuinely they pmo so much. life pmo so much, I didn't even fucking ask to be born.
I hate my roommate and his family. That make me feel so small and like a child. They raided and threw out so much of my stuff from the kitchen and speak to me as if I'm a lesser person. I hate this so much.
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why the actual fuck did my dad spend a whole HOUR waiting to tell me that my mom had to go to the hospital cos her shoulder literally would not move?? WHY THE FUCK DID YOU NOT TELL ME I WAS LITERALLY AWAKE IN MY BEDROOM???
Promised myself that I wouldn't overdo with exercising. Today is supposed to be a rest day and it's tough
It pisses me off when people feel the need to negate reality to sound kind and wise. Um no.
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Hi, so basically i have this friend for more than 10 years already. But we're no longer friends anymore because she ignored me for fun and i did tried talking to her but she kept ignoring me. Then there were rumors in our classroom that she cheats during exam and there were proof. So I was a dissapointed abt it because she's our class and council president and she should be a good example. But instead she isnt playing fair. Also the first week when she ignored me it shattered my heart and I cried abt it for the whole week. So I was mad at her abt it, and instead of confronting her, I instead talked behind her back and gave insults, she knew abt it cause one of my trusted friend snitched. But still it was wrong for me to do that, i dont know what to do she said she'll get me expelled, im fine abt it since i know its the consequence of my actions. But im disgusted and dissapointed of myself. I cant even go out, and it feels like im trying to be the victim of my own wrong doing, i hate me
My name is amber I have 5 brothers and 1 sister I have been in foster care since I was 4 I am now 13 the siblings that came with me was called Oscar and Chloe . The first person I lived with was someone called kanta but then at 8 I moved to a new foster carer his name was Stuart he was not really nice but then at 11 me and my brother moved back to kantas but then a few months later my blood siblings moved out so now I am alone kanta makes me feel bad about my self. So now I hate my self and sick and tried of acting like I am good
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My abusive ex friend is gonna be all over me when I go back to school, and I hate them. They don't know I don't wanna be friends with them anymore, because they're so blinded to their own abuse that they won't admit it. They have molested me, sent nudes to people, SAd me, been racist, and manipulated me, and still expect my friendship.
what the helllllllllllll dude valorant keeps kicking me out and then it bans me for leaving???? FIX YOUR GAME RIOT its actually pissing me off im banned for a week even tho the GAME KICKED ME OUT???????????????????
This world is so ugly and I feel like I’m the root cause. Everything hurts right now. Even my heart I won’t lie. My entire life feels like it’s burning to the ground and I’m forced to be the pink loving happy friend to everyone one else. It’s like the floor is collapsing around me because of one person. Everyone says it gets better but I’ve been hearing that since I was like 7 and nothings happened yet. I’ve seriously thought of ending everything right there but I don’t want anymore pain just please STOP IF ITS BAD I DONT WANT TO HEAR ANYMORE I want everyone to go away but everything feels broken I hate myself.