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Hi I am really going through a heartbreak silently And I can't handle it I want to scream and cry and wish someone knew how much it hurts And my birthday is soon and I can't seem to let it go I can't sit a second without thinking or crying Help me

Gosh i hate being left out. First at my old school we basically had a group hierachy, ofc i was right at the bottom, it sucked when the leader decided she didn't like me one day and everyone kinda just agreed with her. it wasnt anything new ive been left out my entire life but still really sucked. A new girl came soon and pretty much replaced me. after that i vented to my friend about it, the week after somehow it had turned into a twisted rummour and i ended up having no friends. i got sick of it and moved schools. The girls were all so nice to me. it felt unreal to have someone be this nice, like i swear ive never loved a person more that this one girl. who was my first friend there. after a while i realised i still felt really out of place bc she has a best friend already, who i feel like secretly hates me. those two talk all the time and dont acknowldge that the other half of the friend group exist. anyway long storyshort, i feel like dying half the time i have no one to vent to.

I wish my absensce haunted someone. I wish that when I'm not around, that people will miss me, feel a hole in their chest. I wish that people would think about me when I'm not around, think "oh I wonder what she's doing" "I wonder what she's feeling". But i feel like no one thinks of me like that at all. Don't get me wrong my friends are nice, I love them individually but not together as a group. Like today i was sitting there while two of them were talking all alone. I kept randomly dissapearing to the bathroom and didn't say goodbye when it was classtime, and they didn't say a word. Did they even fucking notice? I feel so damn alone even when i am surrounded by people. I feel like my mind went out of my head, and i could really use a good friend to help me find it. I always wonder about others. I wonder about them and about what they are wondering about, if they are thinking about what i'm thinking about and so on. But instead i sit alone in my room wondering if my life is worth it.

this friend of mine, i have an issue with her. she kind of uses me i feel but if i say anything about it i’m being stingy. one of the first time it happened was when i was driving her around with another friend and she was asking me to stop by here and there for her. I felt like a driver and the worse thing is she never offered to pay for any of my food drink or anything out of courtesy. i think it’s because i have an electric car and i said how it was cheaper than gas money so she just treated it all like free stuff. this was the same day when she was stuck with no ride to a dentist appointment and i offered to help drop her off. never told me that i could leave and do my own thing so i was stuck waiting for her at the dentist then had to take her home as well. today really frustrated me. i’m on ebt and when we stopped by a grocery store just for looking around she wanted something and ask if my ebt would cover it. Excuse me that’s mine is she implying i should get it for her?

cheated on my ex. twice. it was a while ago but i still haven't moved past it because it's probably my biggest mistake ever lol. i'm a huuuge attention seeker and have been for most of my life (emotionally absent dad, you know how it is.) so i've always wanted more and more from any of my partners. at some point it just wasn't enough for me, went to seek out more attention by cheating. somehow i got a second chance after the first time. buuuut once a cheater, always a cheater. of course i did it again. so we've been apart for about 8 months now and i've gotten into a new relationship. i think i've learned my lesson after all the consequences i faced, but i'm still afraid i'll do it again. i don't want to be a cheater, it doesn't bring me joy. but i'm afraid that what my partner has to offer won't be enough for me at some point. maybe i'm better off single. yes, i've had extensive therapy. i don't want to hurt the person i love.

More idiots driving illegally dangerously and stupidity in Cardross St Yeerongpilly in which police continue to ignore especially the 13 number. 6.15pm 25th of May 2026 Driver of white sedan stopped in the lane blocking other traffic, reversed into driveway and then drove into Cardross St blocking the traffic lane again and then drove into driveway which they should have done in the first place. Driver of dark coloured 4 wheel drive crew cab ute, couldn't wait a few seconds so turned right out of driveway nearly running into another 4 wheel drive crew cab on the traffic lane forcing it to break suddenly.

It' been exactly one year ago today my best friend ghosted me after an argument. Long story short, we were a group of 3 and we essentially were mean girls. I got in therapy and wanted to change, they didn't, when arguing about this they ghosted me. I don't miss how messy and mean we could be and I have felt better about myself since then but still miss them occasionally. Tonight I've hit a pretty low point mentally (I'm diagnosed bipolar and have been fighting to get back on meds for a while) and tried and failed to get my fiance to wake up and help me calm down so I didn't spiral and do something stupid. Well I was looking through his phone, found out he's recently been messaging girls on instagram trying to get them to send him nudes, I woke him up again to confront him and his logic was he didn't think it was that big a deal which is so stupid!!! We've been together for YEARS and he knows how I feel about lying and he went behind my back and messaged girls on insta.

I'm so tired of being left out and waiting for someone to include me in. My "friends" say I matter but their actions say otherwise. They all hang out and do everything I want to do with friends yet they bece include me. And that I'm the one that brought them all together. The only one who cares is my boyfriend but I hate it.. He says he'll wait behind then have me be left alone but I don't want him to wait for me because of my stupid issues. I just want to be heard without having to drag someone else down with me..

I'm so annoyed. I feel like I am being too protective of my girlfriend about wearing a bikini to a swimming party witb her friends. I am so jealous and worried. I appreciate her updates but I feel like she doesn't like how I am being protective. She also is not returning "I love you"s. A simple heart or reply that she also feels the same. But no. None. It even feels like she is ignoring my ILYs. Fucking annoying me that I feel like I am the one wrong and guilty for being worried about her and being jealous. It's like I feel guilty for being jealous and hurt she isn't responding to my ILYs. I'm annoyed and hurt. I don't know what is the right thing to do. I feel like I am being too much...

There's just so much going on and I don't know how to deal with any of it. I had plans to move to another state with my boyfriend. We had planned it while I was under 18 and I had bought the ticket. Due to the relationship with my mom I waited and then told her four days after my birthday. She went off and I felt like a bad child and decided that instead of living there I would just visit for two months but since then my relationship has been strained. Him and I got into an argument that night. He called me childish and a jerk. Due to past trauma that was very triggering for me and I had a bad reaction to it. Now everytime we text I think about what he said and think that may be he was right and I don't deserve to be in a relationship with him or anyone. I don't know what to do. The day to visit him is getting closer and closer and I just cry every night thinking about the argument and the things he had said to me.

I started with this friend group of 6 in 7th grade but 1 person in the group started becoming toxic and leading into 8th grade they would non stop make fun of me manipulate me bully me. Then I started making more friends but still friends with him and he got the rest of the group except 1 to hate on me and leave me out and call me names kick me from the groups then after that he kept manipulating me and now I told the 1 friend in the group who doesn’t hate on me that I am done that I’m no longer gonna be friends with these people in high school I can’t stand it. But who will I have now. When I drop them I will have only 3 people who actually like hanging out with me and 2 of them are girls there are other guys I can hangout with but I’m not one of there main friends

It’s not fair. She was my sister for 7.5 years and now just because my stepmom and my dad got in a fight we can’t see each other anymore. I’m never going to be able to be the same. I open Roblox and I cry because she lived that game. She played it on my iPad with my headphone on to block out the fighting. I can’t open 2 player games because we played this morning not knowing what was going to happen tonight. I can’t touch a doll, open Disney plus, hear or watch kpdh or titianjc because she lived those movies. She was my life. She was my why. I’m trying to find a new why. 1)mom 2)dad 3) bio sister 4)lyric. 5 ) “if you throw away a test do you get an A?”

I’m always so confused when my parents compare their childhood to mine. Because they had it much worse off than me, they don’t know what I feel, because I’m not them. But if nothing bad’s happened to me, why do I feel so guilty? Why do I feel so greedy? Why do I feel like a leech on my family?

So Im generally a well treated person but I feel like I lack understanding on the world around me and that nobody really gets me. Sometimes i feel like im self sabotaging myself because i dont treat myself with kindness and i end up isolating myself. I also feel too sensitive over everything and my adhd is fucking me over the things Im passionate about. I dont eat enough. Im not motivated enough to do things. I have a porn addiction. When I become self aware, I end up hating the person that I am and refuse to look at my own reflection. I tend to struggle with suicidal thoughts but am too afraid to act it out because then itd be missed potential. Im not in a financially good spot and I have a job but sometimes the first hand embarrassment and misunderstandings of instructions make it hard for me to do things with confidence. Sometimes i wish id disappear and not come back for a while. I detest anyone who has ever wronged me and i hate that i think back on it sometimes.

I think that if one day I didnt wake up . . . I might be missed. That thought scares me more than i ca admit because ive been waiting, waiting to go to sleep and wake up somewhere beyond earth wether that be heaven, hell or nothing. But I know people that love me are scared of that exact situation, my parents would cry, my siblings would hurt and my partner would mourn me. Not even just these key people, i know i would be missed and that makes it all the harder for me to feel this way. I want to go to sleep often–a smooth undisturbed sleep but i dont want to die anymore, i kinda do sure but i;; miss kissing him and holding my sisters close, ill miss my moms hugs and my dads gruff affection. I hate that “healing” wont stop these thoguhts, all therapy and counseling has really done is given me directions how to handle them and ow to cope but theyll never go away and that scares me. I dont want to feel this way forever i feel ike im rotting from the inside out.

My life is hell. In the daytime, I'm Marinette, just a normal girl with a normal life, but there is something that NO ONE knows yet. I'm Ladybug. MIRACULOUS. Let's explore the identities of our superheroes. Rena Rouge : Alya Ceisare Carapace : Nino Viperion: Luka Ryuko: Kagami Vesperia: Zoe Pegasus: Max King Monkey: Kim Pollymouse: Mylene Purple Tigress: Juleka Couffaine Pigella: Rose Couffaint Miss Hound: Sabrina Rooster Boid: Marc Caprikid : Nathaniel Minotaurox: Ivan Bunnyx: Alix Argos: Felix

The only thing I really enjoy is games. I keep losing games constantly. I’ve had potential for huge runs in poker tournaments that get cut short with a terrible card. I play board game tournaments online but no longer make it very far, and my rankings have plummeted. I don’t have anything else I really like to do, so I keep turning back to the same things and just hope that someday I’ll be good at them again, but I’m losing the enjoyment and the happiness when I felt I could compete with the people I play against. It really hurts when the only thing you really have isn’t the same as it was.

The only person whom I care about and rely too the most is moving away from me. I don't think i can love myself after they move away. I don't think i can handle all the stress without them. I don't feel like living anymore. Now i have no friends, no emotions nor a soul. What's even the point in life where i feel like nobody cares? Why do i exist? How do i live? Why can't i die without feeling any pain at all.

People need to remember kids remember everything and teens have bigger emotions my mom was doing smt with me telling me if it hurts we’ll stop and I was repeatedly telling her it hurt and telling her to stop and she was yelling at me and after she was done called me dramatic and I had to hug her and act like everything’s fine and then she wonders why I’m distant also my aunt commented on my eating once I barely had food on my plate to begin with and I threw half of it away and that’s when my eating started escalating teenagers will remember and they have bigger emotions remember that

Yo. Eat me. Eat a bag of dicks. Eat shit.