Recent Rants
the love feels so absent. I love you feels like it’s falling on deef ears. The hugs feel forced, waking up in the middle of the night realizing your cuddling with me and letting go as if I’m a disease hurts. Me laying on your chest and you turning me over cuts knowing you rolled to the other side so my back is against yours. Waking up with so much hate in your words knowing if I stay in bed I’m fucked and if I crawl out I’m fucked too. My heart hurts, I feel numb and I feel dumb for feeling this way.
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my own mother uses me as a therapist, and im exhausted. im only 20 and had to move halfway across the country as it was my last resort since they chose to kick me out at 19. now i have to struggle to live on my own, with the mental disorders my parents caused me and i have to send them money nearly every other day because they're in a terrible financial situation that they again, got themselves into. but every other day, my mother texts me about a new disorder she thinks she has, or new rants, and new breakdowns and new needs for even more money. all of a sudden today, after i recently told her i got diagnosed with autism, and suspecting ocd, she claims she has BOTH. Mind you, ocd runs on my dads side, and no one in her family has history of it. im just exhausted and dont know what to do anymore, ive tried to tell her i cant help as much but i get another rant and guilt trip so i cant find a way out. i think im beginning to get burnt out, and even reading her messages stresses me out.
The most beautiful woman I have ever seen was a corpse I worked on. I'm gonna have to kill myself if I keep thinking about her. Not to be with her but to stay as far away as I can.
I want to be SOMEONE I don't wanna stand on the side being a background character I'm nice to everyone give everyone a piece of me I work on myself I'm good and healthy why do I feel so hurt and alone and sad I don't understand everyone has a talent a uniqueness about them I want everyone to open there eyes see things that I notice why do I notice everythought behind their eyes I don't understand why am I the only one who can tell every emotion by just words. im tired of waiting for a miracle. I want the spot light I wanna feel pretty I wanna walk into a room where people stare and look at me with happiness I wanna light up the room I wanna be the flower that pleases everyone eyes. im always walking alone and wanting for more I wanna shine like everyone else shines why do I feel so dull inside im alaways smiling and laughing sharing kindness why do I feel so empty I want to be there I want people to want me there I wanna be the favorite I want to be someone IM READY!!..
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idk why but its all going to be ok, i am full of sadness and love and a sort of sickly sweet sinking sensation in my guy that i'll never fully understand but something tells me it's all fuckin goodie, hang in there guys love each other cause you could die tomorrow i love you ALL good night, billions must sleep.
How am i supposed to love you when you treated my mom like shit and won’t even tell her that her father is dying?
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My mom is so.. uhm.. She doesn’t acknowledge when she did something hurtful. She just says “oh well now you know how I feel.” I could talk about why I don’t love her for a good 5-9 hrs. But I do NOT wanna type all that.. Just wanted to write my thoughts down. Goodnight everyone:D
I can't prove they hate me. I'm going insane. Im in a trio, and I've always thought we've worked really well. They were friends before I came into the mix, but I'm fine with that. But they seem to get along so much better without me there. And they don't talk to me much anymore. I guess I'm not as interesting as I used to be? They hang out without me, which is fine, but they don't hang out with me 1 on 1 either. But they're so nice to me, so I can't prove they hate me or something. I'm genuinely going crazy because just when I think I'm about to discover something, they prove me wrong. How do I find out they hate me? what do I do? I just want the truth.
Each day my life feels harder and worse. Everyone is useless they don’t understand or care about me.
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i feel so worried about my future, not because i'm going nowhere or i have no hope or whatever (senior this year btw). My family is pretty well off financially & I'm an only child, and I've got pretty good test scores (1320 SAT 32 ACT) so I think after I do some ec and write some good applications I'll get into a half-decent college. But I'm scared because I don't think I'm going to know how to be happy and I'm afraid I'll get into a mental rut and fuck myself up. I'm not necessarily suicidal, in fact I'm deathly afraid of dying and think about it more than I probably should really. But I'm bad with making friends and keeping in contact with friends, I'm not a social outcast or anything but I tend to isolate myself a lot. Im just afraid I'll do something irrational when I'm on my own in the future, honestly this is probably just a stress-fueled rant that I'll look back on like "tf was I on about" but this is how I feel right now.
I'm genuinely starting to hate men. I can't stand their entitlement, pretentiousness, rude, violent, creepy. Men don't even see women as literal people, human beings, yet it's our fault if a man becomes abusive? Rapes? I thought you ball sack's were all about taking accountability, yet you can't do jack shit without using women as scapegoat. It's pathetic. Boyfriend air is 100% real. Doesn't even need to be a boyfriend, men in general are so disgusting they virtually make you sick one hour after interacting with them. Soap-USE IT. Everything you fucking touch gets slimy, remotes, door knobs, counters. Why do women develop cancer more and die sooner when they're married? Women are the stronger sex, you treat us lower than dirt yet we're not the ones committing mass shootings or acts of terror because we were wronged. You fucking men shoot up public spaces because a woman rejected you? WOMP WOMP YOU ARE NOT THAT IMPORTANT. It's pathetic how entitled and violent your gender is.
im so fucking tired of them. my parents, friends people. so fucking tired. i cant keep on going. my parents are bitches, sometimes are sometimes not. so fucking fed up. i cant get it out of my damn mind when my dad nearly killed me. im so fucking tired. i dont want to kill myself, but i may as well be. im trapped, trapped, trapped. the only reason i burst today is because someone asked if i was okay. and no. no, im not. but i didnt say that. i didnt say a damn word. because they'd fucking find out. damnit, im so tired. im supposed to be going downstairs in this damn house just to eat and i dont want to because their there. i do not want too but i have too. im so sick and tired. im just tired. please, i just want someone to lean on. someone who doesnt leave, someone who won't tell, someone who'll be there. but thats too much to ask for one person. so, ill bear it alone. ill say this, and ill fuck it up, fuck someone up all over again. because thats what i do. use people, than leave them