All Rants

My dearest Jonah, "I love you, I miss you and I craved for your presence " I wish I could call back time and say this to you but i can't anymore maybe it's because we're young i mean we're 12, Even though we never dated you were my first love and i hope iam yours too I've never saw your account or you ever since the conflict start and we switched school it's been 4 years but I still love you my dear. I could never forget you back then we were scared to admit our feelings and shy, Jonah i really hope your doing okay and fine I saw your friends sometimes here but since your not in this town I've never saw you Jonah 🥺 i really hope destiny will bring us back together whenever I saw someone who looks familiar to you my heart always ache and I had this tiny hope that we would meet again. I love you and stay safe wherever you maybe.

I'm in love with my hg,Lowkey. Did she really feel nothing when she pin me on the bed when we were playing and being reckless. She said I'm pretty too like omg stop giving me mixed signals I'm going insane.

So, I saw a thread talking about unpopular opinions on my favourite character. I quoted it and said smth like "Character A seems like a heartwarming person and empathetic towards kids although they committed crimes" and I slept. I wasn't thinking much since it was just a fictional character I woke up and checked my phone to found out someone has mentioned me, with full 6+ tweets and plenty of paragraphs explaining why they're not innocent(although I never said so??). It becomes worse when I found out I follow that person for theories and facts of this character😭😭 I was like wtf and my impulsivity makes me so ashamed that I deleted my account.

Look what you've done to yourself, you pathetic excuse for a man. You think your parents are proud? You're a sick bastard, something ain't right in your head and quite frankly, you deserve this all. You could've been someone big, you got opportunity after opportunity offered to you on a silver platter, and here you are. Numb on meds and stinking of cheap, stale liquor. You're pathetic. You're everything you've ever looked down upon. Can't even conjure up a sliver of a smile without the use of substances. Weak, pathetically weak. You deserve to be miserable, me.

I hate you, you cockroach of a neighbour. I hope you get attacked by your stupid bloody pitbull so you can feel what it felt like for all those innocent pets it has attacked. I'm sick of your garbage everywhere, I'm sick of your aggressive dog barking for hours on end, I'm sick of you blasting your dumb music day in day out, I'm sick of your drunken ramblings and you threatening me, I'm sick of the sheer stench that your landfill of a yard permeates through the entire neighbourhood. Move! Move somewhere else! Preferably somewhere where you can't ruin people's lives.

Got banned from VentScape again for absolutely no reason. It’s honestly exhausting dealing with moderation that feels this random and inconsistent. If there’s a rule, enforce it clearly. If not, don’t pretend there is. Just annoying at this point.

I cant help but feel that I am a prisoner of my own mind. To say I have obsessed over thinking about the neglect or double-standards our relationship was is an understatement. I think about u everyday..depending on how u say it can have many different implications.. some violent, hostile, others desperate, depressive, and everything in between. Its unfortunate when ur in a relationship w/ someone that really doesnt want the same things as u. Someone that doesnt care to give effort where u ask for. I think about how I needed u in ways that never were seen that never were ever offered or on the table b/c it was always about u. And yet still even if I were to find out u died it would be a cold dish of revenge that I craved for so long but now would be hard to swallow. I guess thats why they say revenge is a dish best served cold b/c is there really a satisfying win?..because really this wouldnt of been if u were just there for us...

What's something about society or culture that frustrates you but feels too big to change? Maga.

Genuinely fukn think i might as well be ded brux wtf is ts. The whole fukn world is fukn crumbln, FUCK chemistry, i am js a pawn tryng to get others to stay positive. Genuinely wtf. Dahlah takde sorang pon yg respect me when im their ELDEST BROTHER. I fuckn hate tht my talentless bumass have so many ideas i would LOVE to fukn create. But it seems that all I'm good for is being a bitch for everybody else. Fuck this shit bro. At least there's good food where i live.

Why did adults act like everything we did as kids was illegal? Like… you’re telling me I can’t drink water at 3AM without it turning into a full interrogation? “Why are you awake?” I don’t know, maybe because my brain suddenly remembered every embarrassing thing I’ve ever done since kindergarten. And snacks? Oh, snacks were a whole operation. You open one bag of chips and suddenly you’re a criminal mastermind. crinkle From across the house: “WHO IS THAT?!” Relax, it’s just me risking my life for a handful of snacks. And don’t even get me started on getting called from another room. Your mom would yell your name like she’s summoning you from another dimension. You say “WHAT?” No answer. So now you gotta walk all the way there… just for her to say: “Come here.” I WAS JUST THERE. And chores?? Why did “clean your room” feel like a side quest with no reward? You’d clean everything. Sweat. Tears. Character development. And then they walk in like: “Hmm… but did you clean this corne

Idek how to start this. But my ex raped me and he has a trial coming up, and my mom won't let me testify. And I think he's honestly going to get away with it. (Hes 28 im 14) hes trying to saying I didn't scream no, and he's trying to say he didn't know my age. I just want him to tell the truth for once in his life for once. He got me pregnant even tho I had a miscarriage that still affects me. I just want him to admit what he did and stop playing the victim

I stopped being nice to my best friend. It happened. She reached the point where I can’t keep forgetting all the times I’ve gotten hurt and it’ll never be the same and now I too will treat her how I treat my parents. She’s so aggressive. No matter what I do I’m always in the wrong. She won’t communicate and I’m so tired of asking, because I know I’ll just continue getting hurt. To actually get better I have to not lean into her hurt anymore, that’s what actual self love would be. But I’m worried about her. She keeps using not doing well as an excuse to treat people like this. I don’t like myself anymore. When people say they love me or I’m a good friend I find it hard to believe. I feel like I needed to do something differently at some point. But I tried. And I usually try to manage how angry I get at people. I tried, I think.

I broke my streak today😞. I had a 2week streak. Fml

I was vaping and I fell asleep with it still in my hands and my mom caught me. She’s forcing me to go to church . I’m not Christian. I’m a atheist

Someone shoved and kicked me into a locker. It hurt. I have scratch marks and a foot print on my clothes. I guess this is what I deserve. Fml

I was getting groceries today. I was really happy because I got up, washed myself, and had the courage to go out. While I was shopping I saw this snack. It was a tteokbokki snack. it reminded me of how horrible I used to be. I asked my grandfather for a tteokibokki snack. He brought me the wrong one. I yelled at him. I used to be so cruel. I left my grocery bag and ran out. I wanted to throw up. People were staring too. I felt even more sick because of that. I went home. It reminded me of how cruel I was. I used to bully people and hit people. I still remember the teachers yelling at me because of that. I deserved it. I can’t believe I did such horrible things

Feels weird becoming an adult and making it to an age you genuinely never thought you’d reach. Like i never really cared about college or driving a car or anything when i was younger because i couldn’t imagine making it that far. Then boom, one day it all catches up to you.

My depression came back again and won’t go away. I feel like every time i try to tell someone I need help they think i’m exaggerating or that it’ll pass but i’ve been feeling so empty for months. I don’t know how to stop feeling like this 😞

Davie is cheating on his wife with the fatty whore at work. He would be a great garbage man with these trash pick up skills.

Sophomore slump is hitting before sophomore year. I feel like I don’t want to do anymore work. I feel like my science teacher hates me. I feel like I’m alone in the world. I feel like nobody cares about me and my feelings. I feel like Juliet Capulet when her parents were constantly manipulating her emotions, feelings, desires, and wants. I know what she felt like when she felt pressured to marry Paris. I know what she felt like when she met Romeo. I stepped back from that and am trying to slow down so we can be friends. Seventeen days until the seniors are gone. Seventeen days till I lose three of my best friends from my school life. Sixteen days till I have to say my final goodbyes to them. Twenty days till it’s truly over. Twenty days till track season is over. One month till the one-year anniversary of my friend’s accident where they dislocated their knee. One month till the one-year anniversary of the last time I ever saw them again. Two months till summer camp. Help. What do I do?