All Rants

Nothing tears down self confidence more than job searching. I've been looking for a month and with the 50+ applications I filled out I got 6 interviews and no call backs. My stupid previous position fired me for some stupid reason, but I feel it was because I informed them I wanted to file for ADa acommodations. I can't prove anything though. And they're fighting the unemployment. Meanwhile, my bills are piling up, I'm living with my SO in his dad's spare room, borrowing money from family members that I don't know when I'll be able to pay back. All this keeps making me feel like I'm not doing enough, I'm not worth enough. I did everything everyone told me to do. I went to college and got a Bachelor's Degree. Useless! Useless! Useless! One brother is making 90K and he doesn't have a college degree. The other is making over 100K and he went to the military and college. Here I am in the middle with my piece of crap degree and nothing else. FML.

see i had a relationship of 5 years and was falling out of love for that guy and i met a girl from my grade(im bi btw) and i genuinely love her and wasnt sure how to ask her out or if she is bi or not but turns out she fell hard and turned bi for me and we got together and its gonna be 2 months now and i have never been happier cuz she is like my best friend and girlfriend all in one... but every time i genuinely try to have fun my way she just gets annoyed and shuts down and doesnt talk to me and if she is overthinking ahe wont say a word and you have to figure it out.. thats fine by me,cause ill stay by her side and tell her that im there for her and wont leave at all but today when i was in a bad mood and didnt wanna talk... she didnt even try talking it out she just sat next to me and talked to another dude we have a mutual friendship with and like just sorta thought i wanted space when in reality i wanted her to come and comfort me..guess my expectations were far too high

5 DAYS CLEAN. Did anybody see the meteor shower this morning? I did but in my experience it was not that great, over hyped I think but if you liked it then its fine.

tw grooming abuse mentions i feel terrible i was literally like groomed as a kid. and im jsut realizing recently and it hurts so fucking much. i feel like such a disgusting person even though i know it was her. it was all her. i dont want to keep feeling like this. and this is a really random thing to be upset about but my dad is stressing me out with college stuff. some of the things he suggests are late and/or not quite a good idea to reach out to the college and ask if i can jsut skip orientation they said i can do virtual orientation and still attend in person but virtual orientation is on the 18th and this is already the 13th. and my dad was away so i couldnt go to the in person one on june and that complicates things a lot. and now i feel terrible. i can't just tell him he'll probably get upset with me. last time i tried telling him he hit me and started going on about how ungrateful i am for everything he does im so tired im almost 18 and then i'll leave but i gen dont know

I feel like shi rn. I'm so sick and tired of everything. Can't ppl just leave me alone and never talk to me ever and somehow kill me too cz kmsf is prohibited in my religion. I can't do ts anymore I'm so done

Since my husband's family is all good with their one sibling being a lying thieving, expecting the only woman in the house to do everything, and since my husband had to take custody of this lying thieving daily disrespecting living Hell 11 years ago because that pos fried his own brain on pcp in 1987, it has been the Worst 11 years of my life, and my husband's family acts like whatever this pos does is all good even though none of them will take the lying thieving pos for even 2 weeks because none of them want to go through this pos's lying thieving daily disrespecting living Hell, but they have no problem telling my husband that no you shouldn't put the pos in a mental institution or an assisted living facility where he belongs, oh no they all act like them people who invited the pos to smoke that pcp tied his hands behind his back and held a firearm to his head and made him smoke it, their family in Spanaway and Tacoma Washington and Los Lunas New Mexico are nothing but worthless POS

I work with an anal retentive twit. Her: did you see that lady walk by? Me: in the white dress? Her: yellow-y No you dumb bitch. I didn’t analyze the fucken color of her dress. I’m busy working. You need a life. Or to get laid.

I think my best friends of 9 yrs don't like me. I'm in a trio and I feel like such a 3rd wheel. They prefer each other over me. No one ever chooses me. I can't cut them off but I get so hurt sometimes. I'm very observant so I can sense when someone isn't excited about my presence anymore. They kind of leave me on seen , leave my texts delivered for so long and yk that rude way of constantly "teasing " like I'm their punching bag. That's the only way they talk to me now. While with each other they be like "mwah meah love youuu aww". Am I just being sensitive?

I'm a freshman in college and I CANNOT keep up. Our orientation was good, kinda boring, and the day after orientation was our voting for officers of the school and acquaintance party. So I got there at 7 am and the registration for my course, the officers of that course was nowhere to be found. They just started arriving at around 8 am so I waited for 1 hr just to register ONE HOUR. Insane AND THAT'S NOT EVEN THE INSANE PART, after registration we waited for the votings to begin which started at 9:47 am so I waited that long, mind u the freaking line was NOT MOVING we got at half the court at 12 pm which is insane!!! After all that waiting the classes was suspended so they had to cancel the aquantance party but still stubbornly continued the votings DESPITE THE MAJORITIES OF PEOPLE ON THAT CAMPUS, WE WERE CRAMPED. So after a few more minutes about 30 mins the 2-4th year went home cuz they can vote online but not us first years. They put us on the building for votings then courtthenline

Am I a bad daughter If I talk back to my parent's and walk away to them? Tbh I feel that I failed being their daughter because I dissapoint them. It hurt me inside to the point that I cry silent bcs of guilt and hate of my self.

To be hinest, I dont know why I'm crying right now

Always feel like something's wrong with me for voting blue, and the subsequent implied support for transgender people and gay people. I don't particularly care what individuals do, and I honestly find those types pretty weird. In the end, I don't care about them either way, and there are more important reasons for voting Democrat. I feel like a failure of a brainwashed and indoctrinated person though. I read politics & economics books and try to be educated (unlike the other belligerent conservatives I know in real life whose 'educated' comes almost solely from Fox News - they will still make you feel like a shadow of a human being). No matter how hard I try, I can't make myself be conservative and be part of the "right" group. I am too ashamed to even vote because I am too tolerant and understanding, and I will destroy the "West" through aberrant empathy. There are real arguments for why pleasant-disposition people shouldn't vote, based on brain scans. I always try to be rational.

What's a pressure from parents or teachers that feels impossible to live up to? im a first born daughter rn im 14 i barely know what im doing everything i do feels like a mistake i feel like the failure of the family cuz my siblings are lowkey good at everything and im the disappointment and sometimes i fell like im watching my life not living it....@savage_ towi on grqm btw 🥺

I failed a math quiz when I got perfect scores for all my past quizzes. Now I just wanna do sh n forget about it

So I've been rlly overwhelmed lately school friends family stuff i struggle with body image as a teenager and I've been self injuring lately

I can't really seem to figure out who I am. I know what my interests are, I know who my friends and family are, but I just don't know what to think of myself. I feel like I'm running on autopilot. I feel like I'm learning who I am through other people. I don't know what people think of me, and that eats away at my confidence because I have no strong self-identity to rely on. I don't know what to do really. I've been getting more and more extroverted, which is fun because I can talk with people for longer but that also means I say a lot of stuff that doesn't really connect. It really hit me when a friend described me as extroverted. I've always viewed myself as an ambivert so that really shattered my self image. I think I need to stop talking so much. Right now, I feel like I'm running on autopilot. Everything is just happening, but at the same time nothing is going on. I barely have any hobbies. I feel like an imposter whenever I try to connect with people. It hurts. A lot.

Do I end it now or wait for the starvation to slowly take me out. Sleep for dinner and insomnia for dessert. No time for a break. No time for really living. What is the point.

i'm so happy for you my friend. you found a job that you seem to like. i've been praying for your success ever since i heard you needed one. but can i ever tell you that i still want to die whenever i try to find a job i know i won't get? that what my parents did to my career choice that would've made me happy, still boils my blood to an unbearable degree that i want my heart to stop beating entirely? will it be a rain on your parade if i do? do you notice that whenever you wish me luck in finding a job, i go quiet? will it be too much to tell you that or are we not that kind of friend? i promise you, i'm alright with that, i wouldn't want to be that close of a friend with me either... but is the way i'm holding you at arms length too uncomfortable? do you notice that i don't want to exist anymore? do you notice that you're one of the few people that bring me happiness and yet i can't show you my sadness? will you be happy if i suddenly stopped messaging one day? will you be okay?

It doesn't even let me be angry without it even being acceptable. Just fucking kill me, I'm sick of having to censor the amount of anger i have.

see i had a relationship of 5 years and was falling out of love for that guy and i met a girl from my grade(im bi btw) and i genuinely love her and wasnt sure how to ask her out or if she is bi or not but turns out she fell hard and turned bi for me and we got together and its gonna be 2 months now and i have never been happier cuz she is like my best friend and girlfriend all in one... but every time i genuinely try to have fun my way she just gets annoyed and shuts down and doesnt talk to me and if she is overthinking ahe wont say a word and you have to figure it out.. thats fine by me,cause ill stay by her side and tell her that im there for her and wont leave at all but today when i was in a bad mood and didnt wanna talk... she didnt even try talking it out she just sat next to me and talked to another dude we have a mutual friendship with and like just sorta thought i wanted space when in reality i wanted her to come and comfort me..guess my expectations were far too high