All Rants

I'm the one who shot Trump I don't know what to do Im scared some one might find out who I am

My friend Runa has been my best friend for a really long time. I realize that I think about her a lot, and I might wanna be more than friends, but I can't really tell if she likes me back. I'm scared of asking her out because she might say no. She hasn't told me who she likes, and I don't know if she even likes anyone. But she might like some one else

how do you make friends in your 30s? i never see advice i can actually take. it's always things like meet people at work (i have many work friends but every time i make plans outside of work theyre rejected). or go to meetings/clubs that interest you (they all happen during my work day or too late at night; i cant go places at 9pm on a thursday when i cant drive it adds hours of travel time). i don't have money to join most things anyway, and going places consistently is very hard if you can't afford to. not to mention im responsible for my partner's mental health keeping me tied to home. i don't drink and i don't do well in crowds. so how do you make friends in your 30s cause im starting to think the answer is that i don't

yk how dramatic u were being earlier when u realise how much it hurts to tell someone u sh and have attempted and u might actually do it again and they js say oh ur not special were all like this ur being dramatic even when u already showed them ur arms that are so covered u nearly dont have any more space and they show u nothing cus they have nothing and they say that ur js attention seeking.. and then they wonder y ur so quiet and u never tell anyone anything..-f/g

I hate being gay. I feel like it’s only made my life worse and making friends harder. Dating is basically a no go since I’m not a 10/10. The best I can do is hope I’m good enough at sex to convince someone to stay generally interested in me.

"promise tosleep tonight" lstay up* "I promise to be active!" *I sleep allday" promise toeat today" *doesnt eat* "I promise to not get made when my dadeats desserts I MADE" Eyes at hima "I promise not to hurt myself" *l attempt "I promise not to back out onplans" *I lie to get out"

Im going to the doctor’s office tomorrow, monday. Im fucking terrified, im overweight as hell, especially for my age. My periods really bad, not normal at all. i have to do lab tests, take blood. Wtf will she say abt my weight? Im js a stupid fat ahh. Fuck me bro.

I'm terrified of people. I can't go anywhere without feeling judged.

my baby doggy passed away due to lung cancer, when i was 10. My family didnt like him and only my dad had a realtionship with him, however he was my best friend, seriously. He only lived to be 7, we was turning 8 in a few months. I remember the day VIVIDLY. I come from a Christian family, so they were all praying downstairs with my nana (grandma) while i was in my room sobbing. Fast forward a few years, i a still grieve, its hard for me to do stuff when i think about him, i still constantly cry. Today, my brother said i didnt miss him, or react bad when he passed. But i did? I didnt talk to anyone about my feelings, i begged god to take me in my sleep to see him, i begged. It was 1am, the night after. I was sobbing my heart out into a pillow that was wet from my tears, I literally cryed every single night after it happened. I begged my lord to take me away from this earth, just to see him again. I screamed, i cryed and i begged. But thats just not enough for him i guess.

if you want a better manifesto read the works of the painted bird, and blood meridian, and site meta-nihilism, metaphysical-nihilism, body horror, and misanthropy. i hate flesh. i hateall of conciousness, which is a fatal mistep in evolutions path. nothingness is the only truth. my death contributes nothing to nothing and its the only end. all things are born to race from the mistake of being created to death. purpose is made up. there is no greater goal. i dont want to be remembered. i dont crave death, i want to have never having existed. people are horrible and evil. the same goes for any and all life forms. i hate the innerworkings of life. i want alienation from my mind. everything should just stop existing and beautiful moments are contemporary in the void. life is a progression to the singularity. everything returns to nothing. killing myself is more effort then i want to put into nothingness. all actions are meaningless texture to distract yourself from nothingness.

I was fine about a year ago… til I wasn’t. I’m ftm but closeted with homophobic parents and I’ve been feeling really bad and it’s gotten to the point that I’m suicidal. I’ve given signs to almost everyone. (Played songs about suicide, SHOWED MY MOM MY SH, told my brother I needed help, and even litterly said I sh to a freind.) nobody noticed. My life is a living hell. The pain I get from cutting myself feels better than I thought. I don’t know how much more of this life I can take.

I lowkey have feelings for my hb but who knows

everything is going to shit the only thing i have to look forward to is my package on the way and gucci morty reels

i have an eating disorder and ive told nobody

my gf hasn't been talking 2 me lately... miss her.. my baby :( tried to talk 2 her today but no answer.. me love answer me!!!!!!!111!!!!1!!!11!!1

I’ve been thinking about trying to OD. I found out from somewhere that it takes like 200mg of ibuprofen per pound to do it, and I think I have enough at my house to try that. But I also read somewhere that a lot of OD attempts don’t work, so idk. I just wanna tell someone how I feel, but idk how. My parents wouldn’t ever trust me to be around sharp stuff or pills if they found out about this, and I can’t tell my therapist bc she has to tell my parents. Don’t wanna tell my friends bc that makes me feel like an attention seeker, and I know how shitty it feels to try and comfort someone with s_icidal thoughts. Idk what to do :(

im a queer poc and my friends are not the people i think they were. one of my other friends is also queer but she weirdly gives out “the pass” to others and forced my other friend to say the f slur. shes gotten comfortable with saying it and im genuinely just confused. we’ve always agreed that saying slurs is bad because well its common sense but shes switching up now. she also has a friend that regularly says the n word even though shes white. i feel incredibly uncomfortable around them because my friends constantly dismiss her and jokingly say “you cant be racist right now! [my name] is here!” ???? they constantly make jokes about how im asian and i just don’t feel comfortable. i don’t want to turn out like them excusing this kind of behavior. its so hard letting go of them though since they have been my closest friends forever and they were there for me at my lowest. i am grateful for that but i cannot keep being friends with them

I wish the past couple years were just a nightmare I could just wake up from, why do things keep going wrong, what do you do when you know something bad is gonna happen but you can't do anything to stop it, and the days going forward are going to be full of even more shame and misery than I already feel right now, what did I do to deserve this, what's the point of trying to keep going, ever since getting into college I've felt such intense mental distress I feel unwell but don't know what to do about it, I just want life to get better

There's this girl I've liked for a while, and honestly, I don't even know how to explain how much I care about her without sounding ridiculous. She's straight, and I've already told her that I like her. She was actually really kind about it, which somehow makes it harder because I can't even be upset with her or blame her for anything. I know she can't control who she's attracted to, and I don't expect her to suddenly feel the same way. I just wish she did. I still have feelings for her, though. I've been trying to just be her friend and act normal, but it's so much harder than I thought it would be. I'll notice little things about her, overthink conversations, wonder whether she actually likes having me around, and then convince myself that I'm probably being annoying or making things awkward without even realizing it. I wish I could just be different . Like if I looked more like the kind of person she likes, it would have been different.

I just sobbed my eyes out to my dog and now I'm listening to the fucking Verity Song (It's me, it's Verity) what is wrong with me /hj