All Rants

i want to have control over others. i want somebody to look up to me and depend on me. i always end up befriending people shyer than me or smaller than me so i can help them but i just get sick of them so quickly, even though i love the attention they give. i'm an asshole

Quit whining and show me your arms, fucking bitch.

There is this friend that I love a lot and I have known for over half of my life. She doesn’t talk to me anymore and we are really distant now.

My brother says he isn’t making any friends at school and I feel really bad for him but I can’t really do anything since he is in sixth grade and I’m in eighth and we have different lunch times and classes. He keeps saying how he is jealous that I have friends, but I don’t know how to tell him that I don’t really have any friends either. I have my original, very good friends, but I don’t have a lot. Like what if I have a period where I don’t have any friends? I have tried making friends but they always didn’t work out or I embarrassed myself. I don’t know how to make deep connections with people and I don’t know how to get people to like me more.

Hi I’m 13 years old I just started middle school and I thought things would change since the last day of seventh grade but it’s the same I feel like I’m not making any friends. Sure I have my other friends but sometimes it just gets depressing for me when they have other people to hang out with and I just have to wait for them to be done talking or come back to me. I want to make more friends but I just don’t know how to start conversations.

I need to admit It im a horrible toxic pos im rude to my friends and im homophobic to two that are dating eachother both girls btw and I dont really feel bad for being homophobic to them I think its gross and disgusting but if it was anyone other than my friends I support them and I dont understand why I think I need help but I dont want to tell anyone the way I feel because I'll be judged for it

i went out of my way to come see you when i can’t even drive, i told you i was so excited to come see you, and you thought all i wanted was to sleep in your bed. i was dealt bad luck in social interactions the whole day and you didn’t think i wanted to spend time with you? i could tell by the way your cousin spoke, from what i overheard from your mom, and the fact that everything was going wrong on my way there, that i shouldn’t have even left my house.

looping until death rounds my corner God I fucking can't take a break from myself. I feel as if I want to punch myself against a wall But it seems so fucking weird I hate them, anything, things That remind me of the silence I was told to be Everything feels empty, yet filled with anger all at once. Looping until I can't think and my mind goes blank I can't keep going I feel like I'm pretending Is it being dramatic?

my dad got mad at me for. it swimming because i have my period today :/

Out of all school subjects, I hate writing the most. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy some writing. But I dislike those things where you have to bring something in and write about how it is “special to you” or something. I fear people will avoid me for my interests and likes, and I feel like an outcast every time. I also hate having to share with the class, or reading my writing out loud. I hate paragraphs, I hate similes, I hate, hate hate hate. I find it hard to focus and usually find myself tapping my pencil on my desk and the teachers just state the obvious as “help”. Informational is probably the best out of all of them, because I get a standpoint to start off with. I already know to do this, and that. Meanwhile, narrative about your life? Things either never happen or are too personal to share, and repeating the same story sucks, and opinion? I usually can’t think of any reasons on “why”, or “how”. Anyways, I don’t have much more to share, so thanks for listening.

Nothing helps anymore. Music. Video games. Movies. TV Showers. I cant get out of my head.

ofc i hate it i literally told you i was gonna play w u after i eat and you get a five stack and q that’s shameless

I was on a call with my friend and I was screen sharing like watching videos and I didn't know that it bother her and she said "shut up" but she was playing a game and whenever she plays that game she says "shut up" like to the characters in that game a lot so I didn't think anything of it but she was actually saying shut up me and than she said "bye I'm hanging up" and now I feel really bad and I'm getting really bad thoughts I almost just choked myself to death and everyone else is asleep cuz I'm in a different time zone and I don't know what to do I have no one that I can vent to I don't know what to do

What am I supposed to realize and be self aware about ik I’m somewhat hypocritical I feel like most people are I like validation I’ll validate you too so much love to give I’m aware to an extent but I can’t answer a question when I don’t even know what’s being asked

Every time I see a reel on insta complaining about certain people and I immediately think omg that is so my sister she always does that, I look at the "liked by" and my sister has liked it. Absolutely no self awareness whatsoever

I wish someday i will experience a birthday where i dont ask but receive. I wonder how it feels like to be able to receive and feel loved

Only your parents can be stupid and STILL make you wish you were dead, just from the sheer stupidity you have to witness and speak to. Like dear god, HOW did you birth me or anybody! Stupid twat this one, my mother especially.

hi,i'v learned that,its better for me to confert other people then to confert myself,im fucking useles,others have a great life ahead of them,so if your reading this,i hope that what ever is bothering you,i hope you get better.sorry if this doesnt make sence

i tried hanging myself 5 times,every day i dread waking up,i also sh with scissors bu i only do scratches

can you give me exuses for my sh scars,im scared people will question me