All Rants

funny how you can be more closer to other people than the person u said ur gon try to win back again hahahahahahahah

This is not a vent but it’s a rant There is this song maker named Luluyam she has a whole fanbase right but during the drama she had a doc I saw that doc she said she didn’t make it but it was clear as day she made it there is this other artist named flairlick she had damn near a lot of evidence against Luluyam (go look at flarlicks YouTube channel) Luluyam did noncon and she was a proshipper SHES PUSHING ALMOST THIRTY and she’s sending her fanbase to attack this poor artist she even has a kid a 5 year old kid and she does noncon and yet her fanbase is worshipping her as like a god as she has hot characters and she’s a lesbian SHE HAS A GIRLFRIEND A FEW YEARS YOUNGER THEN HER she the calls Flarlick a groomer WHEN LULUYAM DOES NONCON AND SHES A PROSHIPPER yet people claw at flarlicks neck telling her to get off her clit and stop doing shit

"i dont love you as much" "i just dont want to hurt you" i dont want to be here anymore what do you mean what changed why why why

I loved my grandparents. They were so nice to me. Gave me the candy and drinks I wanted, made food for me when I wanted, got me gifts, and were just genuinely nice to me. Keep in mind they are CHRISTIAN to the CORE. After I started not doing everything they wanted they became distant, yelled at me. I asked them to stop hugging me without permission. Just to stop... my brother is trans and they call him she and his dead name. I'm non-bianary, Bisexual, changed my name, and an Atheist. I haven't told them... I'm scared what they'll think... -Astro

when I was 12 I had a crush on this boy in the homeless shelter that was 17 and I think he liked me back??? 😬

I did picture day today for school. I was confident for so long about my outfit and my appearance. My friends were hyping me up, telling me I looked good. I was so happy until I was getting ready to leave the house. I can't drive yet so my mom was getting ready to drive me there and all she did was stare at me for a second and I said "What?" naturally. Like why are you staring at me like that? With that... Disgusted look? She replied with "Are you really confident in... THAT?" I asked her if she didn't like it or something and she said "Whatever you feel confident in I guess..." I feel MISERABLE. Like wtf?.. I felt so confident and happy and you KNEW that I know you did... you saw me smiling. I feel so angry...

I don’t care about luxury cars, mansions, nice clothes, getting rich, or status. I just don’t care at all. If I had those things, what then? What comes after? Why does everything feel the same, and why am I sad all the time like I’m constantly chasing something that isn't even about status? I just can't seem to understand. What are the goals? Getting a job? Getting married? Buying a house? Aren’t they all the same, and will those things truly make me happy? I think no matter how much I have, I'll always ask myself, 'What then?' It's not because I'm ungrateful, but because I can never understand why I feel so drained all the time, no matter what I do or whether I’m having a good day. What am I really doing? And it’s not because I don’t know what my purpose is. I know what it is, but if I know my purpose and don’t chase these worldly desires, am I just living until I die eventually without knowing how to get rid of this feeling? Or is it because this feeling? A sense of emptiness

Honestly I’m trying my hardest to rebuild my relationship with someone I’ve been dating for 8 to 9 years now, throughout our relationship they have cheated, abused me and neglected me, I even was originally their rebound relationship.. to be honest I don’t blame their cruelty, I was a year and a half older, we were both queer and their dad was abusing them but, I cannot lie even if right now we are good and we are married, I can’t bring myself to trust them, I resent them a little, they changed yes but so slowly and I had to support them the entire time because I wanted them, I want them, but even if their progress is there, it’s too small for my wounded heart, I fear I’m becoming the abuser by being reactive. I cannot ever tell if I’m being deceived with him or anything like that, I want to stay with him but we got together so young too I wonder if I’m not putting all my eggs in one basket, our life goals are different.. I want to eventually adopt kids, he doesn’t want kids. idk

i was talking in class about how effort matters and i mentioned an anecdote about the effort that was put into recognizing how teachers have perceived power over students and i mentioned the teacher who i noticed acknowledge that by name and the moment i heard the other students react i got sooo soo embarrassed and now i'm thinking like GOD i NEED to kill myself,,, i blame my ocd for making me fixate on this for 5+ hours

everybody is driving me crazy i feel invisible. i cant sleep at nights

yk lowkey i have a feeling my mom kinda of just doesn't want to do anything w me (and grandma). understandable, i get that grans gets rlly strict and outright insults her and i'm not rlly an outdoorsy type. growing up w my grandma i kind of got her personality too---which i also hate. so it kind of feels insufferable around us. but it js gives the feeling that the both of us are leftovers. idk my bio dad and my mom got married and has a child w the stepdad (which i can't rlly feel comfortable calling dad since i didn't grow up w him and never rlly talked to him + i never had a dad or a male figure at home, it's js plain awkward highk) she hangs out a lot more w her friend and her family while me and grans are kinda js sitting around. which is fine, we would be pretty stressful around i think. it kinda js feels like we're unwanted at times is all. idk lol

thanks to every1 who left those kind notes I feel a bit better hopoefully it stays this way love you guys :]

so why did I just find out my uncle knows j cole??? I mean my uncles a rapper but an underground one I think?? like that’s so random

fuck it I cant keep waiting I'm just gonna sleep fuck my life maybe I should learn to fuckig rest

I cant handle it with these 988 chat lines I don't have a phone number I don't wanna call on the house phone I only have my laptop rn please just answer before I end up stabbing myself

honestly there’s so many music artists that I hate but there’s always that one song that’s SO good. like why are you a horrible person but then made this banger? runaway by Kanye west?? butterfly by bts?? Monday gun day by lildarkie?? ugh

I’m way too clingy for my own good. I can’t go a day without talking to my best friend without feeling like I’ll spiral. Being ignored by her feels so horrible. Knowing that she probably has other people that she likes more than me is torture. I hate feeling this jealousy. Both wanting to be her only one and wanting to have the same amount of social ability as she does. I want to hear her voice again but I’m not man enough to actually ask. I remember talking until the early hours of the morning. I remember feeling tired and wanting to hang up. I will never take a call from her for granted again.

I want bella please just for a few minutes I miss her I'm not crazy I just want my friend she actually treats me well

Ok hear me out. I have this really huge desire to be Asian. It’s getting worse. I look at videos of Asians for hours. It’s affecting me. It’s just a way to cope of who i am. But it’s getting worse.

I want bella please please please please ANNYTHING I JUST WANT BELLA I WANT BELLA IM SORRY IF IM ANNOYING BUT I WANT BELLA I WANT BELLA I WAN BELLA I JUST WANT BELLA