All Rants

Some ppl need to realize if ur befriending horrible ppl even when others tells you to your face that their horrible and u proceed to ignore it and just excuse it you have a low self worth,

I keep crying because every night and it’s too late to talk to anyone or tell them how I’m feeling and I thought I was recovering from Sh and suicidal thoughts but I don’t think that’s the case I need help please anyone :(

Happy! I think im finally growing out of ai chat bots i had a terrible addiction to them since 13 and now theyre boring and unfun to talk to it makes me so happy

My deviated septum causes pressure in my legs. What should I do?

My brother doesn’t know how to handle his emotions. He takes actions by their flaws and sees them as personal, he acts insecure when nobody cares, and he lashes out violently and loud and angrily. He hasn’t done any truly serious harm, but he emotionally hurt my mom, my dad is avoidant, and I can’t seem to get away from it. It’s always near me, in my room leading back to me and I just can’t escape. I wish he would act mature and leave me alone.

Im homophobic listen before you start judging, I really hate myself for it but when I see lesbians or gay people I just feel sick and at myself aswell I dont want to be bisexual and I try to push the feelings down for girls but abt other people, I dont say anything to them or give dirty looks I say I support them because I wana but my brain just won't let me and I dont know why I'm like this and I really do hate myself for it

My girlfriend is cutting herself and I don’t know what to do, she always acts fine but I see cuts on her thighs and arms I fear that talking to her about it will make her mad or sad but the worst part about it is that I’m doing the same thing

nobody cares about me last time i vented to my grandma i felt an terrified pain in my stomach after that. i get yelled at for not being perfect, and get told i'm supposed to be the good one. MA'AM I HAVE TRAUMA. and i know no one cares. because who will randomly find this? NO ONE. and i get treated like ai for example it's like "Hey can you draw me an scary girl with one eye?" me: sure! *draws it* *the person steals the art and it gets 10k views* then that just repeating over and over.

i hate when people forget things, not because im mad at them but because i will never not think about my moms brain dying due to cancer and her forgetting everything while her family watched. it hurts, i hate grief fuck cancer

everything hurts but it feels like nothing at the same time. and it feels like all my family is disappointed in me. and that they want me dead.

i feel like i feel nothing. i feel like i'm drawing. and that everyone wants me dead. it makes me want to k*ll mys*lf.

my intrusive thoughts are so bad I have to distract myself but I just can’t .i think about cutting every day and nothing makes it better and if I go to a therapist they’ll tell my parents .im severely mentally ill but (because of previous reason) I can’t get help

I did something socially unacceptable about 8 yrs ago and plp think its okay to say that if I died they should cheer. It’s crazy to me like I’m not a life? someones something?

I need to stop crying sh the songs that remind me of when I was little. It’s so stupid but I miss the childhood my mom tried to give me. She worked so hard and for so long just for the man she married to cheat on her and cheat her out of everything. I miss soft lights on Christmas, and the snow I used to walk barefoot on for fun, the feeling of calmness, everything was still. I remember what I got one of my first Christmases. Now I have to celebrate it in an apartment because I lost my home, my Mom has no connection within it to decorate it. I’m so fucking numb yet I hurt so much in so many more ways. I wish I died a long time ago, I wouldn’t be in this terrible spot if I had, I’m so ready to go

I don’t miss us. I miss who I was before everything hurt.

I'm so bad with kids, I literally freeze and say nothing and just stare at them. After a few seconds I can see them getting confused and weirded out or even getting upset. I don't hate kids (don't necessarily love them either) but they feel like a different species altogether. I have always had extreme social anxiety so I am already awful at social skills. I try to get better a lot and read self help and put myself out there, but then I have to deal with a little kid and I realize how delusional I was thinking I was making progress. I instantly feel like a monster who can't connect with human emotions in their most primitive form, and I hide it by dressing up and trying to have a social life with adults. It ruins my mood and I begin to question my existence or why I am allowed nice things if even children don't like me.

Finding out i was an accident by my parents makes my life feel so worthless it's kinda like i wanted to do all these things and now what i wasn't supposed to be here so why do i owe anyone anything if i dont get my dream life like i want then im probably just going to kill myself bc whats the point

I hate being trans so much. I can’t fucking take it anymore. I’m tired of being jealous of cis men, im tired of not being accepted or everyone thinking im girl. I can’t do it.

Honestly i want to have something wrong with me so bad i had severe depression and i was cutting myself and considering killing myself only to be told i have vitamin d deficiency :| i dont want to take the pills and i haven't because i prefer being how i am rn

I miss my cigarettes :( i finally admitted to the only trusted adult ik that i smoke and gave them to hik to throw away and i miss them sm i want a ciggy sooo bad