All Rants

what if i just end it all? would it really be that bad? I keep praying. im doing everything i can. has God given up on me? everyone else has. Im barely even functioning. my depressions sky high. Fuck man. i feel so empty. i feel so alone. so dead inside. i just want it to stop. why wont it stop. why do i relive what he did every fucking day. ive lost all hope. im tired. i just want to die. every. moment. of. everyday. i feel his hands like their still there. i miss my friends. i miss my family. but most of all i miss the girl i used to be. i actually watched him in the mirror above the hotel bed rip the spark out of my eyes. my mom made my kid brother (13 btw) search for my razors while i was bakeracted.

I am a 31-year-old male. I help to look after my 72-year-old father, who has parkinson's disease and has a serious mental health disorder. I am at school earning a BSN, and I am taking courses to learn coding on the side. Just to add some new skills, you know :). My father, however, becomes very verbally abusive and says just absolutely hurtful, hateful things towards my mother and me. He is very jealous and always tries to compete with me by saying he will "Go to Princeton and be the big guy on the campus and finally people will acknowledge me and see me for the genius I am. I don't care about anyone else but this. I will be the next Einstein". To my mother, he says, "I am going to divorce you and take $9,000 to Princeton and fulfill my dreams, and you or nobody else can stop me". Even though my Mother, whom is going to be 80 years old, whom I also care for, does EVERYTHING for him. Sorry for bringing this up, but the way he treats her and me sometimes is horrendous. Had to vent.

So there is a lot going on, my parents fought last night (my mom started it) it was over my father talking to a friend who is a girl mind u just a friend it got to the point where he was hitting himself saying she was hitting him (he said I had to pull a female card) after these event while me and my dad left the house so my mom could calm down BIG MISTAKE when we come up we found a Bl00dy paper towel on my parents bed she "SH" not even the next morning I wake up and my mom is pissed again for almost missing probation taking it out on me then I found out my dad threw most of my stuff that I had in MY AREA into my closet I just cleaned and organized like I don't do that to his shit its already bad I'm on my monthly my bfs bday is coming up plus ive been overthinking about if I'm good enough for bf or if I'm doing too much I'm so tired having a mind that runs miles per hour. Any advice?

There’s this girl in my class who I had a crush on and I was pretty sure she did too. I’ve never been in a situation where the other person also liked me but I don’t know how to show interest. I have too much social anxiety that i can’t even look her in the eyes for longer than a few seconds. I found out today that another guy liked her and she seemed flustered just mentioning it to her friend. Idk why but this hurts. At this point I don’t even know if she liked me or not. If she did it just shows how much I suck at anything that deals with girls. I feel like there’s no one that understands or likes me for who I actually am.

The concept of religion absolutely pisses me off, i hate videos using religion for likes and subscribers, (im an atheist by the way.)| The videos that are like "oowww Like and subscwibe if you love allah" or whatever fucked up bullshit, "god loves you" "you are a son/daughter of god" Look on my face right now and try and see if I GIVE A FUCK!!! and plus, most of the images are ai slop being used to decieve kids so they can just press a thumbs up button, (really fucking lazy, I know.) like im sorry, "jesus" Did NOT, NOT!!! bless a random motherfuckers food, Just a quick note I AM NOT hating on religion, im just saying it can be annoying at times, anyways, continuing, i hate how much my school forces christianity Right in my face, i dont WANT to pray to a god i dont believe in, and i dont have to believe in it, OK?!?! Anyways.... That was a long ride!! Thanks for reading, wish me luck i guess, buh bye

I'm exhausted from caregiving, which uses up every bit of patience I have, so there's none left for dealing with random folks' "duh" moments, self-absorption or bullshit. It's been a morning of hearing "same BS, different day" from an acquaintance who always has an excuse for not doing a certain thing on time; another person's idea to change something last minute because they forgot we do something a certain way for a reason, like duuude take notes so you remember next time, FFS; and people driving like they are the only one out and about in the world, including not pulling over to yield to emergency vehicles when everrrrryone else had pulled over. I just cannot sometimes, and I'm going to end up publicly cussing some out one of these days.

i kinda feel annoyed at my parents rn bc they cut premium off spotify and they knew i used it every second of the day my glasses literally have bent because im wearing them with my headphones sm and i just feel like it’s just random?? like i also use spotify and sure if you want me to pay for like the single person subscription thats fine but idk i feel like im making it a bigger deal and spiraling rn i just wanna listen to music without ads ???? i used tf out of it and i can pay for the subscription but like???? ik im being like idk fancy but it’s honestly smth i use everyday my parents literally got me headphones for my bday so wtf??

So hiii, this is my story about my past fling:). Just call me rene. One day when me and my bestfriend is walking on the street near my house, we walk past on two guys that looks like they're tennis table player because they pop out from a training basement, I didn't pay much attention to them cause me and my best friend are laughing together. But then after a whole minute I realized I forgot to buy something on the mini store so we go back at the street we walk past. But then my eyes finally catch the guy's eyes, we made an eye contact and suddenly my world stop. When they saw my friend giggling they also laugh and after that, I had the courage to ask for his socials and he gave it. I messaged him and yeah, we kept talking. He became my suitor and I'm so lucky to have him because he's so kind and respectful. But then his mother find out of our rs so we had to stop. I told him I would wait for him but weeks passed and he finds another girl:) and now im still longing for him.

So, I'm in 6th grade, and we have this thing called a coy card where if we do something bad, we get a signature, and if we get 3 in a week, we get detention. But I just found out that starting this year, they are doing the same thing for 5th graders! They gave no warning last year that they would start doing this, so the 5th graders are probably cooked. Like, people expect detentions in middle school, but not elementary school. THEY'RE GIVING DETENTIONS TO ELEMENTARY SCHOOLERS!! WITH NO SORT OF WARNING THAT THEY WOULD START DOING THAT BEFOREHAND! The 5th graders are COOKED Honestly, the American school system sucks in general.

Im really insecure. Im so young too and i just cant control myself from starving. My parents body shame me. Some of my classmates too. I googled my bmi online and it said that im healthy but im still so insecure i think im strarting to develop an ED. Im so scared of growing up and still having this mindset. People around me are so sexist. Im getting sexualized as an 12 yo...I get made fun of my accent by people outside my country. Im just trying to exist,thats all. I hope all of you reading this will have a good day/night. You are beautiful and you are worth it

Someone in my life agitates me to no end b/c they're so focused on being miserable that it stresses me out. They claim society has it against them while blatantly ignoring the privileges and blessings they do have while also using me as a traumaudience. I'm over them, but still keep checking up on them which frustrates me b/c I care about them, but can't keep stressing myself out to help them improve if they're not willing to do it for themselves. Even if I could solve their self-imposed dilemmas, they wouldn't recognize me for it.

Oh my god, that one teacher who thinks she’s the head of the school… where do I even start? She walks into class like she owns the place, like the whole school revolves around her and her ruler of doom. We can’t talk. We can’t move. We can’t breathe wrong, or suddenly we’re getting a 10-minute lecture on “respect” like we’re guilty of committing crimes against humanity. Homework? She assigns enough work to make NASA jealous and then acts shocked when half the class can’t do it. Quizzes? Surprise quizzes every week, because apparently, terrorizing teenagers is part of her lesson plan. And heaven forbid you ask a question. She’ll give you that look—half disgust, half horror—as if you personally offended the education system. Honestly, she’s not a teacher, she’s a full-blown anxiety generator with a chalk stick. If she actually became the head of the school, I’d probably just move to another planet.

My mom crashed out on me and my sister abt us being lazy. She LITERALLY threw ALL our clothes on the ground??? That we just cleaned??? The cleanest the room has ever been???? Our room is not your fucking rage room or some shit. It's OUR room. ANDDD she had the absolute NERVE to say "what did I do to deserve this🤧🤧🤧" SHUT UP YOUR THE ONE DOING THIS TO OUR ROOM SHE DIDNT EVEN SAY SORRY. OR "SORRY I HAD TO MESS UP THE THING YOU WERE JUST CLEANING WILL YOU FORIVE ME 🥺🥺" SHE ACTS LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED THAT FUCKING BITCH

i lost my job last year in november and it has been so hard and i loved that job so much and i got accused of doing things i never done and they still work there and havent been there that long i worked there for almost 8 years and now im at home with my baby i am just so angry at the company and the world i put my hard work into the job that i loved and it just got taken from me and it has been so hard to find a new job i keep applying but dont hear nothing from no one i miss my clients from my job i was let go from they never even looked into other staff and thats the other thing that pisses me off so much too i just want to scream at the world and alot of this has led me into a depression and it sucks i hide sometimes

I think someone is jealous of my social life and is actively trying to ruin it but I won't give them the chance. If these hidden souls want to play police but can't charge me with anything then I'm not the suspect. Nobody is forcing you to stalk me and watch my life, if you wanna get out then just go.

How can people just talk to others about how they feel. It’s so hard to actually talk to someone, because why would I just make them feel the same way I do by dumping my emotions on them? Why would I want to make someone feel the same way I do? No one deserves this. I’m young, but that doesn’t mean I’m blind to other’s suffering. I’d rather have to remember everyone’s losses rather than tell anyone how I feel. I’d rather listen to someone else for a day rather than talk to someone. What if I’m just being dramatic? What if this is just a phase? What if this is me wanting to feel horrible? It’s not something I’m even sure is real in my head. Both my parents have anxiety, one of them have depression, and I’m not sure what else. They had to’ve gave me SOMETHING, right? This can’t just be me making up how I feel. This has to be real.

i still am attracted to other people

now why. just why. why cant he want me and not my body.

I WANNA KILL MYSELF IF CONTNUE TO BE ALONE,MY LIFE DOESNT MATTER ONE FUCKING BIT,WHAT IS SO LOVEABLE ABOUT ME THAT NO PARTNER SEEMS INSTERESTED IN I WNNA DIE SO BADLY IF I DONT GET CLAIMED OR SEEN BY A GUY ROMANTICALLY OR NOT

why cant get a boyfriend,and my friends can?,am i doing something wrong or just that unloveable,i just want a MLM relatonship,where a man sees me as a guy too how much longer must i wait,i dont want to go to prom or stay single any longer why are my love choices so looked down on and why are my friends always dissaproving of them and trying to convince me that they are not right for me ,WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME JUST GIVE ME A DAMN BOYFRIEND FOR FUCK SAKE