All Rants

I wish someday i will experience a birthday where i dont ask but receive. I wonder how it feels like to be able to receive and feel loved

Only your parents can be stupid and STILL make you wish you were dead, just from the sheer stupidity you have to witness and speak to. Like dear god, HOW did you birth me or anybody! Stupid twat this one, my mother especially.

hi,i'v learned that,its better for me to confert other people then to confert myself,im fucking useles,others have a great life ahead of them,so if your reading this,i hope that what ever is bothering you,i hope you get better.sorry if this doesnt make sence

i tried hanging myself 5 times,every day i dread waking up,i also sh with scissors bu i only do scratches

can you give me exuses for my sh scars,im scared people will question me

So my one friend keeps asking to hangout and I really just don’t feel like it. I just wanna stay home but I feel bad saying no so I make up excuses. And every time I said I can’t she will always ask me why, make me ask my mom, etc. and I won’t lie, I really don’t like when she keeps asking me why I can’t hangout. She kept trying to make solutions to hangout and I just wish she would get the hint just don’t wanna. But after I said no again yesterday, I felt really guilty today after she sorta confronted me abt the lie I made that I forgot abt. I just don’t like hanging out…I feel like a crappy friend and idk what to do.

I might be depressed but don’t believe therapy actually works, too scared to try. Feeling trapped

im so miserable all the time and i always find a way to make everything more miserable i am perhaps a selfish and greedy disgusting pig of a person and i should have offed myself a long long time ago

i want so badly to just sob as loudlyas i can like a baby but i am a grown man and there are peoplee around me

I know I'm young but i'm being put on so much pressure and sometimes i just want to disappear my parents are so toxic and ive been bullied so much i have trust issues i also am pretty sure i have an ed (not to self diagnose in a rude way but its pretty obvious i just cant tell my parents because they keep calling me dramatic ) i need therapy but ive been denied and told to figure it out. I've participated in sh and my parents dont know that and keep punishing me for the smallest things and making it worse and i just don't know how much longer i can do this.

Ive moved to germany awhile ago as a mechanic for the nurburgring, the "childhood dream" as some say, but now after about a year it feels wierd, i feel sad, im alone, barely anyone after work to go to or hangout with, or nobody to talk to. I miss my family but also i think its just being in precense of people who actually like you and want to talk to you. i dont care about the nurburgring anymore, i drive a normal car because i dont care about having a "track car" anymore, i just turned 21, i dont know what to do, i wish i could be anywhere but here. I had a major accident on the nurburgring a while back i flipped my car and havent felt the same on the road since, im in debt because of expenses and track costs, i wish i could go back to my old life, but something in me doesnt want to give up even though every feeling is gone

i feel so anxious about the future, i don’t think my mental health will ever be as ‘good’ as it is now

i know i’m being dramatic but after the first day of school i cried for almost an hour, i feel like i won’t do good at any of my classes and i just wish that i chose easier ones

3 breakups in the span of 4 years is way too much for me to handle. Idk if I'm gonna be able to recover or bounce back. I may be messed up for a very long time and I don't think I'll have the strength to go through another. I love way too hard and actually care about people but everyone else treats me like a disposable garbage. I'm still a human being but I know, I don't matter to anyone. :(

I’m sick of being here I wanna runaway but if I get caught I know I’ll be in very bad trouble. Any tips? I have a toxic home they treat me like shit all the time. I can’t call anyone for they will beat me. Everything my fault

when your roommate gives you a chore list as soon as you come home from vacation and you can tell its because they didnt do any of those chores the whole time you were gone and now that youre home you can be their in-house chef maid pet sitter and eye candy

Maybe it's not meant for me to be a wife and get married? I tried my best to be a great girlfriend for guys, I'd give comfort, advice, I'd plan dates, I'd cook for them, I'd give them massages, I'd talk to them all the time. I tried my best to make dating me easy for guys because I used to hear so many them complain about girls playing hard to get. After 5 really bad relationships, getting cheated on, asked to open the relationship, and being dumped for another girl, I think the issue is that maybe I'm too easy and they get bored of me really fast. It has nothing to do with age because I've been with guys my age and older. It just makes me sad because I don't know how to be different. I'm an honest person and don't do games but it's ended up in other women being more desirable than me. Maybe I should accept my single life.

I officially ended my toxic relationship of 2 years today. I was 20 and he's 42. My parents encouraged me to find an older husband so he can take care of me. He did do a good job taking care of me but at what price? It all started the first time we had sex and after that I dealt with so much verbal abuse. He'd yell at me, call me names, and curse me out everytime I'd tell him "no". He's forced himself on me many times during our relationship even when I made it clear I didn't want to. He's bought me many things and helped me but I still felt like a worthless sex toy who can't do anything right. It's also the things he'd say to me and his overall behavior. I tried to change myself for him but it didn't work. It was saturday where he told me our relationship is horrible, that i always disappoint him, and that I'm too much of a kid for him. So I packed my things and left. My parents are gonna be mad but at least I don't have to feel hated anymore.

how am i meant to keep living like this everyday? how can i keep going through the routine of life? it feels like the whole world is against me. not in a self important way. but like it’s all coming at me and i can’t catch it all at the same time. why is it raining only over me? why does the dark cloud follow me? why can everybody else wake up and do the day and i’m barely making it by? what am i going to do? how will i get through this? will i survive? will i make it? why can i only see black when i look to the future. is that it for me? is it going to end soon? idk. guess that’s life

Okay so I just started high school and I really want this to be a fresh start. I don’t wanna go back to the routines and mediocre friends of middle school. But my lunch has nobody that I like. I’m not good at putting myself out there and making friends. I want to have friends. And honestly I’ve been praying and asking for my people, but this just makes me sad. I feel friendless and lonely.