All Rants

I’m way too clingy for my own good. I can’t go a day without talking to my best friend without feeling like I’ll spiral. Being ignored by her feels so horrible. Knowing that she probably has other people that she likes more than me is torture. I hate feeling this jealousy. Both wanting to be her only one and wanting to have the same amount of social ability as she does. I want to hear her voice again but I’m not man enough to actually ask. I remember talking until the early hours of the morning. I remember feeling tired and wanting to hang up. I will never take a call from her for granted again.

I want bella please just for a few minutes I miss her I'm not crazy I just want my friend she actually treats me well

Ok hear me out. I have this really huge desire to be Asian. It’s getting worse. I look at videos of Asians for hours. It’s affecting me. It’s just a way to cope of who i am. But it’s getting worse.

I want bella please please please please ANNYTHING I JUST WANT BELLA I WANT BELLA IM SORRY IF IM ANNOYING BUT I WANT BELLA I WANT BELLA I WAN BELLA I JUST WANT BELLA

I want a hug I don't like corn but if I don't eat it I'm ungrateful i want bella I miss bella I want bella she doesn't hate me she's my friend I miss bella I want bella I'm not ungrateful for not liking corn why can't I have bella I want bella bella is so cool I want bella she so kind and I'm dumb and I'm tired and I want bella give me bella please I just want bella

what if i killed myself? would anyone fucking notice? would they fucking care? does anyone even care about anyone apart from them selves these days?? -f.g

i'm gonna be honest with you (general) i don't think being embarrassed should hang over me for the rest of the day and make me wanna kill myself

They assumed the worse. They mock everything I said. Take things out of context and use it against me, but I have no say in it. I can’t get a word out to tell them how I feel because in the end they make fun of me. They talk shit about me infront of my face of how I am exactly as this other person who abandoned their family. I’ve always been in the shadow of this person my entire life and they all don't even know it. My school life, my flaws, my success heck even my social life I’m being compared. I should’ve kept my mouth shut instead of saying the words “am I free to go now” or “do you guys still need me here.” Now they are still talking shit about me, insulting me and yet they want me to wake up and act all happy brand new as if I haven’t been called the most disappointment in the whole family. I can’t do this anymore, but I can’t ask my friends for help. They are already busy with life so adding myself would just make things worse. I just know now that I’m no longer acting happy.

I cannot take this pain anymore, ocd cptsd and depression is a daily struggle that i have to deal! It's frustrating and tiring. I don't want to live with this problems and illness. My family is abusive and no one listens to me. My best family moment was with my 12yo brother! Idk, I'm just depressed and numb! I deserved being abused and everyone thinks I'm "faking it" or "overreacting it" FUCK Y'ALL! YOU GUYS DON'T KNOW WHAT I HAD TO GO THROUGH, FUCK YOU! I WAS BEATEN AND ABUSED LIKE A FUCKIN PUPPET, FUCK LIFE AND FUCK THIS PAIN! I can't have a normal and healthy life cuz of that! Fuck hell! I'm so fucking tired of being mistreated and misunderstood, and not being seen and supported by the others! I hate my father and i love him too! This is terrific and bad for my mental health, I became completely self destructive and self loathing!

the worst thing about doing something horrible, vile and perverted to someone you care about is getting away with it. living with it. at my core i am a monster, and also a social butterfly. i could be anyone.

5 things i can see: - a glass door - a shitty mural - my hands - my dvd player - too many people 4 things i can hear: - talking - me typing - someone sighing - footsteps outside 3 things i can feel: - the keys on my laptop - a headache - nausea 2 things i can smell: - air - perfume 1 thing i can taste: - saliva...?

I really hate myself for this. I have had a history of sh, and I was clean for the past two years. Though life got rough again, and I needed to cope. I'm in a big mess right now, and ended up with tons of scratches on my shoulder. I regret it. I don't know why I did that

i don’t want to live anymore, i’m done with all of this. i think that everyone makes fun of me without feeling guilty, and that they don’t hear me through hard times.

I want my husband to die. All he does is sit on his phone and bark about getting his shit together, but it's a lot of barking for someone who has to be pestered to the point of a screaming match to do chores he's been trying to do for over a week. I wish I was sociopathic enough to splash him in boiling sugar water and beat him to death, but I'm not, so instead I beg the universe to smite him, collect his life insurance, & use it to clean up this disgusting pigsty he's turned our condo into. I'd clean up my credit score and get my degree so I can live independently & never touch a man again beyond what I want to do in sex clubs. I am a bad person & worse is that I'm becoming okay with that. I let him turn me into a monster.

I do not know how to start this off without making it sound like a ramble, but as a bisexual man having straight male friends is so fucking hard and the amount of times I've tried to befriend them or ended up getting betrayed and abandoned by them has completely made me fucking resentful of men, I have had gay male friends in my life who weren't as fake and emotionally immature as straight men were and actually had emotional depth.(I know he's not on here, but shout out to Nathan.) Even just recently, I got completely blocked by everyone in my video game friend group, because I just wanted to play together with them, and that was it, only to be told that I was starting BS with them and got blocked by all of them (they were all in a session together when it was all happening without me.) I will truly never understand why men have to be so emotionally immature and emotionally hollow when it comes to shit. Every single time I've tried to be friends with straight men, there's just alway

my dad locked me out of my room, trying to fight me half drunk and bi polar. i just wanna go back to the days when i was young and he loved me

"bring back bullying" but someone mumbled "kýš" to me because I WAS SNIFFLING IN CLASS, BECAUSE. I. WAS. SICK. I DONT CARE IF YOU FOUND MY SNIFFLING ANNOYING. SAYING THAT OVER A MINOR INCONVENIENCE IS UNACCEPTABLE. YOU NEED TO GROW UP AND MATURE IMMEDIATELY. (and it was obviously a cis white boy)

I spend so much time and energy lately trying to make my life better. But every minor improvement is followed by a massive setback. Try to get my finances under control, get laid off. Try to declutter and be cleaner, now there’s a horde of flies in the house. Try to be a better more supportive person? Best friend moves away. Try to have better hygiene and self care? Massive tooth infection to the point I can’t even sleep.

Why do I have to write MY own “happy ( my age) birthday (my name) !” On the board 😡 WHY CANT YOU? YOU HAVE HANDS TOO💔

I'm not a bad person. But still I hate how my relative mistreated me knowing I was in bad situation and just brushed it off. Like it and I didn't matter. Today I was told don't say stuff about them because they could go at anytime because they look bad in a pic on social media. My feelings are still valid though. They even purposely left me out of a family outing, refused to take me to a dr appointment when fam asked them to when our vehicle was broken down for no reason. Just have a crappy tone sarcastic response " well you better go callem then". Then gave me the stank eye when I gave them a bad look for it. I was down and was basically spit on by them. So how tf am I supposed to feel? You don't treat people that way.