All Rants

my dad locked me out of my room, trying to fight me half drunk and bi polar. i just wanna go back to the days when i was young and he loved me

"bring back bullying" but someone mumbled "kýš" to me because I WAS SNIFFLING IN CLASS, BECAUSE. I. WAS. SICK. I DONT CARE IF YOU FOUND MY SNIFFLING ANNOYING. SAYING THAT OVER A MINOR INCONVENIENCE IS UNACCEPTABLE. YOU NEED TO GROW UP AND MATURE IMMEDIATELY. (and it was obviously a cis white boy)

I spend so much time and energy lately trying to make my life better. But every minor improvement is followed by a massive setback. Try to get my finances under control, get laid off. Try to declutter and be cleaner, now there’s a horde of flies in the house. Try to be a better more supportive person? Best friend moves away. Try to have better hygiene and self care? Massive tooth infection to the point I can’t even sleep.

Why do I have to write MY own “happy ( my age) birthday (my name) !” On the board 😡 WHY CANT YOU? YOU HAVE HANDS TOO💔

I'm not a bad person. But still I hate how my relative mistreated me knowing I was in bad situation and just brushed it off. Like it and I didn't matter. Today I was told don't say stuff about them because they could go at anytime because they look bad in a pic on social media. My feelings are still valid though. They even purposely left me out of a family outing, refused to take me to a dr appointment when fam asked them to when our vehicle was broken down for no reason. Just have a crappy tone sarcastic response " well you better go callem then". Then gave me the stank eye when I gave them a bad look for it. I was down and was basically spit on by them. So how tf am I supposed to feel? You don't treat people that way.

all of my friends suddenly as soon there is no school for 6 weeks only meet without you like 40days no text nothing but they hang out togher almost daily ✌️ not only that but i will also die alone bc of your bad looks and social lackings i got from the last years. having negative thoughts no sleep no energy and no one to talk to of your problems and self hate just for everyone to think that youre just acting or so, and the best part is that its only getting worse and there is no ending in sight cant do this shit anymore failed as everything and in everything

I HATE rock here’s why She talks shit about everyone She’s cheated on me Hickeyed up my neck before skating Lies Always looking for trouble Mean Always cancels or is late Boy crazy Blames me for everything Hyper sexual Only liked me when I was (yk) pushy Pretended to be my friend Not trustworthy Threw everything out over a shit guy Traded us for new friends Tryed to leave everyone Made me do everything Just a bad person Reckless Yelled at me on v-day cus I put on my p story that I was thankful for her (her name was not even on it Wanted me to take her vergeinaty Told me gross things about past relationship Never wanted to do what I wanted to do Never blamed herself al

I smoke a lot and when I'm sober I notice how much I hate my life, I always catch my myself thinking back to when I was happy, like when I was in a relationship, I had friends, I didn't always have extreme anxiety when someones I don't know talks to me. Now I only talk to like 3-4 friends out of like 12 I had, not a lot but I was happy. I always feel like shit and I wanna throw up every morning b4 school. I just wish I had someone to love and my life didn't suck as much as it does.

someone please tell me something funny or give me a story.. I want something other than nsfw and freaky shit. I need a break to actually feel happy.

I try to eat more but I feel like I’m going to puke everytime I do

I’m lonely I olny have online friends I fuck up all my real ones. Two of my siblings live in another sate my other one I can’t talk to because he freaks out at every single fucking thing I say. I try to talk to people irl but I get all anxious. Every were I go in person I freak out days before hand even if I went there hundreds of times before. I want in person friends I want to not do cyber school I want to be able to talk to my siblings I want to not feel fucking alone all the time or angry or anxious.

I can’t eat without feeling like a fucking pig. I hate that I care so much about what other people think about me.

I have school starting tomorrow and I honestly have blocked out the fact that I’m going. I feel like I have no real best friend who cares deeply for me and would choose me over anyone else. I had that for a long time and it was taken away. Will I be okay with just myself….?

heh. I've done it again. I used ai nsfw chat bots. .... I fucking hate how when I type r into the bar this pops up. I'm always venting boutu some ai chat bot when I can prolly easily quit. but its hard. I wanna quit. well, prolly wont be here until after dinner. love ya'll ig.

I’m not doing good. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to tell my parents because theyll freak out. If I tell my brother he’ll tell my mom. And I can’t tell my friends because they have there own stuff ti worry abt. I want to kill myself but I also don’t I don’t know what to do.

I hate that M doesn't like me back, I thought this year was gonna be different like I would have a boyfriend or that someone would actually like me but that is NEVER gonna happen and i wish i could just be invisible and now everyone hates me because i fought M and hes talking to a prettier girl than me and it sucks because i now know hes type and i'm not it... and my mom hates me because i stopped belivingin jesus christ but she doesn't understand why and its like she doesn't want to understand but she keeps forcing me to beliving in Him but he has not done anything for me and i've been worshipping Him since i was 5 and all He's ever done is make my life worse day by day i literally lost so many people and i've been struggling with everything going on and Jesus isn't going to help me and He never will...

i want to be a trans man without being scared. i want to be a trans man and follow trans artists and follow people in general without being constantly worried they want me to die or be constantly in wait for the one post where they say they think 'tmes' should all die or see them gladly say that when they want men to die, they mean all men. i want to be alive. i don't wanna hear yellow jokes and i don't wanna hear my chinese father blame a product being made in china for its poor quality. i want to be able to say i'm a person of color and get looks just because i'm asian. i want to be alive (2/2) — kz

i wanna be a person for one fucking day. one day is all i'm asking anyone in the world. i wanna be a person and i want to be a person that's loved. i want to talk to people without worrying that i'm being awful and evil and bigoted and i want to be embarrassed without thinking about it for the entire day. i want to be able to feel negative emotions without being scared to say it. i want to be able to vent without having to make an entirely separate blog because i'm scared people will see it and get scared or worried for me. i want the people i live with to respect me and what i ask them to do. i don't want to come home to see my door or my window open when i've made more signs on my door than the amount of fingers on my hand telling them that i don't want them coming inside my room. i don't want to come home to my shit broken. i don't want to hear my parents shittalk me when i'm in the same room as them, even when my headphones are on. (1/2) — kz

if some of yall are going back to school soon or are already in school- this is your sign to make a bingo card of all the popular girl and popular boy humor. it'll make it a lot more bearable Example: "QUIET ON THE CREEK GUYS!" "My friend over here like you.." "SCUBAAAAA SCUBAAA" "DUBISCUTGENUNGGG" and just go from there lmao if you get a bingo like get yourself ice cream or something idk Happy suffering guys!

i actually hate my parents bro, cause why the fuck do they literally take and keep control of the phone that I bought with my own money. And then they say "Oh if you were brn in the country i grew up in, you wouldn't even have a phone" like bro what the actual fuck. I cant even take my phone with me to school or anywhere cause they think it makes me fail. Mind you they didn't pay a cent fr it. I literally got it by myself. No social media, must know my password, has my fucking email o their phones, like bro. I hate that. I am literally a juniior in high school btw and my pees still think I dont hava a phone like how embarassing is that