All Rants

My wife of 7 years told me that she is in an emotional affair with someone from work and told me she wants a divorce. She said shes had feelings for this person for months. He quit. She told him how she felt, he told her he also has feelings. I am a pretty emotionally detached person. I am working on that in therapy. She told me that she feels like she doesnt know who i am because i dont talk about my feelings and my thoughts. She told me even if our marriage was rock solid she would pursue this guy. She does not want to try counseling either. I am so lost. Broken, I do not even know what to think right now. We are still living together and she still tells me she loves me too. Cuddles up to me. Its all so conflicting. I am trying to work on myself but I really only have her as my only friend and she has been being cold to me some days and doesnt want to be around me. I still want to be her friend but she is so infatuated with this other person that she only talks to me about the divorc

im actually like spiralling so bad, i have cut myself 124 times in the past 8 days.... i didnt even do it on one of the days.. like shit got so bad i started writing my letters and i mean like i have drafts on my laptop but i started writing them out by hand, in swimming my 'friends' saw my cuts and scars and started questioning me, i just stuttered a shit ton and then i dropped 2 kg in 2 wks idek whats goin on like i calculated how much shit i need to die as in like meds and like how to strangle myself and all that shit like im only alive cus i told myself that one of my friends is worse than me... i js wanna fucking die.. i dont wanna be here anymore i need help pls.. any advice?? ill take fucking anything atp im so done.

Lately all I’ve been thinking abt is killing myself. The Olny reason I think that I haven’t is because I don’t want to be the first call that my sister gets from my family in years being abt me being dead. I can’t really talk to my friends because they have their own stuff going on and all my family has stuff to deal with.

Crazy how ill spend the entire day in my room without motivation to do ANYTHING. and my parents will have the audacity to say that I'm lazy and make fun of me for it. Like that will make me want to be w/ the "family" more... But no one my age can be depressed no I'm only in middle school I'm too innocent.

This happend less then 10 minuets ago. So my step mother brought out a box and keep in mind i hate girly things. Like necklaces and stuff like that. Im not saying all necklaces are girly im just saying i hate them. Anyways she brought out this box and opended it. My brothers got MODLE KIT CARS while me and my sister got NECKLACES. I hate this really much. She also said after giving them to us 'The lady said there real silver. You can put little charms on them!" Im really pissed because she went out of her way to get my brothers something like that and then something like this for us. It seems like im being ungratefull but you have to see it from my perspective. Its Bullshit. Really it is. I am not going to wear it as i dont like stuff like that. And my younger sister had a birthday and when she asked her pink or purple my little sister answered 'Yellow!" and the party was pink and purple. ABSURD. -A

My 13 YEAR OLD brother who i younger then me is a dope head. He got a weed vape pen from a new girl in his class and ive never been more disquisted. Me and my grandma searched his room after we got home from the school and he stayed home. IT WAS ALMOST EMPTY. He has NOT faced sevear punishment at all. He is only getting his electronics removed and i think his door removed. My dad had him take a drug test but i am pissed. I do not worse stuff and get punished more. I hate this thing and have ot said a word to him and i will not. -A

I desperately want to ruin the life of the guy that groomed me in high school. Or maybe not ruin his life, just write out some of the absolute abhorrent ways he helped warp me for the worse and get it to him somehow. I want him to feel like shit, forever. This cropped up because my goofy self decided to look him up on facebook after about a year of ignoring anything in my brain related to that trauma. At some point I decided not to look at anything related to him because anything he does is not my responsibility. I wanted to move on, and about 95% of the time I have. But I get genuinely terrified he's doing it to some other poor girl. And that I do carry blame because I'm not screaming from the rooftops that he's dangerous. I'm of the belief a predator is always a predator, there's a reason so many reoffend. And I get so scared Noone will believe me or care. Or that my personal mistakes and failures mean I don't deserve to be heard. How do I hurt him.

How do you open up to people? I've always been really scared too pretty much all my life and I've faked how I've felt pretty much everywhere to the point where I mask even when im by myself but I wanna change that but I dont know how.

See the weird shit with me is that ill be able to hold my tears back during the day but I feel like I'm gonna full out bawl my eyes out if someone asks me if I'm doing ok. Luckily no one really gives a fuck about me anymore.

I hate toxic but loving parents because I know my mom genuinely hates me or something but she done so much for me. like we’ve had so many arguments and she keeps calling me an ungrateful little bitch and siding with my brother with everything??

um so a guy replied to one of rants like panicking and hb that wasn’t about you trust🥹 it was like some guy jerked off to me even tho I said no. ur good broski if u see this, wish I could reply to notes💔💔

If he still abuses me after 2 months of taking his new antidepressants, then I'm leaving his ass for good and I don't give a shit if he threatens to kill himself for the 200th time. I tried to be supportive but he needs a doctor, not a girlfriend.

Bruh I’m so done cus my moms yelling at me bc I’m tired of cleaning up after my brother constantly and I’ve been putting off my necessities for DAYS because of it

I lost weight for you, went to therapy for you, cured my pelvic dysfunction for you, grew out my hair for you, wore makeup and feminine clothes for you, cooked for you, cleaned up after you, and you still hate me. 🙁

I've stopped looking both ways before crossing the street because I genuinely don't care if I die lol I'm such a fucking loser 😂😂😂

How do you do it when so many people are dependent on you for so long? Ive done this for 15 years, no village. Just me. Every. single. day. for years on end. I don't care about anything anymore. I don't care if I eat. I dont care if I ever see the light of day again. I dont care if I ever talk to another soul. I don't care if I make it out alive. I do not care. Ive dwindled down to almost 100 pounds. My hair is falling out. Im constantly sick and in chronic pain. Who tf cares.

ive experienced sexaul harassment online before, and ive been sexually assaulted by two of my friends..🫠

I love you so much. i hope we last long. i hope your courtship goes through my parents well. soon. when we get older.

You take care of them and let them live at your place after their ex kick them out. They get a job, move out, make new friends and cut you off. A year later, all the new friends ditch them and now they're wanting to be friends again. We're in our 30s btw, I'm sorry but I'm too old to do this dumb shit. Yes I blocked her after she contacted me again.

"Oh children can't have mental health issues they're too young!" genuinely stfu