All Rants

I didnt have a bad day, things just hit harder for some reason

I am planning to leave my fat, neckbearded, loser landlords as they're holding me back from cooking for myself and actively hinder my progress while stealing my food. They're even doing bitch shit like "I'm sorry IF I stole your food" except his girlfriend already confirmed he stole my food and "got confused". I'm only scared they'll retaliate as I send them my self-30-day-notice and intended final day of rent. If there's no trouble terming my tenancy here so I can go to a place where nobody steals my food or knocks on the bathroom door at 1am, I'd be so happy. I am conflicted though, as my new landlord will be more strict and will divvy the utilities between us, but at minimum, it's 50 bucks less than what I'm paying for now, and the place is pristinely clean.

today is one of those days where it just was not your day, and what a better way to finish it than by breaking my fucking glasses. cant catch a fucking break fml

fuck my life i guess

There is a beautiful, dark skinned, almond-eyed lady at work that seems to like me and I really want to reciprocate that to her. She seems to give tons of attention to minor details like me wearing my clothes correctly and me exercising again. It's weird, and I even gave her a speech about bringing energy to and from work, and she got smooth with it and turned it back to her and I. Now I did complement her figure, and I notice she's eating fresh fruit, and she's wearing similar colors to me and wants me in every place she wants me. The biggest thing is she fixed my collar in front of my boss. That's a bit weird and it makes me focus on her a lot. I'm not planning to mix honey and money, and she's a boss lady at work. It's puzzling to me.

i fucking hate myself, i have school tmrw and the thought of going there is making me cry, idk if im being dramatic about it but im scared of going there

I’ve dealt with chronic illness for almost 2 years now, I don’t think I’ve ever wanted to die so much. It feels so draining to not feel well most days. It’s like it’s become my normal to not feel well. It sucks when everything’s heightened from being sick. But, some days I wish I hadn’t woken up because I feel so awful. Honestly I wouldn’t even be upset if I never woke up. I’m only 18 yet it feels like I’m not even living most of the time

I feel out of place for my age because 20 is already considered as an adult but I barely have the abilities of what a grown adult have. I cannot cook for the life of me I could possible burn the house down, I can keep things tidy and clean but I also fall back to depression and sadness. I feel not sane I can't call it manic since I'm not diagnosed yet though that's how I describe it. I feel stuck like a tree with it's roots in grained into the ground. I feel like I'm just going to pass out and fade into blank and everything goes black as I go grey. I don't know what's wrong with me but I just know there's something has been missing from me.

i am upset that my boyfriend cannot make any additional efforts to spend time with me. i feel like it is only me who reaches out and plans specific times, he is usually happy to meet up at the those times, but never is the one making the plans. He is also a very busy person and works 12 hours days sometimes. However, I would appreciate a little more communication from him during the day because I feel like we only connect when we are face to face instead of over text. I am mainly upset by this because of a recent event. I was gone for a week and my plane was going to arrive around 11:40pm. My bf works until 10:30pm and he was going to pick us up. The flight was delayed and he went instead to his friends birthday party. He never sees his friends and it was his 21st so I should not be mad, as I gave him the final say to go to the party. But a part of me wanted him to skip altogether and still pick me up. Now today he works until 9pm and I have to wait an additional day to see him.

My sister ruined my life and she hates me for it. Hi, i am a teenager girl. I have a family of 4. My father only lives in work and his own room. He never talks or hears anything. My mother is so passive and naive. And my older sister, lets call her silver. Silver uses alcohol and cigarettes a lot. She curses a lot. She fights a lot. She was never good in school. She doesnt wanna work too. She is a young adult. Silver is abusing me since i was born. there are millions of ways she abused me, i cant tell you all of it. She made me get graped for 6 days straight, she CHOSE to not protect me.

i hate my mom and i hate my family. i love them but i hate them its a crazy feeling. im constantly being abused physically and mentally. amount of times ive been hit and scolded for no reason. its crazy atp. i hope my kids are never scared of me and i can be the chill mom they tell everything to. i hate it here and i wanna die. i will suicide.

I'm tired. I just miss my mom and grandma who made me laugh and happy. If I tell my feelings to my dad, he will get angry and not understand how I feel. I just wanna rant to some one or I just want to die sometimes but I don't like the feeling of dying. I'm angry yet kind of sad. If I cry over small things I get called sensitive. My dad calls me skinny, and I'm already a bit insecure of it. My family is fucked up, I'm fucked up as well. My life is just mid yet, a bit boring. I want a small blade to cut my skin.My dad calls me words, meanwhile my mom doesn't and I'm happy because of that. I just want my loved ones back.

I am about to turn 42 years old in about 2 weeks. I am homeless unemployed going daily to the local methadone clinic however still smoking methadone almost daily to regulate the side effects of methadone , my boyfriend of 3 years is married to the mother of his 6 kids however they are all grown and she lives on the opposite side of the country so they are separated but still God don't like that. I won't have sex with him until he divorces her and marries me. Just a matter of time be4 he finds a girl who don't care and he cheats on me. I just know it.

My mom got arrested this morning I was really hoping to find someone to talk to

hellO? is anyone actaully here

i have a monster energy addiction and i've been bedrotting / isolating myself constantly i feel so empty and there's a shop that i can go to that sells monster to under 16s (i am under 16) and one day i went down to buy some monster and a woman working there told me i had to be 16 to buy it and now im freaking out bcz i need it to feel sane and idk what to do with myself ive been using shitty coping mechanisms like using bestgore, watching p0rn , not sleeping, barely eating and self harming. i don't feel like i can talk to any1 bc they just brush it off and change the subject to themselves. - r3mii

i feel weak 7 24 physically and i cant concentrate on anything and idk what to do w exams idk what else to say

I have this MAJOR crush on a friend of mine. And it’s awful because I know her ex was the devil incarnate, and she probably wont want to date again after him. But she’s so sickeningly sweet! She started calling me a petname. And she keeps sending me ship edits of characters and saying it’s “us”, so much so we’re matching in 2 servers. She’s so sweet to me, and, it makes it so hard to just be friends with her. And to add, i asked a mutual friend and she said to just set more boundaries but… i’m a selfish evil person or something. I don’t want her to stop calling me pet names or saying I love you.. she treats me so…. Gently. Idk. I like how sweet she is to me, the petname she calls me. I yearn for her and i’m so happy with it

When a person only talks about the fucking sex life like what are u doing starting in some pawn show where u just fuck none stop, I mean like every chance them get, like what the actual.

So I have a perfectly good life I mean money food no homeless and refuge shit going on and yet my life it still shit I mean really crappy like my grandma had her knee replaced and a pacemaker put in and now she has stage 3 breast cancer and it destroyed my mum like break down crying and my dad was in court because of his ex shitty work place so both my parents were a reck. I process stuff different to them though like keep it inside and don't tell anyone and act like everything's fine accept it wasn't and I was getting massive knots in my stomach because of it so I was coming home from school feeling like I was going to puke and when I got home it was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders and this happen for about two weeks before it pissed my dad off so much he grounded me and cut off cash and subscription not anything necessary but enough to piss me off and make my life harder and then I ran away for two hours to proses and it got me in twice as much trouble I mean like wtf.