All Rants

I really dislike it when my cousin is high because nothing feels genuine between us. She believes that being high is who she truly is, but in reality, it brings out her worst qualities. It's hard to ignore this, as it's quite obvious. She has been vaping and smoking blunts since middle school, and she takes pride in that. I don't understand how she can be proud of it; she's harming her own health for the sake of having fun and feeling "free."

When will I see my worth? When will my self esteem be higher? I wish I could see what my friends value about me. I always feel inadequate 🫤

So, I’m GenX (may not matter) & white. I was raised by a free thinking family (so I thought). At 20 I got pregnant, by a black man. By the time my daughter was 5 my mom was the only family member (besides my very racist father) that spoke to me. I NEVER heard my mom’s family say a negative word about any race, I knew where my father stood. I will say that when my dad saw his granddaughter he cried & changed. But how tf did I miss the fact mom’s family is racist? 30+ I haven’t heard from them, the universe protected us. My aunts, uncles are dying & are now asking me for forgiveness. I want to tell them to f**k themselves. They caused so much pain & mentally f**ked us up. I don’t want to be “the bigger person” I want them to see & feel our feelings I want them to ask my daughter for forgiveness not me. How. Tf. Did. I. Miss. This? They missed out on our love & joy! They believe in reincarnation (sp?) I hope they all come back as what they looked down on. Assholes

My cousin has a big fucking head. I can’t stand him. We used to be really close when we were kids. As we got to our teens we slowly became less close. He’s two years younger than me. He’s always had this arrogant personality about him. We are both from a different country and he thinks that he speaks that language better than me because he’s been to that country more and I’m not very confident and so he always likes to show off and speak that language even though we are in America. I think in the back of my mind every time I try to speak that language I get self-conscious because of him. Him and his older brother also bully my older sister. That’s why I don’t allow myself to get close to them because they might bully me too. Before my cousin would facetime my sister and they were close. I always wondered what was wrong with me. There is absolutely nothing wrong with me. It is all him. I look at everything clearly and I start to wonder. I really hate him.

Why the fuck do people have to spam/ troll a venting site? If that doesn't say what's wrong with world I don't know what can.

I've came to the realisation that NOTHING i say or do is ever going to be good enough for anyone and that people would rather show their praise to others than to actually show me how proud you are of me. The reason I have anxiety, depression and all these pent up worries is cause all I ever heard was criticism, judgment, shown where I went wrong and why couldn't I do / get better

Ky$ piece of sht Go fuck her if you like her so much

I'm scared people will secretly hate my face but continue being friends with me because they like hanging out. I am not necessarily ugly, but I don't look like anyone else I've ever seen. My eye shape is very weak (this alone is my biggest insecurity) with negative tilt, I have a big nose, and my features are arranged in a very plain way. What if I am nice, funny, cool to hang with, but everyone is secretly irritated with my face and can't say it? I already feel this way quite strongly towards some strangers I see and I'm terrified it'll happen to me.

When being told you've "triggered" someone then proceed to list all of the things that makes me a bad person, but to then threaten not being invited to a fucking wedding that is never gonna happen and all when you can clearly tell i'm in either in a mental crisis or grieving - plus to make me feel like an absolute arsehole for the fact I said my grandmother dying shat all over my engagement. 1) I WOULD GIVE EVERYTHING TO HAVE HER BACK 2) JUST CAUSE YOUR GRANDPARENTS WERE CLOSE TO YOURS DOESN'T MAKE IT A STANDARD EVERY FUCKING GRANDPARENT SHOULD BE EXPECTED TO BE 3) FUCK OFF WITH YOUR FUCKING EGO CENTRIC MANIPULATIVE RANT .... IF IT WAS "THE ME SHOW" then you would have fucked off loooong ago. And as someone with ADHD and RSD cheers for getting me back to the paranoid worried 21 year old I so longed to get over - compassion and emotional intelligence - FUCKING LEARN ABOUT THESE THINGS BEFORE YOU OPEN YOUR FUCKING MOUTH AGAIN!!!!!!

I hate how i still them till now after everything that has happened

I want his body so muchhhh. I love his hands TnT

Tie me up and use me as your toyyy Mmmnh.. trust me I’m not faking it

I’m feeling so lonely. Can you put it in me and spoon me all night 🥺🥺🥺

Eating chocolate off each other’s bodiesss

Make me SCREAAM your name uhhhhh

Oh nooo it’s twitching so much I can’t stop

I neeeed my body to smell like you uuhhh

I’m completely nakedxxx now so fucking hornyyyy

Shut me up and make me moan when I screammm uhhhh

I cry a WHOLE LOTTT. But I am not depressed or anything. I mean my life is pretty great overall. But I can’t go three days without crying. And i also have very valid reasons. Bc life is confusing. Their are things like mean people, or feeling lonely. Wondering ur worth, or crying because u are stressed or overwhelmed. Or idk but like I don’t want my future partner to like have to deal with me every time I cry. Bc then I would feel dumb. I don’t cry in public. If I do then u can probably already guessed that I would also cry later at home about how I feel dumb and I am too emotional and I care too much. And my heart gets too invested in realationship too fast. And I am too empathetic sometimes I feel more pain for the person experiencing the pain then they actually feel. Heck I am even crying a little right now. But crying is how I deal with my emotions. But yeah is me being too emotional and sensitive a dealbreaker? Like idk wouldn't a guy just think I am dumb for crying?