All Rants

I don't understand why my two friends—whom I've known since we were little—keep hanging out as a couple and slightly excluding me, even though we're actually a trio. I've never caused any trouble, and the fact that they don't realize on their own how they're behaving really bothers me.

i miss the snow and i regret now enjoying it more while it was still under my nose

Anyone here feel like they are finding it difficult to continue life? I genuinely can't do this anymore.

one second you’re happy, next second you’re not it’s so tiring stop taking out your anger on other people who had nothing to do with your source of stress it’s not fair the world doesn’t revolve around you

I love my sister a lot and growing up I’ve always been closer to her than to my 2nd sister but these recent years I’ve been closer to my 2nd sister and I feel like my 1st sister sometimes gets upset and feels left out because of that. I feel bad so I try my best to talk to her lots and hang out with her even though I’m a homebody but it’s so difficult because she doesn’t seem to realise it’s her own fault. my 2nd sister and I are closer recently because we have more similar interests, however sometimes we talk about other things other than our interests too - it’s just that my 1st sister is completely not interested in anything that she’s not into so obviously I have less to talk to her about. also, it’s more tiring to be with her, she has constant mood swings and gets grumpy so easily, it’s like I’m walking on eggshells everytime I talk to her because I’m scared I’ll say something that’ll sour her mood. I just wish she’d realise how hard I’m already trying.

collecting pokemon cards or footy athlete cards is normal but collecting kpop photocards is weird and cringe? I know kpop fans have a bad rep because some of us are genuinely not okay but I am fine, I just like photocards because I think they’re cute and I’ve always been fond of collecting. but people are always going to have a problem with it and I don’t understand why, just ignore it if you don’t like it, it’s not harming anyone please stop judging people just for liking different things from you, the world would be so much more peaceful that way

So, I’m 25, I have had a very rough… life. Betrayals from every friend I made, I also felt it was my fault, but my therapist and others just look at me and go “it wasn’t your fault”. Last year I got into a car accident, and thought nothing happened and I was untouched. This year I found out I was wrong. I started having intense abdominal pain, found out I got two things from the car accident. Fat Necrosis, and… an paradudenal hernia. 12 inches of colon were out of place. I had laparoscopic surgery, and by chance they found it. I was told I would have died if it wasn’t taken care of. My mother was there for me for like a week. When I was in the ER before the surgery, she and my father stayed 2 days, left a day after for my younger sister’s graduation in another state. I know she’s important, but I feel like they see her as more than me. Honesty they see everyone and everything as more than me. They leave without warning even when I’m in pain. I have to take care of everything. No choice

Of course the one guy in the new friend group that I really vibed with, who was there for me after my father died (the only other person in the group I told that information to), the only one I texted regularly, decides to drop me along with everyone else and told me not to message him again. No explanation, no closure, just poof bye out of my life. I hate this shit. 5 years isolating myself and one of the only people I'd consider a new bro just writes me out of his story. Fuck me.

I feel really depressed playing games and just being in fandom spaces in general. There is actually nowhere I can go to avoid people being racists towards me for existing. There is genuinely nothing enjoyable about being alive. This is so unfair.

People are so ableist. I just don’t get it. What even brings someone to want to laugh and joke about a disabled person. Especially a child. You are not a human to me. People should be ashamed to act this way.

So , yesterday you were very happy i know you were and its happy to see you happy. I like the fact that you Noticed i am not very good in my mood and you were trying to talk to me cuz obviously you can read me as much as i can read you. Even the fact that when i finish you were the first person who saw me and waved me byebye and you also know that i was looking at you and then you waved me byebye as well haha. It was very loving . I know you dont care and I know but I dont know why I have feelings for you: I know you dont care about me but i do care about you. Take care mr rudest bossy pants. Miss you alot.

im a kid. I’m ten. People say I’m too young too have problems but NO. I get bullied, left out and get called “annoying”, “fat” & “stupid”. I DID sh but I stopped because of my bff and she’s all the way in Oceania and I’m in Asia. I can’t even tell her “see you tmr!” because of that. I used to scratch, pick at my nails but she made me feel like a person. I’ve thought abt the world being better off without me but she stopped me without knowing.

Recently I've tried my best to be there for all of those that I consider my friends whilst they're struggling. I've even had 1 stay with me for around 2 months because their fiancé died, and I was travelling between their home, my home and work everyday to make sure their animals were cared for, while trying to maintain my own life. Now, 4 months to the day of the death of their fiancé, here I am trying to find a reason to not kill myself, and they could not even be bothered to answer the phone to me because they were busy getting laid. As that has been the new routine for them for the last couple months. I don't get to see anyone. I don't know anyone. No one cares whether I live or breathe unless they get something out of it. Telling anyone that the way they are treating me is wrong and unfair gets me no where, other than being guilt tripped and manipulated into saying everything is fine. Why am I so unimportant to people. I just want to be enough. I don't want to be here.

Im 16 rn and I live in a very small village my school is about 30km away and there are no busses, my siblings live in one of the biggest city in the country so my idea is to move away to live with one of them cuz when I graduate school my plan is to go to college in that city anyways so i would get to know the city better and meet people but im probably getting license in few months so now the main reason why I should move away is gone but I still want to get out of this hole atp its sad to leave my bsf but im doing this for my own future, I dont know what to do

I moved out of my hometown to be with someone and in return they secluded me from all of my friends and family. I had no one which made it tough when we split up. I struggle with the day to day dealings with my depression, wondering if im always over reacting because whenever something happens thats all people say, that i am overreacting. I do my hardest to be there for everyone when they're struggling but even when i reach out, im left by myself. my closest friend ditched me through my own birthday for a booty call. Usually when I tell people I'm not okay, they think I am either making a joke, or not that bad. Or they believe telling me about 'all the things I have to live for' is going to cure me and not make me feel unrelenting guilt and shame about feeling the way I do. I can't help feeling the way that I do. i don't want to be here anymore, but when i tell anyone that i'm 'dramatic' and that ill be fine if i just go and have a nap, or take more meds. kill me

I am so desperate to find a point in it all. I have aspirations and things I want to achieve, sure. But I would take death over all of that every single time.

it just hurts everything i went for therapy and i thought my parents finally understood me but they dint its like they forget everything i was going through and i dont know what to do it hurts so back oh my god i cant i want to kms and i was clean for so long i thought og it but i never did and today i did because i hate myself so much

I’m going to get prescribed propranolol soon- it’s an anti anxiety medication that helps with the physical aspects of the disorder. It can slow your heart rate and let’s just say the moment I heard that I knew exactly how much of these pills I’d be taking. I’ve finally found a way out. Big things coming guys 😂😂😂

I secretly look forward to any surgery I get just for the sleeping medicine.

I hate getting memories of people and resentment they've caused me in my head. My fam is so bad to be resentful about people and the past I'm wondering if I inherited that from them? Or is it a universal thing. I'm still frustrated because one relative was so awful to me and I didn't deserve it. I'd never have treated them that way. They told their own kid they hope they burn in hell once if that's any indication how they act/ed. No I don't know what's in their heart but they were extremely awful and callous to me when I was in need. Yet they themselves would seek sympathy from others and play copy cat of people's issues for attention. Yeah I know I probably need a psychiatrist. I didn't ask for a wack ass abusive uncaring family.