All Rants

My 16 year old ADHD friend did meth and I don’t know how to feel about it I’m in shock

my mother ask if im fine i say yes no im not i wanna die but i can't tell her that i cant tell her the baby girl she gave birth to wants to take her own life even if i did she would not understand to would send me to a hospital she says a person can't even choke their own self but she does not know that was me a few days ago im useless compared to me pretty perfect little sister always smiling laughing good grades lots of friends why am i even here i ask my self crying in my bed all alone my father hates me i thinks its because im just scum next to her my dark hair eyebags sucks at sports dumb now what do i die do i focuses on school and even worse i made myself look like the one always laughing so when im sad its just a prank or im fine but im was fucking crying on my bathroom floor with a pill bottle in my hand why me why this pain what did i do i hate everyone and everything

I'm so tired of everyone and everything i wanna disappear and never come back not kill myself just gone would anyone care would they look for the mean friend the horrible daughter the bully of a sister my mother just sees a porn addict who can't be with a screen for longer than a day then i try something i just felt unloved not cared for my father hates me my mother does not believe i can be anything but a porn addict girls are mean boys are meaner i think to myself is this all there is to life I don't wanna die but im tired of life there is no happy moments everything i have ever loved was taken from me so know what I don't wanna grow up and faced the world and its problem's I'm scared

I just feel so tired. My friends and family talk shit about me or just make me the butt of their jokes. I’m constantly ignored by people and when im finally able to express myself I’m seen as weird or obnoxious and I’m sick of it. I just want to lay down and cry or just out a gun in my mouth. I’m sick of how I’m treated. My anxiety has been through the roof and now I’m starting to question if I’m even in love with my partner or if they even love me and it’s stressing me out cause I’m meeting with her soon. My body dysmorphia is through the roof. I relapsed on my self harm recently. I can’t talk to the one person I feel safe with till break is over. I always want to just cry till I can’t feel anything. I’m exhausted

anytime my parents actually try to care for once they always try and act nice at first saying oh do you feel loved? i dont care what the answer is but when i try to actually be open about it they always start saying that im not grateful and that i dont appreciate the things they do for me like providing me with food, clothes, shelter, etc but even then they literally only see me as an investment, my mom literally said they "invested" all this money into me and called me a waste

Ok this is probably the worst time to post this considering how I have my exams the next sunrise which is a few hours from now and I really should prepare for it..... But I was scrolling through my phone checking whether or not I'm accidentally missing out on a friend's birthday and yes I ended up scrolling further. I stumbled upon a few writings I had posted before about a fleeting crush, or simply missing an old friend or just romanticising...life and this weird melancholic sensation embraced my chest with such proximity that almost made me...still. "This is beautifully written." That's what came into my mind when I first read it and the thing is back then I might not have thought that highly of what I posted but looking back I miss who i was...quite a lot. "I don't like who i am becoming" ,This feeling has stayed constant with me over the years yet somehow when my future self looks back at the past she has blamed a couple of times she is the first one to smile at her...to miss her.

sometimes tbh i just want to end everything not like i want to kill myself maybe i do but to end the suffering my parents when i need them the most behave like i don't exist it hurts i am just a teen who just wants a happy family but i guess i am not that lucky enough i just hate my sister iever since i was a kid she abused me beat me just because i was a girl and she wanted a brother y mom had a miscarrige after me i was very young i don't even remember when did this happend my sister abused me beat me and told me ahe wish i was dead instead of my brother ughhhh i don't know what to do anymore because there's so much to say but still can't express it i need therepy seriously but my parents don't take mental health seriously i do't know what to dooooo

I just want to wallow. No obligations, just rot in my bed until I feel better. I can't see past the cobwebs of the negatives in my life to find anything good to hold on to. I want to cry, my voice is quiet, and I've never been so desperately lonely.

I hate myself. I genuinely don't know what's wrong with me. I'm privileged enough to have nice things, to have a family, and to have people who support me. Yet, sometimes I feel like I just want to stop living. Sometimes I feel like punishing myself because I couldn't get this score or I couldn't make myself study. I feel the need to harm myself because I deserve it. I'm in this class that is kinda considered the honors class, and I feel like i'm so left behind. Do I even belong here?? I feel so shit.. i feel disgusting.. I feel ugly... It's even worse when I feel envious for my friends getting a love life when I have better things to worry but I can't stop feeling it. I can't stop being a sensitive bitch I can't stop crying over little things and my mom says to control it but I can't and then I end up crying more how do I even stop this????? I think im getting better but today it felt worse and I wanted to let it out

my online girlfriend aint gonna be able to talk to me anymore for 3 months. Im spiraling. I feel so paranoid. I love her so much, she makes me so happy. I feel like shes the only good thing ive done with my life

I just don't understand the logic of Qld Police, they claim they are concerned about dangerous drivers and do nothing when you report hundreds of them like the following. 4pm 19th of March Kessels and Logan Rd and Logan Rd and Mt Gravatt/Capalaba Rd Hundreds do the same illegal and dangerous driving with no police present even those there is a police station close by Driving through the red with pedestrians on green walk signal Female driver of hatchback with pink numbers and letters on black background number plate, stopped on the slip road crossing next to Garden City and when pedestrians stepped onto crossing speed up nearly running down the pedestrians and drove off at speed. _--------- Wilkie St many think it is unlimited speed 5.15pm 19th March A driver of a grey hatchback turning right from Wilkie St into Crichton St Yeerongpilly at speed nearly running down a pedestrian crossing Crichton and nearly running into a white vehicle on Wilkie St Etc etc etc etc etc

I don’t wanna be in this world. Not in a suicidal way, but in a way where if this world wasn’t.. this world, I’d wanna actually be here. In my head, an apocalyptic world where there’s only children-animal hybrids that only survived because their immune system was stronger or something would be perfect. Not one where there was fighting and kids doing not kid stuff, but one where everyone made an agreement to have communities and try not to harm anyone. Of course, there would be kids who WILL cause trouble, but the majority doesn’t. That is the perfect world. (Also this isn’t in a furry/therian way, just in a sweet tooth show like world but only children (I REALLY HOPE THIS DOESNT SOUND WEIRD-)

i hate how i sweat around people i want to talk to, its embarrassing i feel ugly

I really dont want to meet people who knows me

Can I just hide myself somewhere?

I feel all my friends and things that I used to find comfort in are disappearing, like I'm the one that doesn't want to engage with what I once loved...no one seems to listen now, or share the same interests that I do. and ask me "Why won't you just talk to me! Theres so much to talk about!" Then turn around and just zone out on me when I do wanna chat...then make me feel I'm the problem...Thank you for reading...

what if i just end it all? would it really be that bad? I keep praying. im doing everything i can. has God given up on me? everyone else has. Im barely even functioning. my depressions sky high. Fuck man. i feel so empty. i feel so alone. so dead inside. i just want it to stop. why wont it stop. why do i relive what he did every fucking day. ive lost all hope. im tired. i just want to die. every. moment. of. everyday. i feel his hands like their still there. i miss my friends. i miss my family. but most of all i miss the girl i used to be. i actually watched him in the mirror above the hotel bed rip the spark out of my eyes. my mom made my kid brother (13 btw) search for my razors while i was bakeracted.

I am a 31-year-old male. I help to look after my 72-year-old father, who has parkinson's disease and has a serious mental health disorder. I am at school earning a BSN, and I am taking courses to learn coding on the side. Just to add some new skills, you know :). My father, however, becomes very verbally abusive and says just absolutely hurtful, hateful things towards my mother and me. He is very jealous and always tries to compete with me by saying he will "Go to Princeton and be the big guy on the campus and finally people will acknowledge me and see me for the genius I am. I don't care about anyone else but this. I will be the next Einstein". To my mother, he says, "I am going to divorce you and take $9,000 to Princeton and fulfill my dreams, and you or nobody else can stop me". Even though my Mother, whom is going to be 80 years old, whom I also care for, does EVERYTHING for him. Sorry for bringing this up, but the way he treats her and me sometimes is horrendous. Had to vent.

So there is a lot going on, my parents fought last night (my mom started it) it was over my father talking to a friend who is a girl mind u just a friend it got to the point where he was hitting himself saying she was hitting him (he said I had to pull a female card) after these event while me and my dad left the house so my mom could calm down BIG MISTAKE when we come up we found a Bl00dy paper towel on my parents bed she "SH" not even the next morning I wake up and my mom is pissed again for almost missing probation taking it out on me then I found out my dad threw most of my stuff that I had in MY AREA into my closet I just cleaned and organized like I don't do that to his shit its already bad I'm on my monthly my bfs bday is coming up plus ive been overthinking about if I'm good enough for bf or if I'm doing too much I'm so tired having a mind that runs miles per hour. Any advice?

There’s this girl in my class who I had a crush on and I was pretty sure she did too. I’ve never been in a situation where the other person also liked me but I don’t know how to show interest. I have too much social anxiety that i can’t even look her in the eyes for longer than a few seconds. I found out today that another guy liked her and she seemed flustered just mentioning it to her friend. Idk why but this hurts. At this point I don’t even know if she liked me or not. If she did it just shows how much I suck at anything that deals with girls. I feel like there’s no one that understands or likes me for who I actually am.