All Rants

I’m just so pissed already. I dont wanna try, I dont wanna talk to them, I dont wanna heal anyone, I just want everything to be normal. Without this “we are trio, but i still prefer her more than you.” Everyone seems to prefer someone else over me. I’m so annoyed thag they dont even care, dont even see that they leave me out. I dont give a fucking fuck about your problems, just tell me straight to my face if you dont wanna be friends with me, I DONT CARE. I’m just tired.

Dear imaginary lover, I hope I was ur only thought today I hope you yearned for my presence like the moon does the sun Ur love for me never to be extinguished even as darkness falls I hope you missed me today Wanted to hold my hand just for a moment Just to feel my gentle fingers through your hair I hope I crossed your mind today Amidst all your chaotic thoughts I hope I was one of them I hope u noticed me today Even for a brief moment Where you'd look at me with a lingering sense of familiarity I hope for today knowing there won't be a tomorrow As one suppresses the thought of death while cutting deeper into the wound I laugh at my own thoughts With my imaginary lover Laughing at my foolish hope For love in this miserable short life I, know tomorrow is never guaranteed But oh how I would love to die hoping I’d loved you? -hopelessromantic

The Devil is in California and he's already causing pain to people.

I miss him. Everyday its harder. Knowing someone is still alive but cannot be with you at this time is torture. You start to realize how much you took for granted. I wish the authorities never got involved. I want to go home. The world lacks color and music lacks sound since hes been away from me. He said he loves me, that I am still his everything, but distance is hard for an overthinker... I want to go back home. I want to cook our meals. I want to play our games. I want to cuddle on the couch and watch our shows together. The defining moment will be April 27th... I hope the lord has heard me cry every hour for the last 2 weeks and is willing to help... I don't know if I can handle another loss so devastating. This is up there with losing my mother, only hes alive and well... I am desparate for him. My soul is shattered and may only be mended when we are finally together and can repair what was broken. Please lord help... pray for me... pray for us.. I do not want to lose my future.

i lost the man i love. it was me who walked away and i really thought i was doing the right think but now he's not mine anymore. i guess this part of me always thought i could have him for myself... he loved me a lot, i know that. we were in a relationship and i was the one who ended things, it was me who walked away so why does it still hurt so darn much? that girls looks so sweet that i cant even bring myself to hate her. i love him, i love him so fucking much but i have to pretend to be happy for him. i thought it wouldnt work out cuz he is from a diff religion but honestly rn i dont give a fuck- all i can think of is him and everyday i yearn for him. i love him like he painted the sky blue- without him i cant fucking BREATHE, all of me yearns for him. i will never be able to love someone the way i loved him. everything fucking hurts. i miss him, i miss him so fucking much. but hes not mine anymore... he'll always be my first priority, now it seems like i dont even matter to him...

I'm weak, a big disappoinment, to my family, my wife, my daughter. MY SELF. I'm a big mistake I'm angry I'm sad I'm tired.

Everybody leaves, the saddest and hardest part, your own blood relative. When everything is going well for them, and he offered you support, but then dropped you off.

Why? You wanted to believe, yet it feels like nothing is unfolding. They said he has a plan, plan on what? Keeping my faith, keep on beleiving, but nothing changes. I know I done a lot of unappropriate things, hatred included. But I feel heavy, so I wanted to move on. Start over they say, nothing is too late they say. Maybe its easy for them because they have all the means that they need to start. How about those who don't?

How is the owner of the cesspool Belfast Breakfast Baps, ok to abuse and critical of others but when it comes to others who criticise him, he becomes weak. In short can dish it out, but can't take it sob sob

i am frustrated onon my parents because of their continues.. fights ...i mean why not geta divorce...they don't even know hiw much its affecting their children..they are just too selfish to even think about it.... urgh i am so frustrated that i don't know hiw to calm myself...i don't have friends, family members or anyone that i can talk about..

i am frustrated on my parents continues fight

The Australian Labor Government massive changes to The NDIS without consulting with the Disabled Community especially organisations, rather than go after mining industry with increased taxes is clear evidence The Labor Government don't care for the disabled and have no Empathy for them and are controlled by the mining industry.

My literature teacher has been a pain up my arse since day 1, she caught some email thing between me and my friend and it was my friend saying a swear word which yeah looks bad but she exploded the situation into something 10x what it needed to be. Now she assigned work and told us to submit it to our lit reps so I did what she asked then today I checked my class announcements and she wrote that only one person which wasn’t me had submitted the work and I felt extremely angered because I did the work and I did what she asked so not only did I feel wronged I genuinely feel like I’ve never hated a teacher more than I hate her in this moment. They are supposed to be educators and not some useless garbage like she is.

Okay so I have this friend I gonna call her Kari (ain't her actual name) she has been my friend for 3 years but I starting to see a pattern that everytime anything good happens she threats to harm herself among other things and it starting to take affects on my other relationships I don't know what to do....

What's something you have to deal with regularly that nobody else seems to understand? No one understands how hard it is to be a caregiver. Putting your life on hold, growing older as each day and year passes. Never feeling good enough and always having to deal with stress, anxiety, and depression, no one understands. I feel like I'm on autopilot 24/ 7. The same things happen over and over again. My life is a mess and I just wish I had someone I could cry and laugh with.

I'm so tired of feeling alone. Dating sites don't work. My friends both RL and online are happy, why can't I be? What's wrong with me? Why am I so messed up? Why can't I be the one someone loves and adores? Am I so behind in life that I'm going to be alone forever?

i sometimes think to disappear so that all of the stress, problems and hatred to self will be gone.

Why I am not good at socializing? Why I am Introvert and so shy? Why I am so scared to speak for myself? Why I am not good at communicating? Why I am so dumb? Why can't I just stop over thinking and just be happy? Why I am me?

i feel so stressed i have abusive parents my mom mostly have been abusing me since i was rlly little it started with words and discipline and then physically shed beat me when i turned like 8 or 9 i started to explore my body and i was reallly curious about it id watch porn and explicit videos and my parents later found out about it they yelled and mentally abused and hurt me my parents beat me with hangers, wires, charging ports, wooden spoons, and js anything they have at the moment it rlly does hurt because i cant escape; my family are rich and i have other family members that abuse theyre children too i couldnt go to them if i wanted to i hate my "african househould" when they think abuse is justified and js discipline i never get to do anything my parents treat my siblings better. this has been going on for so long i jsut wanna die and cry ic ut myself and im scared of reporting anyhting because my mom is pregnant and i rlly js dont wanna go into a bad foster home :(

I can’t open up to people about things whatsoever unless I’m in certainty that they will understand. I had interests I trusted people to know, shows I liked, music I liked, but I can’t share anything anymore. Even in my own family. If I say that I like something people give me weird looks. My family asks why I’m not going to tell them with open arms certain things and then proceed to give me an "euuggghhh.. okay.." look when it isn’t something they’ve heard of. When I’m being creative for myself I don’t share because I’ll be forced to explain every crevice of the piece, and after that eternally judged. I’ve been attacked for my interests so many times by so many people when they’re just normal. My heart and interests and desires are things that take work to dig at, even with those I’m close to. Even if I loved a person with all of my heart and were ready to be as vulnerable as I could with them I don’t know if I could open up about things. I’m too sensitive.