All Rants

Time for me to go to bed. Yall pray I don't get caught by someone awake at 3:30am because my mom knows I've been up late every day for the past few days (Little does she know what she thinks is days is years) but if she sees me or if my dad sees me I'm SCREWED. I need to clean my bathroom, brush my teeth, and sneak into bed. Wish me luck and see you lovelies tomorrow. :3 -Astro

I feel like everyone around me is struggling and so I can't be struggling and I'm trying my best not to but at the moment i'm just finding it really hard to cope and not be depressed or anxious and I want to be able to be normal and support my friends but it feels a bit like i'm drowning. i can't prioritise school enough and i'm getting bad grades and people are disappointed in me. I'm disappointed in myself. I just feel really nauseous whenever I'm anxious and that makes it worse. I just want to stay at home for a really long time but I barely get to be there anymore. I just need a lot more time

Yo F.G how you doin? I saw your reply to my rant. Thanks for the advice but I do struggle with that stuff. I usually go to bed right after I'm done on screens. I hate going to bed early because I feel the need to be on here. This is a family computer so I can't use it during the day when other people are awake. They'll see my rants and have nothing but pity for me knowing my family. Sorry it took me so long to respond I hear someone coming down to were I am and am trying to type slow and silent. Loud ass keyboard yk? -Astro

i feel guilty for taking up space as a person and idk what’s wrong with me i only talk about how i feel when im fucked up because that’s the only time i don’t care about being a burden. i wish i was comfortable in my own skin for once

i’m tired. everything i thought would make me happy doesn’t

I just wanted everyone on here to know your amazing human beings no matter what you think. Unless your one of those people that are just on here to be assholes to people that are suffering. But to those of you who want to end it just think. How do you know tomorrow will be the same if you don't live to see it? Something good could happen and you'd never know. And to the rape victims on here, you didn't deserve it. It's not your fault. It's the stupid ass fucking society we live in. I love you beauties. See you on here at about 12am-4am CT every night? See you beauties then! <3

I remember when my friend accidentally panced (?) me and I was wearing baggy ass pajama pants but I think no one else saw it

I work in a small space with another person, there’s no air flow. She farts all day It’s so gross I do whatever I can to not be around her It’s not like she doesn’t know she’s doing it! You can hear them besides the smell 🤢

ok looking back I was a real hot mess in 6th and 7th grade like I deadass a zombie, like barely conscious I don’t think I even knew I existed?? there was so many rumors abt me and drama surrounding me?? I mean I don’t really care bc I was going through a lot at home so it’s understandable but DAMN.

I'm the only one who stays awake past like midnight in my family. My mom and dad are sleeping, my brother is probably sleeping, all the animals other than my Leopard gecko are sleeping, but I'm to awake to ever sleep. I go to sleep at about 4am every day and wake up at 1pm-2pm. I know it's slowly killing me. I can't seem to stop... -Astro

Chronic pain + the depression it causes is genuinely crushing me. I stay in bed because it hurts to do anything and my body punishes me more for it. I can't stand it. This body hates me. This body wants me to suffer and rot. And the depression? God. I feel useless. I feel disgusting. I'm not, I know that I'm not, that I'm just dealing with a flare up and have limited mobility but STILL. I feel like a waste of space, a burden on everyone I know. I can't even pass the potatoes at dinner without wincing in pain. I hate it. I hate myself, or at least THIS part of myself. I wish it would just go away. I can't even wish this pain on my worst enemy because it's THAT bad. This body wants me to rot but what comes from rot? Growth. I'll bloom into someone beautiful. At least, that's what I tell myself. That this too shall pass and I'll be better. Sure, that mainly just means waiting for surgery but...I can survive that. I survived 24 years with this pain. I can last a few more months.

Ever notice how "empaths" always seem to have empathy for everyone except you?

Well I definitely won that one. I am going to have to put disclaimers on all my rants that I will publicly post every private note trying to argue with me or shame me and I will respond with exactly what I'm thinking (besides the illegal stuff) and I will keep putting it on blast. (If you leave a note that is arguing with me or shaming me, I will copy and paste and post it on here and respond to it publicly and I won't be nice about it and other people will see it and probably agree with me like they did last time) Also you can't teach me empathy, people have tried to, and then quickly shown me exactly why I don't have empathy for humans.

I am finally chasing my dreams of writing books. I always had a active imagination. I have always wanted to be an author since I was little. I finally just finished my first chapter of my first book. I waited all day to share to my friends. And only one so far said it was good but grammar errors. And the rest just said it was good that I wrote. But not about the book, or any thoughts about it. Or what does or doesn't make sense. I am trying to be understanding, but I can't help to be a little disappointed by the passing energy as much as I might as well have said, "Hey I got a new poster board for arts and crafts." And I am pretty sure two of them won't read it. Now I don't want to share it now. I may be over reacting. But i was really excited to share my dream and what could potentiality be my first full selling book. I am not expecting to get famous off it. But imagine it seeing it on shelves will be wild.

online classes are good for my mental health (and i am grateful for them) but at the same time i find myself feeling so lonely. i wonder if i will ever even fall in love. i barely know anybody. i can probably count the people i talk to on one hand. i am quite bad at talking to people. maybe i missed my chance to learn how to be social like the others.

I'm exhausted... mentally and physically...

So, my big ass doesnt give a living shi of my step dad...NOW, dont think im hating him for no reason, he literally touches me in weir ways, like he will hit me sometimes for fun, and multipule times he has fake CHOKED ME...and the worse thing, i actuly feel it...i actully run out of air...and he doesnt care....is this abuse...uhg.....anyways, by my shells

(this is a vent) I really miss October 2024 in a bad way... I was surrounded with bad people I don't miss the way they lust and made lies about me. I don't miss the way they acted I just missed the way they were family and were my comfort for when I harmed myself or the sadness and attachment issues I felt. I hate myself for feeling this way I just want to cry my eyes out. I have nobody to talk to this about

It feels like everyone I know leaves me or turns on me so clearly I'm the problem, but I have no idea what I'm doing wrong. Everyone tells me I'm nice and sweet, but clearly that either isn't true or I'm missing something else. I don't get it and I can't get anyone to stay by my side

funny how you can be more closer to other people than the person u said ur gon try to win back again hahahahahahahah