All Rants

im sick and tired of playing second fiddle to everyman ive ever interacted with, romantic or not ive never been put first in any situation, theres always somerhing better.

I screwed up big time. I haven't been to a dentist in 2 years, and frankly I do a subpar job at maintaining my dental hygiene. Today my back molar cracked badly and I am just so scared. I don't have the money or time or support network to see a dentist. I don't want to be in pain. My partner won't talk to me because she says I never accept her help and I always tell her she's doing it wrong, but I feel so alone. This is mortifying. I'm supposed to be an adult, and I can't even brush my teeth regularly. No matter what I do I always end up screwing myself over. I am a failure.

why isnt he satisfied? what did i do so wrong to him that he needed to admit he wasnt satisfied with our relationship? i feel like i am a disease to him, i feel as if i am nothing to him anymore, i try to spend time with him the way that i want to but then he goes and gets all upset about it when i am just trying to make it better. i even let him vent to me when my life is complete shit right now, i even put my own feelings aside so he can be upset at me, and i go to listen and he doesnt even want to talk to me about it. fine whatever. am i not good enough for him? does he not realize that i am upset with him more than half of the time? i cant even make new friends without him getting pissed off at them. i am not satisified with our relationship yet i still fucking make it work no matter how much of a baby ass bitch you are being all of the fucking time. fuck you dude. i love you over the world yet you pull this shit? i fucking hate you sometimes. why do i do this to myself

I wanna die I can’t keep doing this I’m only 14 I can’t keep doing this nothing works and no one is helping me

I miss my best friend. Ever since they moved away our friendship hasn't been the same. We talk so much less and dont really tell eachother things. I wish they had never moved. I feel like they don't actually like me. If they text me hyped about somwthing I always tey to respond with and match with the same energy but I feel like whenever im excited or high energy they out zero effort and it makes me feel ridiculous. Makes me feel like I did somwthing wrong.

my mom is not giving me honeybuns

We all have our days. Is that right relative? That's what they said when they broke down and cried in front of my family. Yet they themselves gave me the middle when I reached out to them and had one of "our days" which they described. Wtf is it with the shit treatment Ive received so much from them. But any offends them it's all boo hoo hoo but how they treat others that don't seem to matter to them. Not long ago they brought their dog and they spoke to it so mean. It's only a little dog and the crazy relative has a friggin shock collar on it. Tbh they're the one who needs the shock collar, not the dog if you ask me. What gets me , if they claim to be such a good person, why have I received so much shit treatment from them? Had an appointment they refused to take me with our car broke down. Told me in a shitty voice "well you better go call em then" when fam told them i had a dr appointment (to cancel it)Talked to me like shit when fam was out and they randomly stopped by. I wantpeace

I have an illness that is threatening to take away my passions and body. My family hardly cares but I could loose my entire life to a disease before I even graduate. I'm so scared and now I no longer have a way to contact the few people actually worried about me. i don't wanna die, but I'm not sure I'll wanna live if it means I'll never get to do my hobbies, run, or act like a normal person again. I might also have to break it off with my girlfriend if I get too sick since we're both chronically ill and wouldn't be able to physically care for each other.

i got myself a boyfriend but i don't really like him. It's not that i hate him or anything, i just don't feel anything when it comes to him, from when he was courting me to this day. To be honest, i just said yes because he's a real pain in the ass but i completely regret it now. I wasn't even planning to be in a relationship and if I was, it would've been with a girl. ToT

My family hates me, my friends hate me, my scars are healed but with new ones to come. My parents call me lazy right after 7 hours of school, a lot of homework, being the therapist friend, cleaning my whole house and still playing a smile on my face although I don't know if I'll make it through the night if ill finally grab the rope, swallow the pills, hold the gun. I'm the friend that listens to people's problems, helps them heal and learn that they will leave and no one will do the same, I mom beat me at a young age, I was told to stay silent, I was Sa'd by my cousin and stepdad at a young age and was told that it was ok since no one else would touch a monster like me. I've been fat shamed and laughed at told to kill myself ever since I was 6. I have a job at the age of 13 and still can' to anything right in my family. No one notices my struggles and I b anyone will. Maybe today will be that day. The day where my pain and suffering stops. When I grab the rope, gun, or pills, and end,

my parents treat my brother like hes jesus fucking christ and completely sideline me. i get that it must be annoying to have such a mentally ill child to deal with, but i didnt ask to be born this way. the least you could do is give me some grace. too much to ask for i guess.

I love my family. My mom and my brother love me. But sometimes it feels like im alone in my family. Im a part of an immigrant family, and my mom, my uncles family , and aunts family can all speak their native language. Im the only one in the family who cant understand it. They speak it constantly in social gatherings. I know they don't mean to isolate me intentionally, but I cant stand it. Ill never know what they're truly saying. I tried telling my brother and my mom about this, and my brother said it was selfish of me to want them to speak English. Yeah, I know, that's why I haven't told anyone about it. Thats why I just let it happen. I don't want them to be forced to speak English just for me. But it still hurts. I have a bad self image in terms of wanting to be included, and belonging, and I wonder if it's because I grew up with these feelings. Sometimes it feels like my family doesn't care, but I know they do. But its still hard. I want them to tell me they care. But I cant ask

i cant even hang out with my friends because my anxiety disorder is so bad. i was diagnosed with GAD in like elementary school, and im almost out of highschool. it hasnt gotten better. im medicated, but that barely works. if i up my dose any further i become a mindless zombie, ha! my friends and girlfriend are all hanging out together right now. i didnt go because i was worried theyd leave me out. actually no i KNEW theyd leave me out. i met them this year, theyve all known eachother much longer. i doubt they do it on purpose, but i am always sidelined. its exhausting. my anxiety keeps me from doing so much in life it is genuinely exhausting to even think about living a full life with it. im so sick of it. i just want to live without feeling terrified of every possible outcome. i have nobody to talk to about it, so here i am crying infront of my computer putting it on an anonymous website. cant even talk to my girlfriend about it either, wouldnt want to bother her mid-hangout.

I hate having to be in fight or flight mode near all the time seemingly. Family are unstable. Neighbors are horrible you never know when they're gonna complain on you because they're a super complain happy karen. Yet too much of a coward to talk to us. I have to deal with a drunk. The other family member wants to sweep all the issues under the rug and tune out everything with tv and games. So I'm the only logical one most this stuff is affecting. Its effed up. A loud bitch (the report happy miserable karen) wakes me up near every morning. I didn't hardly sleep last night as it was so I feel a bit rough. Its not easy to live in a place where you feel like you're walking on eggshells or avoiding landmines all the time. I saw a review on where we live someone said people are loud and rude and they wouldn't wish it on their enemy. They weren't wrong. And I've not done anything to these fucking people either that's one of the things that irks me the most. Here go report this karen🖕.

I feel like no one in my family cares about me as much as my brother, since he has diagnosed ADHD. I understand that my brother has been missing work, a lot of it, but my parents aren't seeing me down or failing no matter how much I show. My mom blames me for everything and confuses me first saying how I'm doing so well then hours later calling me useless and how I never do anything. Let me tell you I'm 13 with a job and a whole bunch of responsibilities that probably shouldn't be mine. It makes me so frustrated cause they don't know how much I do and how much I'm struggling. They believe in me more because I'm the daughter that has had grades higher than a C-, I'm a peer counselor, and I always help out and try out for a bunch of things and my parents thought I'm capable that when I told my mom I was still doing work other that cleaning me room which was my brothers job and she yelled at me and took my phone and now is playing and laughing with my brother . I don't know do anymore.

I hate it so much that ive become someone like myself. Im movin g towards a state of mind where I value human emotions lesser than lust. its killing me to thing about it. My lust is taking over me and i cant seem to stop it. I need help i really do.

i genuinely don’t have motivation to do anything. waking up and going throughout my day is so difficult for me and i almost just wish i didn’t have to anymore. i have a family and a boyfriend, but i just don’t care enough to keep going for them. i feel like a shitty person for that but i can’t help myself. i hate every aspect of myself. i’m constantly being called disgusting and lazy by my mother due to my self negligence, but i don’t care about myself enough to do those things. i truly feel comfort in the idea of me just not existing anymore, and i don’t care about the repercussions my death could have on anyone i care for. my life isn’t even bad enough for me to be feeling like this but i do, it feels hypocritical.

Someone expects a defense lawyer to advise about estate law

I seriously CANT deal with a semi toxic friend of mine, but I just don’t know how to! They keep fucking ruining my life slowly because they make me stress with their problems! It’s so draining and they talk shit about my other friends.. mind you. THEY ARE ALSO FRIENDS WITH THEM!! It’s so frustrating, why can’t you decide if u wanna be friends with them or not? I have discussed this with my other friends and they feel trapped in the friendship. I’m just getting so stressed about it, and mind you. My semi toxic friend. TRIED TO FORCE ME TO DO SMTH FOR THEM BY THREATENING ME! They threatened me by trying to pull their suicidal card on me. It didn’t work anyways, it’s just.. why are we forcing people to do things? And so I just feel so done with some of my friends. I just don’t know anymore.

Ok so I'm like really in love with this guy btw for context later on I'm kind only 12 uhhh yea buddy wtv so yea it liked him for 11 months now and he according to one of my friends liked me like 3 months ago but other than that its always been were just friends and I've kinda gotten over that (I'm definitely not over him I've just accepted he might never like me more than a friend) I saw a video it was a rant about this guy thought he was start but fell in love with his best friend and they ended up together and the things he did in that video seem like things I would do to her like 2 weeks ago and I don't think I like her anymore but idk anymore