All Rants

bro tell me why the fuck I got put on the waitlist for studio art 🫩 bitch I was one of the first people to choose it and literally my friend chose hers way after and got 3 other art related classes PURE GREED. I need my art/music credit niga?? whatever ill take it next year ig but damn??? like how tf am I on the waitlist and I was one of the first people in our damn school?? anyway whatever but I have a male gym teacher this year. A FUCKING GAIN. I hate male gym teachers like I only had one once and she was so good but all my male ones were either weirdos or really annoying and made me wanna slit my throat. One of them touched a girl (or two) in the locker room back in 2012 and was able to come back after jail✌️✌️My school is DEADASS full of a weirdos and racists, like my school being 56% white doesn’t help. mind u my people, black is 10-4% NIGA????

Go seek therapy. I have nothing else to say but I really do pity you and your pathetic life

I'm a lesbian in an Islamic country, I'm still a teen but the future is stressing me out, I'm planning on immigrating when i turn 18 but i don't know how I'm going to do it and I'm scared that my family will find out because if they do they'd probably kill me, i don't know how I'm gonna get the money or what's even the plan or if it's going to work or not but i just want to get out of here as soon as possible.

I hope I get the courage to end it someday

I was waiting for you to call me but you didn’t . I feel very bad and i can’t even express to you how i feel . I was hoping that you might have called Me but again life doesn’t really work how you want it to work. So i m just letting my feelings flow and setting you free forever. Bye.

Im over weight, not a large amount but its noticeable. I hate it, how come thats all you are to people once they figure it out or meet you. the other day my brothers friend (hes a dick) called me a gorilla which is absolutely absurd and completely rude. what makes stuff like this worse is i don't eat shit i barely eat. he eats more than i do in a week in one day, and when i do eat often times i end up throwing it back up (not in purpose) so it really sucks that im being insulted while i cant even keep any food down.

Does anyone else get this stupid ass thing when you have the urge to be like...problematic? Idk what I really mean by that because I don't have social media, but like, I'll be scrolling on pinterest or something and see like a problematic label or something and sometimes I'll feel an urge to say I'm that or something idk. It really upsets me because I don't agree with stuff like that and I already deal with intrusive thoughts of violence and stuff so its very annoying to deal with more. I end up saying I'm a bad person and that adds to my mental health issues even more :(

I can’t wait to get married to this guy; he’s really sweet and showers me with lovely gifts. I thank the Gods for making the right choice. Feeling blessed 💖

I swear, today has been so, so hard—it just feels so unfair to me. It’s like I’m always asking everyone “why” and “how,” and the one time I don’t ask, I get called mean. Like, what am I even supposed to be? Am I actually being a real support system, or am I just a punching bag? I’m so tired of this—I actually want someone to ask me how I’m doing too, but when I’m exhausted and want them to ask me, I ask them half-heartedly, and they don’t even bother to answer. So I just end up wasting my energy. Fuck. Am I actually serving any purpose in this life? It feels like all this time I’ve been totally confused about what I want to do—I might as well just die. I hope I die tomorrow.

It just sucks when you go to all them doctors and getting all these tests for 17 years now and they don't know anything at all. I have bad blackouts everyday since 2008. I take off running full speed until I run into something that knocks me out, I have no memory of it ever. Like what are you suppose to do when there is nobody to help? They won't let me work now and I have lost everything… I just feel the only option is to just give up. Nobody would even notice I'm gone anyways if I wasn't in this world anymore... I haven't even talk to a person this year. Friends are fake, soon as I run out of money and everything else, every friend I thought I had disappeared with the quickness. I just don't have no clue what to do? Like there is no point in me even being in this world anymore. You can't survive without working and having money. I don't have a friend or any family. Everything else I had I lost now.

I blackout every day since 2008, now I've lost everything and no doctor can even help me at all. I don't know what to do? Give up?

Im breaking up with him on Thursday

To everyone who dropped encouraging and loving notes to me (even if we'll never know each other), just know that I really love you all. Tysm for making my life bearable and hopeful <33

I have this one friend who’s been with her boyfriend of 2 years, nearly 3. I really don’t like her boyfriend cause I had found his hinge profile, all of his information was up to date cause at the start of their relationship he was living in a different city and he moved to his current city. His hinge profile showed his recent city and everything was updated and so I tell my friend and she didn’t know what to think so she called her boyfriend and his explanation was that “he has the apps but has never opened them”. I should also mention his hinge profile said active today. Anyways, she calls me and tell me what he says I say that he’s lying cause it said he was active today and she said “thank you for looking out for me but I’m gonna believe my boyfriend on this”. Not to mention this dude is still friends with his ex’s, she’s said “I wonder if he thinks I’m pretty” but then says well I’m not insecure so I don’t need him to validate me. There’s so much more but I don’t have enough words

Maybe death will be kinder. People will remember me for the good soul I was before I can mess up any further

I'm so so scared. When it gets too stressful someone takes over and punches me. Forces me to hit myself. I don't like touching my textbooks because I get scared and stressed Again and I hit myself again. I don't want that. That's not what normal people do.

im tired of constantly checking my phone to no notifications at all, im so lonely and friendless

Im gonna end it. I have a date. No one will miss me. I hope it works

I just love when fam won't listen to what I have to say with what I go through but they expect me to listen to them. It shouldn't be one sided. Seems like it's one frustrating thing after another.

So I have this one friend. Let's call her Wendy. Basically, she showed an information to my friend that I told her not to tell to and when I confront her, she kept denying it although it was damn obvious. This incident happened a year ago and this bitch act like nothing happened. What's ironic is she told me that shes incapable of lying 😂😂😂😂😂 and she said shes doing devotion everyday to strengthen her relationship with God. There's more to tell about this hypocrite but I won't talk further more about it. I hope she suffers like how I did in school and suffer forever and ever.