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my gf hasn't been talking 2 me lately... miss her.. my baby :( tried to talk 2 her today but no answer.. me love answer me!!!!!!!111!!!!1!!!11!!1

I’ve been thinking about trying to OD. I found out from somewhere that it takes like 200mg of ibuprofen per pound to do it, and I think I have enough at my house to try that. But I also read somewhere that a lot of OD attempts don’t work, so idk. I just wanna tell someone how I feel, but idk how. My parents wouldn’t ever trust me to be around sharp stuff or pills if they found out about this, and I can’t tell my therapist bc she has to tell my parents. Don’t wanna tell my friends bc that makes me feel like an attention seeker, and I know how shitty it feels to try and comfort someone with s_icidal thoughts. Idk what to do :(

im a queer poc and my friends are not the people i think they were. one of my other friends is also queer but she weirdly gives out “the pass” to others and forced my other friend to say the f slur. shes gotten comfortable with saying it and im genuinely just confused. we’ve always agreed that saying slurs is bad because well its common sense but shes switching up now. she also has a friend that regularly says the n word even though shes white. i feel incredibly uncomfortable around them because my friends constantly dismiss her and jokingly say “you cant be racist right now! [my name] is here!” ???? they constantly make jokes about how im asian and i just don’t feel comfortable. i don’t want to turn out like them excusing this kind of behavior. its so hard letting go of them though since they have been my closest friends forever and they were there for me at my lowest. i am grateful for that but i cannot keep being friends with them

I wish the past couple years were just a nightmare I could just wake up from, why do things keep going wrong, what do you do when you know something bad is gonna happen but you can't do anything to stop it, and the days going forward are going to be full of even more shame and misery than I already feel right now, what did I do to deserve this, what's the point of trying to keep going, ever since getting into college I've felt such intense mental distress I feel unwell but don't know what to do about it, I just want life to get better

There's this girl I've liked for a while, and honestly, I don't even know how to explain how much I care about her without sounding ridiculous. She's straight, and I've already told her that I like her. She was actually really kind about it, which somehow makes it harder because I can't even be upset with her or blame her for anything. I know she can't control who she's attracted to, and I don't expect her to suddenly feel the same way. I just wish she did. I still have feelings for her, though. I've been trying to just be her friend and act normal, but it's so much harder than I thought it would be. I'll notice little things about her, overthink conversations, wonder whether she actually likes having me around, and then convince myself that I'm probably being annoying or making things awkward without even realizing it. I wish I could just be different . Like if I looked more like the kind of person she likes, it would have been different.

I just sobbed my eyes out to my dog and now I'm listening to the fucking Verity Song (It's me, it's Verity) what is wrong with me /hj

i love my parents so much but idk y i shut them out of my life and act rudely to them. i always feel extremely guilty right after bc ik it’s wrong but it just happens. i act like i’m annoyed whenever they try to talk to me but when it’s other ppl it’s doesn’t bother me. idk what’s wrong me. i wish i was a better daughter to them and i feel sorry they have to have someone like me in their life. sometimes i think about whether they regret having me compared to my brother bc he’s a better person.

idk y but i always feel so insecure about myself whether it’s about my looks, my intelligence, or how well i perform my hobbies. the ppl around always look at me like im crazy and dismiss my feeling when i voice my frustration about these things. i feel so dumb compared to the ppl around me whenever i struggle so hearing ppl say those things makes me feel like maybe i am actually crazy. i hate the way i look whenever i look into the mirror but my friends tell me im pretty whenever i say i feel ugly. then again isn’t that what friends r supposed to say? i mean what kind of friend would tell u ur ugly to ur face? i wish i could be the person i want to be but no matter how hard i try, it never works. i always feel so guilty about myself and how this kind set but can u blame me? ik there’s always gonna be someone better than me, prettier than me, smarter than me; yet i still can’t accept the person i am. bc of this i end up shutting ppl out of my life when things get hard and act rudely

taking my antidepressants with choccy milk that's how my life be fr fr

Hi. This is so unfair. hahaha I had the hardest time doing that assignment and got no credit. Wtf. Hahaha. Then when someone else makes a mistake, they're willing to help. But when it's me, “assignment,” “you figure it out.” Wtf!!

for ten years, I have planned to enlist in the marine corps. after high school, I got into things i shouldn’t have and when I got better … i realized if i enlisted, would I come back from combat and be able to have a German shepherd as a dog, so I used my dog as an excuse just to fulfill that purpose. Now that my dog has passed… I came to the realization that it’s now or never considering the age cut off to enlist. I always knew I wanted to be married with someone as partners in everything life has to offer. I have this fear of bleeding out in a field knowing i could die alone with not one woman that I have experienced love with. I’d hate to die knowing I never had love. I don’t mean to pressure the girl but it felt so real that I couldn’t let it go. I thought to myself…”could she be the one?” “Could she be the one to present herself maturely with my reputation” “would she be able to sit pretty while I have an undying urge to provide”

Im gonna go hang myself now hope it works this time Take care of yourselves and love you all (PLATONICALLY.)!! Bye!!

Stressssss, so stresss. Nothing is working out in life

WHHEREEEE IS MY DICKKKKKKK I HATE BEING AFABBBB

she doesn’t like me because she likes him.

It's so cold outside why are we outside

I want it to happen again, for real this time. I want to be sa'd again, but not like the other 2 times, I want it to happen FOR REAL Its not even valid he only touched my ass he was drunk anyways does that even count???? I want it to happen soon bad I jst wanna be touched im so fucking disgusting why am I thinking of these things im so gross I cant stop im gonna kms

Still grieving over my mom who passed last year but sister told me to get over it since she's already deceased when I was acting iffy towards my dad's girlfriend of a few months during a road trip. I'm happy for my dad, and his girlfriend is a nice woman but I don't want to be associated with them together as a couple, and her potentially becoming my stepmom just worsens these feelings. He never did many things for my mom and she never asked anything from him since she knew he worked hard and I felt as though he barely reciprocated her love for him when he fell in love with her first and didn't let her visit her own family much (Hated my uncles on the maternal side though so I can understand why, liked aunts tho) so I'm just feeling anger towards him. I honestly hate myself as well because after I was born my mom got fatter and she became insecure of her body, I regret not hugging and telling her I loved her more and I feel like I'm a burden because of my idiocy + incompetence.

my friend recently went back to California for school, I have noticed that I built an anxious attachment with her which is not good. I usually go to her for these kinds of problems but it doesn't seem like either of us know what to do or how to handle it. What has been bothering me the most is she doesn't do the things she used to do that made me happy, whether that's randomly texting, calling often, and just communicating more.

Nah i understand why my cousin is so emo now he had to put up with this bullshit (why the fuck am I taking a walk outside at 9 p fucking m with my grandma ten feet behind me constantly fat shaming me)